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Longest Journey, The
PART 2 - SAWSTON   PART 2 - SAWSTON - CHAPTER 17
E M Forster
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       _ In practical matters Mr. Pembroke was often a generous man. He
       offered Rickie a good salary, and insisted on paying Agnes as
       well. And as he housed them for nothing, and as Rickie would also
       have a salary from the school, the money question disappeared--if
       not forever, at all events for the present.
       "I can work you in," he said. "Leave all that to me, and in a few
       days you shall hear from the headmaster.
       He shall create a vacancy. And once in, we stand or fall
       together. I am resolved on that."
       Rickie did not like the idea of being "worked in," but he was
       determined to raise no difficulties. It is so easy to be refined
       and high-minded when we have nothing to do. But the active,
       useful man cannot be equally particular. Rickie's programme
       involved a change in values as well as a change of occupation.
       "Adopt a frankly intellectual attitude," Mr. Pembroke continued.
       "I do not advise you at present even to profess any interest in
       athletics or organization. When the headmaster writes, he will
       probably ask whether you are an all-round man. Boldly say no. A
       bold 'no' is at times the best. Take your stand upon classics and
       general culture."
       Classics! A second in the Tripos. General culture. A smattering
       of English Literature, and less than a smattering of French.
       "That is how we begin. Then we get you a little post--say that of
       librarian. And so on, until you are indispensable."
       Rickie laughed; the headmaster wrote, the reply was satisfactory,
       and in due course the new life began.
       Sawston was already familiar to him. But he knew it as an
       amateur, and under an official gaze it grouped itself afresh. The
       school, a bland Gothic building, now showed as a fortress of
       learning, whose outworks were the boarding-houses. Those
       straggling roads were full of the houses of the parents of the
       day-boys. These shops were in bounds, those out. How often had he
       passed Dunwood House! He had once confused it with its rival,
       Cedar View. Now he was to live there--perhaps for many years. On
       the left of the entrance a large saffron drawing-room, full of
       cosy corners and dumpy chairs: here the parents would be
       received. On the right of the entrance a study, which he shared
       with Herbert: here the boys would be caned--he hoped not often.
       In the hall a framed certificate praising the drains, the bust of
       Hermes, and a carved teak monkey holding out a salver. Some of
       the furniture had come from Shelthorpe, some had been bought from
       Mr. Annison, some of it was new. But throughout he recognized a
       certain decision of arrangement. Nothing in the house was
       accidental, or there merely for its own sake. He contrasted it
       with his room at Cambridge, which had been a jumble of things
       that he loved dearly and of things that he did not love at all.
       Now these also had come to Dunwood House, and had been
       distributed where each was seemly--Sir Percival to the
       drawing-room, the photograph of Stockholm to the passage, his
       chair, his inkpot, and the portrait of his mother to the study.
       And then he contrasted it with the Ansells' house, to which their
       resolute ill-taste had given unity. He was extremely sensitive to
       the inside of a house, holding it an organism that expressed the
       thoughts, conscious and subconscious, of its inmates. He was
       equally sensitive to places. He would compare Cambridge with
       Sawston, and either with a third type of existence, to which, for
       want of a better name, he gave the name of "Wiltshire."
       It must not be thought that he is going to waste his time. These
       contrasts and comparisons never took him long, and he never
       indulged in them until the serious business of the day was over.
       And, as time passed, he never indulged in them at all.
