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CHAPTER 36
Sinclair Lewis
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       _ KENNICOTT was not so inhumanly patient that he could continue
       to forgive Carol's heresies, to woo her as he had on the
       venture to California. She tried to be inconspicuous, but she
       was betrayed by her failure to glow over the boosting.
       Kennicott believed in it; demanded that she say patriotic
       things about the White Way and the new factory. He snorted,
       "By golly, I've done all I could, and now I expect you to
       play the game. Here you been complaining for years about
       us being so poky, and now when Blausser comes along and does
       stir up excitement and beautify the town like you've always
       wanted somebody to, why, you say he's a roughneck, and you
       won't jump on the band-wagon."
       Once, when Kennicott announced at noon-dinner, "What do
       you know about this! They say there's a chance we may
       get another factory--cream-separator works!" he added, "You
       might try to look interested, even if you ain't!" The baby
       was frightened by the Jovian roar; ran wailing to hide his
       face in Carol's lap; and Kennicott had to make himself humble
       and court both mother and child. The dim injustice of not
       being understood even by his son left him irritable. He felt
       injured.
       An event which did not directly touch them brought down
       his wrath.
       In the early autumn, news came from Wakamin that the
       sheriff had forbidden an organizer for the National
       Nonpartisan League to speak anywhere in the county. The
       organizer had defied the sheriff, and announced that in a few
       days he would address a farmers' political meeting. That
       night, the news ran, a mob of a hundred business men led by
       the sheriff--the tame village street and the smug village faces
       ruddled by the light of bobbing lanterns, the mob flowing
       between the squatty rows of shops--had taken the organizer
       from his hotel, ridden him on a fence-rail, put him on a
       freight train, and warned him not to return.
       The story was threshed out in Dave Dyer's drug store, with
       Sam Clark, Kennicott, and Carol present.
       "That's the way to treat those fellows--only they ought
       to have lynched him!" declared Sam, and Kennicott and Dave
       Dyer joined in a proud "You bet!"
       Carol walked out hastily, Kennicott observing her.
       Through supper-time she knew that he was bubbling and
       would soon boil over. When the baby was abed, and they sat
       composedly in canvas chairs on the porch, he experimented;
       "I had a hunch you thought Sam was kind of hard on that
       fellow they kicked out of Wakamin."
       "Wasn't Sam rather needlessly heroic?"
       "All these organizers, yes, and a whole lot of the German
       and Squarehead farmers themselves, they're seditious as the
       devil--disloyal, non-patriotic, pro-German pacifists, that's
       what they are!"
       "Did this organizer say anything pro-German?"
       "Not on your life! They didn't give him a chance!" His
       laugh was stagey.
       "So the whole thing was illegal--and led by the sheriff!
       Precisely how do you expect these aliens to obey your law if
       the officer of the law teaches them to break it? Is it a new
       kind of logic?"
       "Maybe it wasn't exactly regular, but what's the odds?
       They knew this fellow would try to stir up trouble. Whenever
       it comes right down to a question of defending Americanism
       and our constitutional rights, it's justifiable to set aside
       ordinary procedure."
       "What editorial did he get that from?" she wondered, as
       she protested, "See here, my beloved, why can't you Tories
       declare war honestly? You don't oppose this organizer because
       you think he's seditious but because you're afraid that
       the farmers he is organizing will deprive you townsmen of the
       money you make out of mortgages and wheat and shops.
       Of course, since we're at war with Germany, anything that any
       one of us doesn't like is `pro-German,' whether it's business
       competition or bad music. If we were fighting England,
       you'd call the radicals `pro-English.' When this war is over,
       I suppose you'll be calling them `red anarchists.' What an
       eternal art it is--such a glittery delightful art--finding hard
       names for our opponents! How we do sanctify our efforts to
       keep them from getting the holy dollars we want for ourselves!
