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Financier, The
CHAPTER 45
Theodore Dreiser
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       _ Say what one will about prison life in general, modify it ever so
       much by special chambers, obsequious turnkeys, a general tendency
       to make one as comfortable as possible, a jail is a jail, and there
       is no getting away from that. Cowperwood, in a room which was not
       in any way inferior to that of the ordinary boarding-house, was
       nevertheless conscious of the character of that section of this
       real prison which was not yet his portion. He knew that there were
       cells there, probably greasy and smelly and vermin-infested, and
       that they were enclosed by heavy iron bars, which would have as
       readily clanked on him as on those who were now therein incarcerated
       if he had not had the price to pay for something better. So much
       for the alleged equality of man, he thought, which gave to one man,
       even within the grim confines of the machinery of justice, such
       personal liberty as he himself was now enjoying, and to another,
       because he chanced to lack wit or presence or friends or wealth,
       denied the more comfortable things which money would buy.
       The morning after the trial, on waking, he stirred curiously, and
       then it suddenly came to him that he was no longer in the free and
       comfortable atmosphere of his own bedroom, but in a jail-cell, or
       rather its very comfortable substitute, a sheriff's rented bedroom.
       He got up and looked out the window. The ground outside and
       Passayunk Avenue were white with snow. Some wagons were silently
       lumbering by. A few Philadelphians were visible here and there,
       going to and fro on morning errands. He began to think at once
       what he must do, how he must act to carry on his buiness, to
       rehabilitate himself; and as he did so he dressed and pulled the
       bell-cord, which had been indicated to him, and which would bring
       him an attendant who would build him a fire and later bring him
       something to eat. A shabby prison attendant in a blue uniform,
       conscious of Cowperwood's superiority because of the room he
       occupied, laid wood and coal in the grate and started a fire, and
       later brought him his breakfast, which was anything but prison
       fare, though poor enough at that.
       After that he was compelled to wait in patience several hours, in
       spite of the sheriff's assumption of solicitous interest, before
       his brother Edward was admitted with his clothes. An attendant,
       for a consideration, brought him the morning papers, and these,
       except for the financial news, he read indifferently. Late in
       the afternoon Steger arrived, saying he had been busy having certain
       proceedings postponed, but that he had arranged with the sheriff
       for Cowperwood to be permitted to see such of those as had important
       business with him.
       By this time, Cowperwood had written Aileen under no circumstances
       to try to see him, as he would be out by the tenth, and that either
       that day, or shortly after, they would meet. As he knew, she
       wanted greatly to see him, but he had reason to believe she was
       under surveillance by detectives employed by her father. This was
       not true, but it was preying on her fancy, and combined with some
       derogatory remarks dropped by Owen and Callum at the dinner table
       recently, had proved almost too much for her fiery disposition.
       But, because of Cowperwood's letter reaching her at the Calligans',
       she made no move until she read on the morning of the tenth that
       Cowperwood's plea for a certificate of reasonable doubt had been
       granted, and that he would once more, for the time being at least,
       be a free man. This gave her courage to do what she had long
       wanted to do, and that was to teach her father that she could get
       along without him and that he could not make her do anything she
       did not want to do. She still had the two hundred dollars Cowperwood
       had given her and some additional cash of her own--perhaps three
       hundred and fifty dollars in all. This she thought would be
       sufficient to see her to the end of her adventure, or at least
       until she could make some other arrangement for her personal
       well-being. From what she knew of the feeling of her family for
       her, she felt that the agony would all be on their side, not hers.
       Perhaps when her father saw how determined she was he would decide
       to let her alone and make peace with her. She was determined to
       try it, anyhow, and immediately sent word to Cowperwood that she
       was going to the Calligans and would welcome him to freedom.
       In a way, Cowperwood was rather gratified by Aileen's message,
       for he felt that his present plight, bitter as it was, was largely
       due to Butler's opposition and he felt no compunction in striking
       him through his daughter. His former feeling as to the wisdom of
       not enraging Butler had proved rather futile, he thought, and since
       the old man could not be placated it might be just as well to have
       Aileen demonstrate to him that she was not without resources of
       her own and could live without him. She might force him to change
       his attitude toward her and possibly even to modify some of his
       political machinations against him, Cowperwood. Any port in a
       storm--and besides, he had now really nothing to lose, and instinct
       told him that her move was likely to prove more favorable than
       otherwise--so he did nothing to prevent it.