       The school returned at the end of January, before he had been
       settled in a week. His health had improved, but not greatly, and
       he was nervous at the prospect of confronting the assembled
       house. All day long cabs had been driving up, full of boys in
       bowler hats too big for them; and Agnes had been superintending
       the numbering of the said hats, and the placing of them in
       cupboards, since they would not be wanted till the end of the
       term. Each boy had, or should have had, a bag, so that he need
       not unpack his box till the morrow, One boy had only a
       brown-paper parcel, tied with hairy string, and Rickie heard the
       firm pleasant voice say, "But you'll bring a bag next term," and
       the submissive, "Yes, Mrs. Elliot," of the reply. In the passage
       he ran against the head boy, who was alarmingly like an
       undergraduate. They looked at each other suspiciously, and
       parted. Two minutes later he ran into another boy, and then into
       another, and began to wonder whether they were doing it on
       purpose, and if so, whether he ought to mind. As the day wore on,
       the noises grew louder-trampings of feet, breakdowns, jolly
       little squawks--and the cubicles were assigned, and the bags
       unpacked, and the bathing arrangements posted up, and Herbert
       kept on saying, "All this is informal--all this is informal. We
       shall meet the house at eight fifteen."
       And so, at eight ten, Rickie put on his cap and gown,--hitherto
       symbols of pupilage, now to be symbols of dignity,--the very cap
       and gown that Widdrington had so recently hung upon the college
       fountain. Herbert, similarly attired, was waiting for him in
       their private dining-room, where also sat Agnes, ravenously
       devouring scrambled eggs. "But you'll wear your hoods," she
       cried. Herbert considered, and them said she was quite right. He
       fetched his white silk, Rickie the fragment of rabbit's wool that
       marks the degree of B.A. Thus attired, they proceeded through the
       baize door. They were a little late, and the boys, who were
       marshalled in the preparation room, were getting uproarious. One,
       forgetting how far his voice carried, shouted, "Cave! Here comes
       the Whelk." And another young devil yelled, "The Whelk's brought
       a pet with him!"
       "You mustn't mind," said Herbert kindly. "We masters make a point
       of never minding nicknames--unless, of course, they are applied
       openly, in which case a thousand lines is not too much." Rickie
       assented, and they entered the preparation room just as the
       prefects had established order.
       Here Herbert took his seat on a high-legged chair, while Rickie,
       like a queen-consort, sat near him on a chair with somewhat
       shorter legs. Each chair had a desk attached to it, and Herbert
       flung up the lid of his, and then looked round the preparation
       room with a quick frown, as if the contents had surprised him. So
       impressed was Rickie that he peeped sideways, but could only see
       a little blotting-paper in the desk. Then he noticed that the
       boys were impressed too. Their chatter ceased. They attended.
       The room was almost full. The prefects, instead of lolling
       disdainfully in the back row, were ranged like councillors
       beneath the central throne. This was an innovation of Mr.
       Pembroke's. Carruthers, the head boy, sat in the middle, with his
       arm round Lloyd. It was Lloyd who had made the matron too bright:
       he nearly lost his colours in consequence. These two were grown
       up. Beside them sat Tewson, a saintly child in the spectacles,
       who had risen to this height by reason of his immense learning.
       He, like the others, was a school prefect. The house prefects, an
       inferior brand, were beyond, and behind came the
       indistinguishable many. The faces all looked alike as yet--except
       the face of one boy, who was inclined to cry.
       "School," said Mr. Pembroke, slowly closing the lid of the desk,
       --"school is the world in miniature." Then he paused, as a man
       well may who has made such a remark. It is not, however, the
       intention of this work to quote an opening address. Rickie, at
       all events, refused to be critical: Herbert's experience was far
       greater than his, and he must take his tone from him. Nor
       could any one criticize the exhortations to be patriotic,
       athletic, learned, and religious, that flowed like a four-part
       fugue from Mr. Pembroke's mouth. He was a practised speaker--that
       is to say, he held his audience's attention. He told them that
       this term, the second of his reign, was THE term for Dunwood
       House; that it behooved every boy to labour during it for his
       house's honour, and, through the house, for the honour of the
       school. Taking a wider range, he spoke of England, or rather of
       Great Britain, and of her continental foes. Portraits of
       empire-builders hung on the wall, and he pointed to them. He
       quoted imperial poets. He showed how patriotism had broadened
       since the days of Shakespeare, who, for all his genius,
       could only write of his country as--
       "This fortress built by nature for herself
       Against infection and the hand of war,
       This hazy breed of men, this little world,
       This precious stone set in the silver sea."
