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VOLUME II   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XLV
Henry James
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       _ I have already had reason to say that Isabel knew her husband to
       be displeased by the continuance of Ralph's visit to Rome. That
       knowledge was very present to her as she went to her cousin's
       hotel the day after she had invited Lord Warburton to give a
       tangible proof of his sincerity; and at this moment, as at
       others, she had a sufficient perception of the sources of
       Osmond's opposition. He wished her to have no freedom of mind,
       and he knew perfectly well that Ralph was an apostle of freedom.
       It was just because he was this, Isabel said to herself, that it
       was a refreshment to go and see him. It will be perceived that
       she partook of this refreshment in spite of her husband's
       aversion to it, that is partook of it, as she flattered herself,
       discreetly. She had not as yet undertaken to act in direct
       opposition to his wishes; he was her appointed and inscribed
       master; she gazed at moments with a sort of incredulous blankness
       at this fact. It weighed upon her imagination, however;
       constantly present to her mind were all the traditionary
       decencies and sanctities of marriage. The idea of violating them
       filled her with shame as well as with dread, for on giving
       herself away she had lost sight of this contingency in the
       perfect belief that her husband's intentions were as generous as
       her own. She seemed to see, none the less, the rapid approach
       of the day when she should have to take back something she had
       solemnly bestown. Such a ceremony would be odious and monstrous;
       she tried to shut her eyes to it meanwhile. Osmond would do
       nothing to help it by beginning first; he would put that burden
       upon her to the end. He had not yet formally forbidden her to
       call upon Ralph; but she felt sure that unless Ralph should very
       soon depart this prohibition would come. How could poor Ralph
       depart? The weather as yet made it impossible. She could
       perfectly understand her husband's wish for the event; she
       didn't, to be just, see how he COULD like her to be with her
       cousin. Ralph never said a word against him, but Osmond's sore,
       mute protest was none the less founded. If he should positively
       interpose, if he should put forth his authority, she would have
       to decide, and that wouldn't be easy. The prospect made her heart
       beat and her cheeks burn, as I say, in advance; there were
       moments when, in her wish to avoid an open rupture, she found
       herself wishing Ralph would start even at a risk. And it was of
       no use that, when catching herself in this state of mind, she
       called herself a feeble spirit, a coward. It was not that she
       loved Ralph less, but that almost anything seemed preferable to
       repudiating the most serious act--the single sacred act--of her
       life. That appeared to make the whole future hideous. To break
       with Osmond once would be to break for ever; any open
       acknowledgement of irreconcilable needs would be an admission
       that their whole attempt had proved a failure. For them there
       could be no condonement, no compromise, no easy forgetfulness, no
       formal readjustment. They had attempted only one thing, but that
       one thing was to have been exquisite. Once they missed it nothing
       else would do; there was no conceivable substitute for that
       success. For the moment, Isabel went to the Hotel de Paris as
       often as she thought well; the measure of propriety was in the
       canon of taste, and there couldn't have been a better proof that
       morality was, so to speak, a matter of earnest appreciation.
       Isabel's application of that measure had been particularly free
       to-day, for in addition to the general truth that she couldn't
       leave Ralph to die alone she had something important to ask of
       him. This indeed was Gilbert's business as well as her own.
       She came very soon to what she wished to speak of. "I want you to
       answer me a question. It's about Lord Warburton."
       "I think I guess your question," Ralph answered from his
       arm-chair, out of which his thin legs protruded at greater length
       than ever.
       "Very possibly you guess it. Please then answer it."
       "Oh, I don't say I can do that."
       "You're intimate with him," she said; "you've a great deal of
       observation of him."
       "Very true. But think how he must dissimulate!"
       "Why should he dissimulate? That's not his nature."
       "Ah, you must remember that the circumstances are peculiar," said
       Ralph with an air of private amusement.
       "To a certain extent--yes. But is he really in love?"
       "Very much, I think. I can make that out."
       "Ah!" said Isabel with a certain dryness.
       Ralph looked at her as if his mild hilarity had been touched with
       mystification. "You say that as if you were disappointed."
       Isabel got up, slowly smoothing her gloves and eyeing them
       thoughtfully. "It's after all no business of mine."
       "You're very philosophic," said her cousin. And then in a moment:
       "May I enquire what you're talking about?"