       The churches have always done it, and the political orators--
       and I suppose I do it when I call Mrs. Bogart a `Puritan' and
       Mr. Stowbody a `capitalist.' But you business men are going
       to beat all the rest of us at it, with your simple-hearted,
       energetic, pompous----"
       She got so far only because Kennicott was slow in shaking
       off respect for her. Now he bayed:
       "That'll be about all from you! I've stood for your sneering
       at this town, and saying how ugly and dull it is. I've stood
       for your refusing to appreciate good fellows like Sam. I've
       even stood for your ridiculing our Watch Gopher Prairie Grow
       campaign. But one thing I'm not going to stand: I'm not
       going to stand my own wife being seditious. You can camouflage
       all you want to, but you know darn well that these
       radicals, as you call 'em, are opposed to the war, and let me
       tell you right here and now, and you and all these long-haired
       men and short-haired women can beef all you want to, but
       we're going to take these fellows, and if they ain't patriotic,
       we're going to make them be patriotic. And--Lord knows
       I never thought I'd have to say this to my own wife--but if
       you go defending these fellows, then the same thing applies to
       you! Next thing, I suppose you'll be yapping about free
       speech. Free speech! There's too much free speech and free
       gas and free beer and free love and all the rest of your damned
       mouthy freedom, and if I had my way I'd make you folks live
       up to the established rules of decency even if I had to take
       you----"
       "Will!" She was not timorous now. "Am I pro-German
       if I fail to throb to Honest Jim Blausser, too? Let's have my
       whole duty as a wife!"
       He was grumbling, "The whole thing's right in line with
       the criticism you've always been making. Might have known
       you'd oppose any decent constructive work for the town or
       for----"
       "You're right. All I've done has been in line. I don't
       belong to Gopher Prairie. That isn't meant as a
       condemnation of Gopher Prairie, and it may be a condemnation
       of me. All right! I don't care! I don't belong here, and
       I'm going. I'm not asking permission any more. I'm simply
       going."
       He grunted. "Do you mind telling me, if it isn't too much
       trouble, how long you're going for?"
       "I don't know. Perhaps for a year. Perhaps for a lifetime."
       "I see. Well, of course, I'll be tickled to death to sell out
       my practise and go anywhere you say. Would you like to have
       me go with you to Paris and study art, maybe, and wear
       velveteen pants and a woman's bonnet, and live on spaghetti?"
       "No, I think we can save you that trouble. You don't
       quite understand. I am going--I really am--and alone! I've
       got to find out what my work is----"
       "Work? Work? Sure! That's the whole trouble with
       you! You haven't got enough work to do. If you had five
       kids and no hired girl, and had to help with the chores and
       separate the cream, like these farmers' wives, then you wouldn't
       be so discontented."
       "I know. That's what most men--and women--like you
       WOULD say. That's how they would explain all I am and all
       I want. And I shouldn't argue with them. These business
       men, from their crushing labors of sitting in an office seven
       hours a day, would calmly recommend that I have a dozen
       children. As it happens, I've done that sort of thing. There've
       been a good many times when we hadn't a maid, and I did
       all the housework, and cared for Hugh, and went to Red Cross,
       and did it all very efficiently. I'm a good cook and a good
       sweeper, and you don't dare say I'm not!"
       "N-no, you're----"
       "But was I more happy when I was drudging? I was not.
       I was just bedraggled and unhappy. It's work--but not my
       work. I could run an office or a library, or nurse and teach
       children. But solitary dish-washing isn't enough to satisfy me
       --or many other women. We're going to chuck it. We're
       going to wash 'em by machinery, and come out and play with
       you men in the offices and clubs and politics you've cleverly
       kept for yourselves! Oh, we're hopeless, we dissatisfied
       women! Then why do you want to have us about the place,
       to fret you? So it's for your sake that I'm going!"
       "Of course a little thing like Hugh makes no difference!"
       "Yes, all the difference. That's why I'm going to take him
       with me."
       "Suppose I refuse?"
       "You won't!"
       Forlornly, "Uh---- Carrie, what the devil is it you want,
       anyway?"
       "Oh, conversation! No, it's much more than that. I think
       it's a greatness of life--a refusal to be content with even the
       healthiest mud."
       "Don't you know that nobody ever solved a problem by
       running away from it?"
       "Perhaps. Only I choose to make my own definition of
       `running away' I don't call---- Do you realize how big a
       world there is beyond this Gopher Prairie where you'd keep
       me all my life? It may be that some day I'll come back, but
       not till I can bring something more than I have now. And
       even if I am cowardly and run away--all right, call it cowardly,
       call me anything you want to! I've been ruled too long by
       fear of being called things. I'm going away to be quiet and
       think. I'm--I'm going! I have a right to my own life."
       "So have I to mine!"
       "Well?"
       "I have a right to my life--and you're it, you're my life!
       You've made yourself so. I'm damned if I'll agree to all your
       freak notions, but I will say I've got to depend on you. Never
       thought of that complication, did you, in this `off to Bohemia,
       and express yourself, and free love, and live your own life'
       stuff!"
       "You have a right to me if you can keep me. Can you?"