       And it seemed that only a short ladder lay between the
       preparation room and the Anglo-Saxon hegemony of the globe. Then
       he paused, and in the silence came "sob, sob, sob," from a little
       boy, who was regretting a villa in Guildford and his mother's
       half acre of garden.
       The proceeding terminated with the broader patriotism of the
       school anthem, recently composed by the organist. Words and tune
       were still a matter for taste, and it was Mr. Pembroke (and he
       only because he had the music) who gave the right intonation to
       "Perish each laggard! Let it not be said
       That Sawston such within her walls hath bred."
       "Come, come," he said pleasantly, as they ended with harmonies in
       the style of Richard Strauss. "This will never do. We must
       grapple with the anthem this term--you're as tuneful as--as
       day-boys!"
       Hearty laughter, and then the whole house filed past them and
       shook hands.
       "But how did it impress you?" Herbert asked, as soon as they were
       back in their own part. Agnes had provided them with a tray of
       food: the meals were still anyhow, and she had to fly at once to
       see after the boys.
       "I liked the look of them."
       "I meant rather, how did the house impress you as a house?"
       "I don't think I thought," said Rickie rather nervously. "It is
       not easy to catch the spirit of a thing at once. I only saw a
       roomful of boys."
       "My dear Rickie, don't be so diffident. You are perfectly right.
       You only did see a roomful of boys. As yet there's nothing else
       to see. The house, like the school, lacks tradition. Look at
       Winchester. Look at the traditional rivalry between Eton and
       Harrow. Tradition is of incalculable importance, if a school is
       to have any status. Why should Sawston be without?"
       "Yes. Tradition is of incalculable value. And I envy those
       schools that have a natural connection with the past. Of course
       Sawston has a past, though not of the kind that you quite want.
       The sons of poor tradesmen went to it at first. So wouldn't its
       traditions be more likely to linger in the Commercial School?" he
       concluded nervously.
       "You have a great deal to learn--a very great deal. Listen to me.
       Why has Sawston no traditions?" His round, rather foolish, face
       assumed the expression of a conspirator. Bending over the mutton,
       he whispered, "I can tell you why. Owing to the day-boys. How can
       traditions flourish in such soil? Picture the day-boy's life--at
       home for meals, at home for preparation, at home for sleep,
       running home with every fancied wrong. There are day-boys in your
       class, and, mark my words, they will give you ten times as much
       trouble as the boarders, late, slovenly, stopping away at the
       slightest pretext. And then the letters from the parents! 'Why
       has my boy not been moved this term?' 'Why has my boy been moved
       this term?' 'I am a dissenter, and do not wish my boy to
       subscribe to the school mission.' 'Can you let my boy off early
       to water the garden?' Remember that I have been a day-boy
       house-master, and tried to infuse some esprit de corps into them.
       It is practically impossible. They come as units, and units they
       remain. Worse. They infect the boarders. Their pestilential,
       critical, discontented attitude is spreading over the school. If
       I had my own way--"
       He stopped somewhat abruptly.
       "Was that why you laughed at their singing?"
       "Not at all. Not at all. It is not my habit to set one section of
       the school against the other."
       After a little they went the rounds. The boys were in bed now.
       "Good-night!" called Herbert, standing in the corridor of the
       cubicles, and from behind each of the green curtains came the
       sound of a voice replying, "Good-night, sir!" "Good-night," he
       observed into each dormitory.
       Then he went to the switch in the passage and plunged the whole
       house into darkness. Rickie lingered behind him, strangely
       impressed. In the morning those boys had been scattered over
       England, leading their own lives. Now, for three months, they
       must change everything--see new faces, accept new ideals. They,
       like himself, must enter a beneficent machine, and learn the
       value of esprit de corps. Good luck attend them--good luck and a
       happy release. For his heart would have them not in these
       cubicles and dormitories, but each in his own dear home, amongst
       faces and things that he knew.