       She took her jewels, some underwear, a couple of dresses which
       she thought would be serviceable, and a few other things, and
       packed them in the most capacious portmanteau she had. Shoes and
       stockings came into consideration, and, despite her efforts, she
       found that she could not get in all that she wished. Her nicest
       hat, which she was determined to take, had to be carried outside.
       She made a separate bundle of it, which was not pleasant to
       contemplate. Still she decided to take it. She rummaged in a
       little drawer where she kept her money and jewels, and found the
       three hundred and fifty dollars and put it in her purse. It wasn't
       much, as Aileen could herself see, but Cowperwood would help her.
       If he did not arrange to take care of her, and her father would
       not relent, she would have to get something to do. Little she
       knew of the steely face the world presents to those who have not
       been practically trained and are not economically efficient. She
       did not understand the bitter reaches of life at all. She waited,
       humming for effect, until she heard her father go downstairs to
       dinner on this tenth day of December, then leaned over the upper
       balustrade to make sure that Owen, Callum, Norah, and her mother
       were at the table, and that Katy, the housemaid, was not anywhere
       in sight. Then she slipped into her father's den, and, taking a
       note from inside her dress, laid it on his desk, and went out.
       It was addressed to "Father," and read:
       Dear Father,--I just cannot do what you want me to. I have made
       up my mind that I love Mr. Cowperwood too much, so I am going
       away. Don't look for me with him. You won't find me where you
       think. I am not going to him; I will not be there. I am going
       to try to get along by myself for a while, until he wants me and
       can marry me. I'm terribly sorry; but I just can't do what you
       want. I can't ever forgive you for the way you acted to me.
       Tell mama and Norah and the boys good-by for me.
       Aileen
       To insure its discovery, she picked up Butler's heavy-rimmed
       spectacles which he employed always when reading, and laid them
       on it. For a moment she felt very strange, somewhat like a thief--
       a new sensation for her. She even felt a momentary sense of
       ingratitude coupled with pain. Perhaps she was doing wrong. Her
       father had been very good to her. Her mother would feel so very
       bad. Norah would be sorry, and Callum and Owen. Still, they did
       not understand her any more. She was resentful of her father's
       attitude. He might have seen what the point was; but no, he was
       too old, too hidebound in religion and conventional ideas--he never
       would. He might never let her come back. Very well, she would
       get along somehow. She would show him. She might get a place as
       a school-teacher, and live with the Calligans a long while, if
       necessary, or teach music.
       She stole downstairs and out into the vestibule, opening the outer
       door and looking out into the street. The lamps were already
       flaring in the dark, and a cool wind was blowing. Her portmanteau
       was heavy, but she was quite strong. She walked briskly to the
       corner, which was some fifty feet away, and turned south, walking
       rather nervously and irritably, for this was a new experience for
       her, and it all seemed so undignified, so unlike anything she was
       accustomed to doing. She put her bag down on a street corner,
       finally, to rest. A boy whistling in the distance attracted her
       attention, and as he drew near she called to him: "Boy! Oh, boy!"
       He came over, looking at her curiously.
       "Do you want to earn some money?"
       "Yes, ma'am," he replied politely, adjusting a frowsy cap over one
       ear.
       "Carry this bag for me," said Aileen, and he picked it up and
       marched off.
       In due time she arrived at the Calligans', and amid much excitement
       was installed in the bosom of her new home. She took her situation
       with much nonchalance, once she was properly placed, distributing
       her toilet articles and those of personal wear with quiet care.
       The fact that she was no longer to have the services of Kathleen,
       the maid who had served her and her mother and Norah jointly, was
       odd, though not trying. She scarcely felt that she had parted
       from these luxuries permanently, and so made herself comfortable.
       Mamie Calligan and her mother were adoring slaveys, so she was not
       entirely out of the atmosphere which she craved and to which she
       was accustomed. _