       He moved uneasily.
       II
       For a month they discussed it. They hurt each other very
       much, and sometimes they were close to weeping, and invariably
       he used banal phrases about her duties and she used phrases
       quite as banal about freedom, and through it all, her discovery
       that she really could get away from Main Street was as sweet
       as the discovery of love. Kennicott never consented definitely.
       At most he agreed to a public theory that she was "going to
       take a short trip and see what the East was like in wartime."
       She set out for Washington in October--just before the
       war ended.
       She had determined on Washington because it was less
       intimidating than the obvious New York, because she hoped to
       find streets in which Hugh could play, and because in the stress
       of war-work, with its demand for thousands of temporary
       clerks, she could be initiated into the world of offices.
       Hugh was to go with her, despite the wails and rather
       extensive comments of Aunt Bessie.
       She wondered if she might not encounter Erik in the East
       but it was a chance thought, soon forgotten.
       III
       The last thing she saw on the station platform was Kennicott,
       faithfully waving his hand, his face so full of uncomprehending
       loneliness that he could not smile but only twitch up
       his lips. She waved to him as long as she could, and when
       he was lost she wanted to leap from the vestibule and run
       back to him. She thought of a hundred tendernesses she had
       neglected.
       She had her freedom, and it was empty. The moment was
       not the highest of her life, but the lowest and most desolate,
       which was altogether excellent, for instead of slipping downward
       she began to climb.
       She sighed, "I couldn't do this if it weren't for Will's
       kindness, his giving me money." But a second after: "I wonder
       how many women would always stay home if they had the
       money?"
       Hugh complained, "Notice me, mummy!" He was beside
       her on the red plush seat of the day-coach; a boy of three
       and a half. "I'm tired of playing train. Let's play something
       else. Let's go see Auntie Bogart."
       "Oh, NO! Do you really like Mrs. Bogart?"
       "Yes. She gives me cookies and she tells me about the
       Dear Lord. You never tell me about the Dear Lord. Why
       don't you tell me about the Dear Lord? Auntie Bogart says
       I'm going to be a preacher. Can I be a preacher? Can
       I preach about the Dear Lord?"
       "Oh, please wait till my generation has stopped rebelling
       before yours starts in!"
       "What's a generation?"
       "It's a ray in the illumination of the spirit."
       "That's foolish." He was a serious and literal person, and
       rather humorless. She kissed his frown, and marveled:
       "I am running away from my husband, after liking a
       Swedish ne'er-do-well and expressing immoral opinions, just
       as in a romantic story. And my own son reproves me because
       I haven't given him religious instruction. But the story
       doesn't go right. I'm neither groaning nor being dramatically
       saved. I keep on running away, and I enjoy it. I'm mad
       with joy over it. Gopher Prairie is lost back there in the
       dust and stubble, and I look forward----"
       She continued it to Hugh: "Darling, do you know what
       mother and you are going to find beyond the blue horizon
       rim?"
       "What?" flatly.
       "We're going to find elephants with golden howdahs from
       which peep young maharanees with necklaces of rubies, and a
       dawn sea colored like the breast of a dove, and a white and
       green house filled with books and silver tea-sets."
       "And cookies?"
       "Cookies? Oh, most decidedly cookies. We've had enough
       of bread and porridge. We'd get sick on too many cookies,
       but ever so much sicker on no cookies at all."
       "That's foolish."
       "It is, O male Kennicott!"
       "Huh!" said Kennicott II, and went to sleep on her shoulder.
       IV
       The theory of the Dauntless regarding Carol's absence:
       Mrs. Will Kennicott and son Hugh left on No. 24 on Saturday
       last for a stay of some months in Minneapolis Chicago New
       York, and Washington. Mrs. Kennicott confided to Ye Scribe
       that she will be connected with one of the multifarious war activities
       now centering in the Nation's Capital for a brief period before
       returning. Her countless friends who appreciate her splendid labors
       with the local Red Cross realize how valuable she will be to any
       war board with which she chooses to become connected. Gopher
       Prairie thus adds another shining star to its service flag and
       without wishing to knock any neighboring communities, we would
       like to know any town of anywheres near our size in the state
       that has such a sterling war record. Another reason why you'd
       better Watch Gopher Prairie Grow.
       * * *
       Mr. and Mrs. David Dyer, Mrs. Dyer's sister, Mrs. Jennie Dayborn
       of Jackrabbit, and Dr. Will Kennicott drove to Minniemashie
       on Tuesday for a delightful picnic. _