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Doctor Grimshawe’s Secret: A romance
CHAPTER XVI
Nathaniel Hawthorne
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       _ On entering the old palmer's apartment, they found him looking over
       some ancient papers, yellow and crabbedly written, and on one of them a
       large old seal, all of which he did up in a bundle and enclosed in a
       parchment cover, so that, before they were well in the room, the
       documents were removed from view.
       "Those papers and parchments have a fine old yellow tint, Colcord,"
       said the Warden, "very satisfactory to an antiquary."
       "There is nothing in them," said the old man, "of general interest.
       Some old papers they are, which came into my possession by inheritance,
       and some of them relating to the affairs of a friend of my youth;--a
       long past time, and a long past friend," added he, sighing.
       "Here is a new friend, at all events," said the kindly Warden, wishing
       to cheer the old man, "who feels himself greatly indebted to you for
       your care." [Endnote: 1.]
       There now ensued a conversation between the three, in the course of
       which reference was made to America, and the Warden's visit there.
       "You are so mobile," he said, "you change so speedily, that I suppose
       there are few external things now that I should recognize. The face of
       your country changes like one of your own sheets of water, under the
       influence of sun, cloud, and wind; but I suppose there is a depth below
       that is seldom effectually stirred. It is a great fault of the country
       that its sons find it impossible to feel any patriotism for it."
       "I do not by any means acknowledge that impossibility," responded
       Redclyffe, with a smile. "I certainly feel that sentiment very strongly
       in my own breast, more especially since I have left America three
       thousand miles behind me."
       "Yes, it is only the feeling of self-assertion that rises against the
       self-complacency of the English," said the Warden. "Nothing else; for
       what else have you become the subject of this noble weakness of
       patriotism? You cannot love anything beyond the soil of your own
       estate; or in your case, if your heart is very large, you may possibly
       take in, in a quiet sort of way, the whole of New England. What more is
       possible? How can you feel a heart's love for a mere political
       arrangement, like your Union? How can you be loyal, where personal
       attachment--the lofty and noble and unselfish attachment of a subject
       to his prince--is out of the question? where your sovereign is felt to
       be a mere man like yourselves, whose petty struggles, whose ambition--
       mean before it grew to be audacious--you have watched, and know him to
       be just the same now as yesterday, and that to-morrow he will be
       walking unhonored amongst you again? Your system is too bare and meagre
       for human nature to love, or to endure it long. These stately degrees
       of society, that have so strong a hold upon us in England, are not to
       be done away with so lightly as you think. Your experiment is not yet a
       success by any means; and you will live to see it result otherwise than
       you think!"
       "It is natural for you Englishmen to feel thus," said Redclyffe;
       "although, ever since I set my foot on your shores,--forgive me, but
       you set me the example of free speech,--I have had a feeling of coming
       change among all that you look upon as so permanent, so everlasting;
       and though your thoughts dwell fondly on things as they are and have
       been, there is a deep destruction somewhere in this country, that is
       inevitably impelling it in the path of my own. But I care not for this.
       I do aver that I love my country, that I am proud of its institutions,
       that I have a feeling unknown, probably, to any but a republican, but
       which is the proudest thing in me, that there is no man above me,--for
       my ruler is only myself, in the person of another, whose office I
       impose upon him,--nor any below me. If you would understand me, I would
       tell you of the shame I felt when first, on setting foot in this
       country, I heard a man speaking of his birth as giving him privileges;
       saw him looking down on laboring men, as of an inferior race. And what
       I can never understand, is the pride which you positively seem to feel
       in having men and classes of men above you, born to privileges which
       yon can never hope to share. It may be a thing to be endured, but
       surely not one to be absolutely proud of. And yet an Englishman is so."
       "Ah! I see we lack a ground to meet upon," said the Warden. "We can
       never truly understand each other. What you have last mentioned is one
       of our inner mysteries. It is not a thing to be reasoned about, but to
       be felt,--to be born within one; and I uphold it to be a generous
       sentiment, and good for the human heart."