       Isabel stared. "I thought you knew. Lord Warburton tells me he
       wants, of all things in the world, to marry Pansy. I've told you
       that before, without eliciting a comment from you. You might risk
       one this morning, I think. Is it your belief that he really cares
       for her?"
       "Ah, for Pansy, no!" cried Ralph very positively.
       "But you said just now he did."
       Ralph waited a moment. "That he cared for you, Mrs. Osmond."
       Isabel shook her head gravely. "That's nonsense, you know."
       "Of course it is. But the nonsense is Warburton's, not mine."
       "That would be very tiresome." She spoke, as she flattered
       herself, with much subtlety.
       "I ought to tell you indeed," Ralph went on, "that to me he has
       denied it."
       "It's very good of you to talk about it together! Has he also
       told you that he's in love with Pansy?"
       "He has spoken very well of her--very properly. He has let me
       know, of course, that he thinks she would do very well at
       Lockleigh."
       "Does he really think it?"
       "Ah, what Warburton really thinks--!" said Ralph.
       Isabel fell to smoothing her gloves again; they were long, loose
       gloves on which she could freely expend herself. Soon, however,
       she looked up, and then, "Ah, Ralph, you give me no help!" she
       cried abruptly and passionately.
       It was the first time she had alluded to the need for help, and
       the words shook her cousin with their violence. He gave a long
       murmur of relief, of pity, of tenderness; it seemed to him that
       at last the gulf between them had been bridged. It was this that
       made him exclaim in a moment: "How unhappy you must be!"
       He had no sooner spoken than she recovered her self-possession,
       and the first use she made of it was to pretend she had not heard
       him. "When I talk of your helping me I talk great nonsense," she
       said with a quick smile. "The idea of my troubling you with my
       domestic embarrassments! The matter's very simple; Lord Warburton
       must get on by himself. I can't undertake to see him through."
       "He ought to succeed easily," said Ralph.
       Isabel debated. "Yes--but he has not always succeeded."
       "Very true. You know, however, how that always surprised me. Is
       Miss Osmond capable of giving us a surprise?"
       "It will come from him, rather. I seem to see that after all
       he'll let the matter drop."
       "He'll do nothing dishonourable," said Ralph.
       "I'm very sure of that. Nothing can be more honourable than for
       him to leave the poor child alone. She cares for another person,
       and it's cruel to attempt to bribe her by magnificent offers to
       give him up."
       "Cruel to the other person perhaps--the one she cares for. But
       Warburton isn't obliged to mind that."
       "No, cruel to her," said Isabel. "She would be very unhappy if
       she were to allow herself to be persuaded to desert poor Mr.
       Rosier. That idea seems to amuse you; of course you're not in
       love with him. He has the merit--for Pansy--of being in love with
       Pansy. She can see at a glance that Lord Warburton isn't."
       "He'd be very good to her," said Ralph.
       "He has been good to her already. Fortunately, however, he has
       not said a word to disturb her. He could come and bid her
       good-bye to-morrow with perfect propriety."
       "How would your husband like that?"
       "Not at all; and he may be right in not liking it. Only he must
       obtain satisfaction himself."
       "Has he commissioned you to obtain it?" Ralph ventured to ask.
       "It was natural that as an old friend of Lord Warburton's--an
       older friend, that is, than Gilbert--I should take an interest in
       his intentions."
       "Take an interest in his renouncing them, you mean?"
       Isabel hesitated, frowning a little. "Let me understand. Are you
       pleading his cause?"
       "Not in the least. I'm very glad he shouldn't become your
       stepdaughter's husband. It makes such a very queer relation to
       you!" said Ralph, smiling. "But I'm rather nervous lest your
       husband should think you haven't pushed him enough."
       Isabel found herself able to smile as well as he. "He knows me
       well enough not to have expected me to push. He himself has no
       intention of pushing, I presume. I'm not afraid I shall not be
       able to justify myself!" she said lightly.
       Her mask had dropped for an instant, but she had put it on again,
       to Ralph's infinite disappointment. He had caught a glimpse of
       her natural face and he wished immensely to look into it. He had
       an almost savage desire to hear her complain of her husband--hear
       her say that she should be held accountable for Lord Warburton's
       defection. Ralph was certain that this was her situation; he knew
       by instinct, in advance, the form that in such an event Osmond's
       displeasure would take. It could only take the meanest and
       cruellest. He would have liked to warn Isabel of it--to let her
       see at least how he judged for her and how he knew. It little
       mattered that Isabel would know much better; it was for his own
       satisfaction more than for hers that he longed to show her he was
       not deceived. He tried and tried again to make her betray Osmond;
       he felt cold-blooded, cruel, dishonourable almost, in doing so.