       Next morning, after chapel, he made the acquaintance of his
       class. Towards that he felt very differently. Esprit de corps was
       not expected of it. It was simply two dozen boys who were
       gathered together for the purpose of learning Latin. His duties
       and difficulties would not lie here. He was not required to
       provide it with an atmosphere. The scheme of work was already
       mapped out, and he started gaily upon familiar words--
       "Pan, ovium custos, tua si tibi Maenala curae
       Adsis, O Tegaee, favens."
       "Do you think that beautiful?" he asked, and received the honest
       answer, "No, sir; I don't think I do." He met Herbert in high
       spirits in the quadrangle during the interval. But Herbert
       thought his enthusiasm rather amateurish, and cautioned him.
       "You must take care they don't get out of hand. I approve of a
       lively teacher, but discipline must be established first."
       "I felt myself a learner, not a teacher. If I'm wrong over a
       point, or don't know, I mean to tell them at once."
       Herbert shook his head.
       "It's different if I was really a scholar. But I can't pose as
       one, can I? I know much more than the boys, but I know very
       little. Surely the honest thing is to be myself to them. Let them
       accept or refuse me as that. That's the only attitude we shall
       any of us profit by in the end."
       Mr. Pembroke was silent. Then he observed, "There is, as you say,
       a higher attitude and a lower attitude. Yet here, as so often,
       cannot we find a golden mean between them?"
       "What's that?" said a dreamy voice. They turned and saw a tall,
       spectacled man, who greeted the newcomer kindly, and took hold of
       his arm. "What's that about the golden mean?"
       "Mr. Jackson--Mr. Elliot: Mr. Elliot--Mr. Jackson," said Herbert,
       who did not seem quite pleased. "Rickie, have you a moment to
       spare me?"
       But the humanist spoke to the young man about the golden mean and
       the pinchbeck mean, adding, "You know the Greeks aren't broad church
       clergymen. They really aren't, in spite of much conflicting
       evidence. Boys will regard Sophocles as a kind of enlightened
       bishop, and something tells me that they are wrong."
       "Mr. Jackson is a classical enthusiast," said Herbert. "He makes
       the past live. I want to talk to you about the humdrum present."
       "And I am warning him against the humdrum past. "That's another
       point, Mr. Elliot. Impress on your class that many Greeks and
       most Romans were frightfully stupid, and if they disbelieve you,
       read Ctesiphon with them, or Valerius Flaccus. Whatever is
       that noise?"
       "It comes from your class-room, I think," snapped the other
       master.
       "So it does. Ah, yes. I expect they are putting your little
       Tewson into the waste-paper basket."
       "I always lock my class-room in the interval--"
       "Yes?"
       "--and carry the key in my pocket."
       "Ah. But, Mr. Elliot, I am a cousin of Widdrington's. He wrote to
       me about you. I am so glad. Will you, first of all, come to
       supper next Sunday?"
       "I am afraid," put in Herbert, "that we poor housemasters must
       deny ourselves festivities in term time."
       "But mayn't he come once, just once?"
       "May, my dear Jackson! My brother-in-law is not a baby. He
       decides for himself."
       Rickie naturally refused. As soon as they were out of hearing,
       Herbert said, "This is a little unfortunate. Who is Mr.
       Widdrington?"
       "I knew him at Cambridge."
       "Let me explain how we stand," he continued, after a pause.
       "Jackson is the worst of the reactionaries here, while I--why
       should I conceal it?--have thrown in my lot with the party of
       progress. You will see how we suffer from him at the masters'
       meetings. He has no talent for organization, and yet he is always
       inflicting his ideas on others. It was like his impertinence to
       dictate to you what authors you should read, and meanwhile the
       sixth-form room like a bear-garden, and a school prefect being
       put into the waste-paper basket. My good Rickie, there's nothing
       to smile at. How is the school to go on with a man like that? It
       would be a case of 'quick march,' if it was not for his brilliant
       intellect. That's why I say it's a little unfortunate. You will
       have very little in common, you and he."