       "Forgive me, sir," said Redclyffe, "but I would rather be the poorest
       and lowest man in America than have that sentiment."
       "But it might change your feeling, perhaps," suggested the Warden, "if
       you were one of the privileged class."
       "I dare not say that it would not," said Redclyffe, "for I know I have
       a thousand weaknesses, and have doubtless as many more that I never
       suspected myself of. But it seems to me at this moment impossible that
       I should ever have such an ambition, because I have a sense of meanness
       in not starting fair, in beginning the world with advantages that my
       fellows have not."
       "Really this is not wise," said the Warden, bluntly, "How can the start
       in life be fair for all? Providence arranges it otherwise. Did you
       yourself,--a gentleman evidently by birth and education,--did you start
       fair in the race of life?"
       Redclyffe remembered what his birth, or rather what his first
       recollected place had been, and reddened.
       "In birth, certainly, I had no advantages," said he, and would have
       explained further but was kept back by invincible reluctance; feeling
       that the bare fact of his origin in an almshouse would be accepted,
       while all the inward assurances and imaginations that had reconciled
       himself to the ugly fact would go for nothing. "But there were
       advantages, very early in life," added he, smiling, "which perhaps I
       ought to have been ashamed to avail myself of."
       "An old cobwebby library,--an old dwelling by a graveyard,--an old
       Doctor, busied with his own fantasies, and entangled in his own
       cobwebs,--and a little girl for a playmate: these were things that you
       might lawfully avail yourself of," said Colcord, unheard by the Warden,
       who, thinking the conversation had lasted long enough, had paid a
       slight passing courtesy to the old man, and was now leaving the room.
       "Do you remain here long?" he added.
       "If the Warden's hospitality holds out," said the American, "I shall be
       glad; for the place interests me greatly."
       "No wonder," replied Colcord.
       "And wherefore no wonder?" said Redclyffe, impressed with the idea that
       there was something peculiar in the tone of the old man's remark.
       "Because," returned the other quietly, "it must be to you especially
       interesting to see an institution of this kind, whereby one man's
       benevolence or penitence is made to take the substance and durability
       of stone, and last for centuries; whereas, in America, the solemn
       decrees and resolutions of millions melt away like vapor, and
       everything shifts like the pomp of sunset clouds; though it may be as
       pompous as they. Heaven intended the past as a foundation for the
       present, to keep it from vibrating and being blown away with every
       breeze."
       "But," said Redclyffe, "I would not see in my country what I see
       elsewhere,--the Past hanging like a mill-stone round a country's neck,
       or encrusted in stony layers over the living form; so that, to all
       intents and purposes, it is dead."
       "Well," said Colcord, "we are only talking of the Hospital. You will
       find no more interesting place anywhere. Stay amongst us; this is the
       very heart of England, and if you wish to know the fatherland,--the
       place whence you sprung,--this is the very spot!"
       Again Redclyffe was struck with the impression that there was something
       marked, something individually addressed to himself, in the old man's
       words; at any rate, it appealed to that primal imaginative vein in him
       which had so often, in his own country, allowed itself to dream over
       the possibilities of his birth. He knew that the feeling was a vague
       and idle one; but yet, just at this time, a convalescent, with a little
       play moment in what had heretofore been a turbulent life, he felt an
       inclination to follow out this dream, and let it sport with him, and by
       and by to awake to realities, refreshed by a season of unreality. At a
       firmer and stronger period of his life, though Redclyffe might have
       indulged his imagination with these dreams, yet he would not have let
       them interfere with his course of action; but having come hither in
       utter weariness of active life, it seemed just the thing for him to
       do,--just the fool's paradise for him to be in.
       "Yes," repeated the old man, looking keenly in his face, "you will not
       leave us yet."