       But it scarcely mattered, for be only failed. What had she come
       for then, and why did she seem almost to offer him a chance to
       violate their tacit convention? Why did she ask him his advice if
       she gave him no liberty to answer her? How could they talk of her
       domestic embarrassments, as it pleased her humorously to
       designate them, if the principal factor was not to be mentioned?
       These contradictions were themselves but an indication of her
       trouble, and her cry for help, just before, was the only thing he
       was bound to consider. "You'll be decidedly at variance, all the
       same," he said in a moment. And as she answered nothing, looking
       as if she scarce understood, "You'll find yourselves thinking
       very differently," he continued.
       "That may easily happen, among the most united couples!" She took
       up her parasol; he saw she was nervous, afraid of what he might
       say. "It's a matter we can hardly quarrel about, however," she
       added; "for almost all the interest is on his side. That's very
       natural. Pansy's after all his daughter--not mine." And she put
       out her hand to wish him goodbye.
       Ralph took an inward resolution that she shouldn't leave him
       without his letting her know that he knew everything: it seemed
       too great an opportunity to lose. "Do you know what his interest
       will make him say?" he asked as he took her hand. She shook her
       head, rather dryly--not discouragingly--and he went on. "It will
       make him say that your want of zeal is owing to jealousy." He
       stopped a moment; her face made him afraid.
       "To jealousy?"
       "To jealousy of his daughter."
       She blushed red and threw back her head. "You're not kind," she
       said in a voice that he had never heard on her lips.
       "Be frank with me and you'll see," he answered.
       But she made no reply; she only pulled her hand out of his own,
       which he tried still to hold, and rapidly withdrew from the room.
       She made up her mind to speak to Pansy, and she took an occasion
       on the same day, going to the girl's room before dinner. Pansy
       was already dressed; she was always in advance of the time: it
       seemed to illustrate her pretty patience and the graceful
       stillness with which she could sit and wait. At present she was
       seated, in her fresh array, before the bed-room fire; she had
       blown out her candles on the completion of her toilet, in
       accordance with the economical habits in which she had been brought
       up sand which she was now more careful than ever to observe; so that
       the room was lighted only by a couple of logs. The rooms in
       Palazzo Roccanera were as spacious as they were numerous, and
       Pansy's virginal bower was an immense chamber with a dark,
       heavily-timbered ceiling. Its diminutive mistress, in the midst
       of it, appeared but a speck of humanity, and as she got up, with
       quick deference, to welcome Isabel, the latter was more than ever
       struck with her shy sincerity. Isabel had a difficult task--the
       only thing was to perform it as simply as possible. She felt
       bitter and angry, but she warned herself against betraying this
       heat. She was afraid even of looking too grave, or at least too
       stern; she was afraid of causing alarm. Put Pansy seemed to have
       guessed she had come more or less as a confessor; for after she
       had moved the chair in which she had been sitting a little nearer
       to the fire and Isabel had taken her place in it, she kneeled
       down on a cushion in front of her, looking up and resting her
       clasped hands on her stepmother's knees. What Isabel wished to do
       was to hear from her own lips that her mind was not occupied with
       Lord Warburton; but if she desired the assurance she felt herself
       by no means at liberty to provoke it. The girl's father would
       have qualified this as rank treachery; and indeed Isabel knew
       that if Pansy should display the smallest germ of a disposition
       to encourage Lord Warburton her own duty was to hold her tongue.
       It was difficult to interrogate without appearing to suggest;
       Pansy's supreme simplicity, an innocence even more complete than
       Isabel had yet judged it, gave to the most tentative enquiry
       something of the effect of an admonition. As she knelt there in
       the vague firelight, with her pretty dress dimly shining, her
       hands folded half in appeal and half in submission, her soft
       eyes, raised and fixed, full of the seriousness of the situation,
       she looked to Isabel like a childish martyr decked out for
       sacrifice and scarcely presuming even to hope to avert it. When
       Isabel said to her that she had never yet spoken to her of what
       might have been going on in relation to her getting married, but
       that her silence had not been indifference or ignorance, had only
       been the desire to leave her at liberty, Pansy bent forward,
       raised her face nearer and nearer, and with a little murmur which
       evidently expressed a deep longing, answered that she had greatly
       wished her to speak and that she begged her to advise her now.