       Redclyffe returned through the quadrangle to the Warden's house; and
       there were the brethren, sitting on benches, loitering in the sun,
       which, though warm for England, seemed scarcely enough to keep these
       old people warm, even with their cloth robes. They did not seem
       unhappy; nor yet happy; if they were so, it must be with the mere bliss
       of existence, a sleepy sense of comfort, and quiet dreaminess about
       things past, leaving out the things to come,--of which there was
       nothing, indeed, in their future, save one day after another, just like
       this, with loaf and ale, and such substantial comforts, and prayers,
       and idle days again, gathering by the great kitchen fire, and at last a
       day when they should not be there, but some other old men in their
       stead. And Redclyffe wondered whether, in the extremity of age, he
       himself would like to be one of the brethren of the Leopard's Head. The
       old men, he was sorry to see, did not seem very genial towards one
       another; in fact, there appeared to be a secret enjoyment of one
       another's infirmities, wherefore it was hard to tell, unless that each
       individual might fancy himself to possess an advantage over his fellow,
       which he mistook for a positive strength; and so there was sometimes a
       sardonic smile, when, on rising from his seat, the rheumatism was a
       little evident in an old fellow's joints; or when the palsy shook
       another's fingers so that he could barely fill his pipe; or when a
       cough, the gathered spasmodic trouble of thirty years, fairly convulsed
       another. Then, any two that happened to be sitting near one another
       looked into each other's cold eyes, and whispered, or suggested merely
       by a look (for they were bright to such perceptions), "The old fellow
       will not outlast another winter."
       Methinks it is not good for old men to be much together. An old man is
       a beautiful object in his own place, in the midst of a circle of young
       people, going down in various gradations to infancy, and all looking up
       to the patriarch with filial reverence, keeping him warm by their own
       burning youth; giving him the freshness of their thought and feeling,
       with such natural influx that it seems as if it grew within his heart;
       while on them he reacts with an influence that sobers, tempers, keeps
       them down. His wisdom, very probably, is of no great account,--he
       cannot fit to any new state of things; but, nevertheless, it works its
       effect. In such a situation, the old man is kind and genial, mellow,
       more gentle and generous, and wider-minded than ever before. But if
       left to himself, or wholly to the society of his contemporaries, the
       ice gathers about his heart, his hope grows torpid, his love--having
       nothing of his own blood to develop it--grows cold; he becomes selfish,
       when he has nothing in the present or the future worth caring about in
       himself; so that, instead of a beautiful object, he is an ugly one,
       little, mean, and torpid. I suppose one chief reason to be, that unless
       he has his own race about him he doubts of anybody's love, he feels
       himself a stranger in the world, and so becomes unamiable.
       A very few days in the Warden's hospitable mansion produced an
       excellent effect on Redclyffe's frame; his constitution being naturally
       excellent, and a flow of cheerful spirits contributing much to restore
       him to health, especially as the abode in this old place, which would
       probably have been intolerably dull to most young Englishmen, had for
       this young American a charm like the freshness of Paradise. In truth it
       had that charm, and besides it another intangible, evanescent,
       perplexing charm, full of an airy enjoyment, as if he had been here
       before. What could it be? It could be only the old, very deepest,
       inherent nature, which the Englishman, his progenitor, carried over the
       sea with him, nearly two hundred years before, and which had lain
       buried all that time under heaps of new things, new customs, new
       institutions, new snows of winter, new layers of forest leaves, until
       it seemed dead, and was altogether forgotten as if it had never been;
       but, now, his return had seemed to dissolve or dig away all this
       incrustation, and the old English nature awoke all fresh, so that he
       saw the green grass, the hedgerows, the old structures and old manners,
       the old clouds, the old raindrops, with a recognition, and yet a
       newness. Redclyffe had never been so quietly happy as now. He had, as
       it were, the quietude of the old man about him, and the freshness of
       his own still youthful years.
       The Warden was evidently very favorably impressed with his
       Transatlantic guest, and he seemed to be in a constant state of
       surprise to find an American so agreeable a kind of person.
       "You are just like an Englishman," he sometimes said. "Are you quite
       sure that you were not born on this side of the water?"