       "It's difficult for me to advise you," Isabel returned. "I don't
       know how I can undertake that. That's for your father; you must
       get his advice and, above all, you must act on it."
       At this Pansy dropped her eyes; for a moment she said nothing. "I
       think I should like your advice better than papa's," she
       presently remarked.
       "That's not as it should be," said Isabel coldly. "I love you
       very much, but your father loves you better."
       "It isn't because you love me--it's because you're a lady," Pansy
       answered with the air of saying something very reasonable. "A
       lady can advise a young girl better than a man."
       "I advise you then to pay the greatest respect to your father's
       wishes."
       "Ah yes," said the child eagerly, "I must do that."
       "But if I speak to you now about your getting married it's not
       for your own sake, it's for mine," Isabel went on. "If I try to
       learn from you what you expect, what you desire, it's only that I
       may act accordingly."
       Pansy stared, and then very quickly, "Will you do everything I
       want?" she asked.
       "Before I say yes I must know what such things are."
       Pansy presently told her that the only thing she wanted in life
       was to marry Mr. Rosier. He had asked her and she had told him
       she would do so if her papa would allow it. Now her papa
       wouldn't allow it.
       "Very well then, it's impossible," Isabel pronounced.
       "Yes, it's impossible," said Pansy without a sigh and with the
       same extreme attention in her clear little face.
       "You must think of something else then," Isabel went on; but
       Pansy, sighing at this, told her that she had attempted that feat
       without the least success.
       "You think of those who think of you," she said with a faint
       smile. "I know Mr. Rosier thinks of me."
       "He ought not to," said Isabel loftily. "Your father has
       expressly requested he shouldn't."
       "He can't help it, because he knows I think of HIM."
       "You shouldn't think of him. There's some excuse for him,
       perhaps; but there's none for you."
       "I wish you would try to find one," the girl exclaimed as if she
       were praying to the Madonna.
       "I should be very sorry to attempt it," said the Madonna with
       unusual frigidity. "If you knew some one else was thinking of
       you, would you think of him?"
       "No one can think of me as Mr. Rosier does; no one has the
       right."
       "Ah, but I don't admit Mr. Rosier's right!" Isabel hypocritically
       cried.
       Pansy only gazed at her, evidently much puzzled; and Isabel,
       taking advantage of it, began to represent to her the wretched
       consequences of disobeying her father. At this Pansy stopped her
       with the assurance that she would never disobey him, would never
       marry without his consent. And she announced, in the serenest,
       simplest tone, that, though she might never marry Mr. Rosier, she
       would never cease to think of him. She appeared to have accepted
       the idea of eternal singleness; but Isabel of course was free to
       reflect that she had no conception of its meaning. She was
       perfectly sincere; she was prepared to give up her lover. This
       might seem an important step toward taking another, but for
       Pansy, evidently, it failed to lead in that direction. She felt
       no bitterness toward her father; there was no bitterness in her
       heart; there was only the sweetness of fidelity to Edward Rosier,
       and a strange, exquisite intimation that she could prove it
       better by remaining single than even by marrying him.
       "Your father would like you to make a better marriage," said
       Isabel. "Mr. Rosier's fortune is not at all large."
       "How do you mean better--if that would be good enough? And I have
       myself so little money; why should I look for a fortune?"
       "Your having so little is a reason for looking for more." With
       which Isabel was grateful for the dimness of the room; she felt
       as if her face were hideously insincere. It was what she was
       doing for Osmond; it was what one had to do for Osmond! Pansy's
       solemn eyes, fixed on her own, almost embarrassed her; she was
       ashamed to think she had made so light of the girl's preference.
       "What should you like me to do?" her companion softly demanded.
       The question was a terrible one, and Isabel took refuge in
       timorous vagueness. "To remember all the pleasure it's in your
       power to give your father."
       "To marry some one else, you mean--if he should ask me?"
       For a moment Isabel's answer caused itself to be waited for; then
       she heard herself utter it in the stillness that Pansy's
       attention seemed to make. "Yes--to marry some one else."
       The child's eyes grew more penetrating; Isabel believed she was
       doubting her sincerity, and the impression took force from her
       slowly getting up from her cushion. She stood there a moment with
       her small hands unclasped and then quavered out: "Well, I hope no
       one will ask me!"