       This is said to be the highest compliment that an Englishman can pay to
       an American; and doubtless he intends it as such. All the praise and
       good will that an Englishman ever awards to an American is so far
       gratifying to the recipient, that it is meant for him individually, and
       is not to be put down in the slightest degree to the score of any
       regard to his countrymen generally. So far from this, if an Englishman
       were to meet the whole thirty millions of Americans, and find each
       individual of them a pleasant, amiable, well-meaning, and well-mannered
       sort of fellow, he would acknowledge this honestly in each individual
       case, but still would speak of the whole nation as a disagreeable
       people.
       As regards Redclyffe being precisely like an Englishman, we cannot but
       think that the good Warden was mistaken. No doubt, there was a common
       ground; the old progenitor (whose blood, moreover, was mixed with a
       hundred other streams equally English) was still there, under this
       young man's shape, but with a vast difference. Climate, sun, cold,
       heat, soil, institutions, had made a change in him before he was born,
       and all the life that he had lived since (so unlike any that he could
       have lived in England) had developed it more strikingly. In manners, I
       cannot but think that he was better than the generality of Englishmen,
       and different from the highest-mannered men, though most resembling
       them. His natural sensitiveness, a tincture of reserve, had been
       counteracted by the frank mixture with men which his political course
       had made necessary; he was quicker to feel what was right at the
       moment, than the Englishman; more alive; he had a finer grain; his look
       was more aristocratic than that of a thousand Englishmen of good birth
       and breeding; he had a faculty of assimilating himself to new manners,
       which, being his most un-English trait, was what perhaps chiefly made
       the Warden think him so like an Englishman. When an Englishman is a
       gentleman, to be sure, it is as deep in him as the marrow of his bones,
       and the deeper you know him, the more you are aware of it, and that
       generation after generation has contributed to develop and perfect
       these unpretending manners, which, at first, may have failed to impress
       you, under his plain, almost homely exterior. An American often gets as
       good a surface of manners, in his own progress from youth, through the
       wear and attrition of a successful life, to some high station in middle
       age; whereas a plebeian Englishman, who rises to eminent station, never
       does credit to it by his manners. Often you would not know the American
       ambassador from a duke. This is often merely external; but in
       Redclyffe, having delicate original traits in his character, it was
       something more; and, we are bold to say, when our countrymen are
       developed, or any one class of them, as they ought to be, they will
       show finer traits than have yet been seen. We have more delicate and
       quicker sensibilities; nerves more easily impressed; and these are
       surely requisites for perfect manners; and, moreover, the courtesy that
       proceeds on the ground of perfect equality is better than that which is
       a gracious and benignant condescension,--as is the case with the
       manners of the aristocracy of England.
       An American, be it said, seldom turns his best side outermost abroad;
       and an observer, who has had much opportunity of seeing the figure
       which they make, in a foreign country, does not so much wonder that
       there should be severe criticism on their manners as a people. I know
       not exactly why, but all our imputed peculiarities--our nasal
       pronunciation, our ungraceful idioms, our forthputtingness, our uncouth
       lack of courtesy--do really seem to exist on a foreign shore; and even,
       perhaps, to be heightened of malice prepense. The cold, unbelieving eye
       of Englishmen, expectant of solecisms in manners, contributes to
       produce the result which it looks for. Then the feeling of hostility
       and defiance in the American must be allowed for; and partly, too, the
       real existence of a different code of manners, founded on, and arising
       from, different institutions; and also certain national peculiarities,
       which may be intrinsically as good as English peculiarities; but being
       different, and yet the whole result being just too nearly alike, and,
       moreover, the English manners having the prestige of long
       establishment, and furthermore our own manners being in a transition
       state between those of old monarchies and what is proper to a new
       republic,--it necessarily followed that the American, though really a
       man of refinement and delicacy, is not just the kind of gentleman that
       the English can fully appreciate. In cases where they do so, their
       standard being different from ours, they do not always select for their
       approbation the kind of man or manners whom we should judge the best;
       we are perhaps apt to be a little too fine, a little too sedulously
       polished, and of course too conscious of it,--a deadly social crime,
       certainly. _