       "There has been a question of that. Some one else would have been
       ready to ask you."
       "I don't think he can have been ready," said Pansy.
       "It would appear so if he had been sure he'd succeed."
       "If he had been sure? Then he wasn't ready!"
       Isabel thought this rather sharp; she also got up and stood a
       moment looking into the fire. "Lord Warburton has shown you great
       attention," she resumed; "of course you know it's of him I
       speak." She found herself, against her expectation, almost placed
       in the position of justifying herself; which led her to introduce
       this nobleman more crudely than she had intended.
       "He has been very kind to me, and I like him very much. But if
       you mean that he'll propose for me I think you're mistaken."
       "Perhaps I am. But your father would like it extremely."
       Pansy shook her head with a little wise smile. "Lord Warburton
       won't propose simply to please papa."
       "Your father would like you to encourage him," Isabel went on
       mechanically.
       "How can I encourage him?"
       "I don't know. Your father must tell you that."
       Pansy said nothing for a moment; she only continued to smile as
       if she were in possession of a bright assurance. "There's no
       danger--no danger!" she declared at last.
       There was a conviction in the way she said this, and a felicity
       in her believing it, which conduced to Isabel's awkwardness. She
       felt accused of dishonesty, and the idea was disgusting. To
       repair her self-respect she was on the point of saying that Lord
       Warburton had let her know that there was a danger. But she
       didn't; she only said--in her embarrassment rather wide of the
       mark--that he surely had been most kind, most friendly.
       "Yes, he has been very kind," Pansy answered. "That's what I like
       him for."
       "Why then is the difficulty so great?"
       "I've always felt sure of his knowing that I don't want--what did
       you say I should do?--to encourage him. He knows I don't want to
       marry, and he wants me to know that he therefore won't trouble
       me. That's the meaning of his kindness. It's as if he said to me:
       'I like you very much, but if it doesn't please you I'll never
       say it again.' I think that's very kind, very noble," Pansy went
       on with deepening positiveness. "That is all we've said to each
       other. And he doesn't care for me either. Ah no, there's no
       danger."
       Isabel was touched with wonder at the depths of perception of
       which this submissive little person was capable; she felt afraid
       of Pansy's wisdom--began almost to retreat before it. "You must
       tell your father that," she remarked reservedly.
       "I think I'd rather not," Pansy unreservedly answered.
       "You oughtn't to let him have false hopes."
       "Perhaps not; but it will be good for me that he should. So long
       as he believes that Lord Warburton intends anything of the kind
       you say, papa won't propose any one else. And that will be an
       advantage for me," said the child very lucidly.
       There was something brilliant in her lucidity, and it made her
       companion draw a long breath. It relieved this friend of a heavy
       responsibility. Pansy had a sufficient illumination of her own,
       and Isabel felt that she herself just now had no light to spare
       from her small stock. Nevertheless it still clung to her that she
       must be loyal to Osmond, that she was on her honour in dealing
       with his daughter. Under the influence of this sentiment she
       threw out another suggestion before she retired--a suggestion
       with which it seemed to her that she should have done her utmost.
       "Your father takes for granted at least that you would like to
       marry a nobleman."
       Pansy stood in the open doorway; she had drawn back the curtain
       for Isabel to pass. "I think Mr. Rosier looks like one!" she
       remarked very gravely. _
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Preface
VOLUME I
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER I
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER II
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER III
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER IV
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER V
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER VI
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER VII
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER VIII
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER IX
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER X
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER XI
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER XII
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER XIII
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER XIV
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER XV
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER XVI
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER XVII
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER XVIII
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER XIX
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER XX
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER XXI
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER XXII
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER XXIII
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER XXIV
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER XXV
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER XXVI
   VOLUME I - CHAPTER XXVII
VOLUME II
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XXVIII
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XXIX
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XXX
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XXXI
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XXXII
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XXXIII
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XXXIV
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XXXV
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XXXVI
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XXXVII
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XXXVIII
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XXXIX
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XL
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XLI
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XLII
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XLIII
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XLIV
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XLV
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XLVI
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XLVII
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XLVIII p
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER XLIX
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER L
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER LI
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER LII
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER LIII
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER LIV
   VOLUME II - CHAPTER LV