       Rickie did not answer. He was very fond of Widdrington, who was a
       quaint, sensitive person. And he could not help being attracted
       by Mr. Jackson, whose welcome contrasted pleasantly with the
       official breeziness of his other colleagues. He wondered, too,
       whether it is so very reactionary to contemplate the antique.
       "It is true that I vote Conservative," pursued Mr. Pembroke,
       apparently confronting some objector. "But why? Because the
       Conservatives, rather than the Liberals, stand for progress. One
       must not be misled by catch-words."
       "Didn't you want to ask me something?"
       "Ah, yes. You found a boy in your form called Varden?"
       "Varden? Yes; there is."
       "Drop on him heavily. He has broken the statutes of the school.
       He is attending as a day-boy. The statutes provide that a boy
       must reside with his parents or guardians. He does neither. It
       must be stopped. You must tell the headmaster."
       "Where does the boy live?"
       "At a certain Mrs. Orr's, who has no connection with the school
       of any kind. It must be stopped. He must either enter a
       boarding-house or go."
       "But why should I tell?" said Rickie. He remembered the boy, an
       unattractive person with protruding ears, "It is the business of
       his house-master."
       "House-master--exactly. Here we come back again. Who is now the
       day-boys' house-master? Jackson once again--as if anything was
       Jackson's business! I handed the house back last term in a most
       flourishing condition. It has already gone to rack and ruin for
       the second time. To return to Varden. I have unearthed a put-up
       job. Mrs. Jackson and Mrs. Orr are friends. Do you see? It all
       works round."
       "I see. It does--or might."
       "The headmaster will never sanction it when it's put to him
       plainly."
       "But why should I put it?" said Rickie, twisting the ribbons of
       his gown round his fingers.
       "Because you're the boy's form-master."
       "Is that a reason?"
       "Of course it is."
       "I only wondered whether--" He did not like to say that he
       wondered whether he need do it his first morning.
       "By some means or other you must find out--of course you know
       already, but you must find out from the boy. I know--I have it!
       Where's his health certificate?"
       "He had forgotten it."
       "Just like them. Well, when he brings it, it will be signed by
       Mrs. Orr, and you must look at it and say, 'Orr--Orr--Mrs.
       Orr?' or something to that effect, and then the whole thing will
       come naturally out."
       The bell rang, and they went in for the hour of school that
       concluded the morning. Varden brought his health certificate--a
       pompous document asserting that he had not suffered from roseola
       or kindred ailments in the holidays--and for a long time Rickie
       sat with it before him, spread open upon his desk. He did not
       quite like the job. It suggested intrigue, and he had come to
       Sawston not to intrigue but to labour. Doubtless Herbert was
       right, and Mr. Jackson and Mrs. Orr were wrong. But why could
       they not have it out among themselves? Then he thought, "I am a
       coward, and that's why I'm raising these objections," called the
       boy up to him, and it did all come out naturally, more or less.
       Hitherto Varden had lived with his mother; but she had left
       Sawston at Christmas, and now he would live with Mrs. Orr. "Mr.
       Jackson, sir, said it would be all right."
       "Yes, yes," said Rickie; "quite so." He remembered Herbert's
       dictum: "Masters must present a united front. If they do not--the
       deluge." He sent the boy back to his seat, and after school took
       the compromising health certificate to the headmaster. The
       headmaster was at that time easily excited by a breach of the
       constitution. "Parents or guardians," he reputed--"parents or
       guardians," and flew with those words on his lips to Mr. Jackson.
       To say that Rickie was a cat's-paw is to put it too strongly.
       Herbert was strictly honourable, and never pushed him into an
       illegal or really dangerous position; but there is no doubt that
       on this and on many other occasions he had to do things that he
       would not otherwise have done. There was always some diplomatic
       corner that had to be turned, always something that he had to say
       or not to say. As the term wore on he lost his independence--
       almost without knowing it. He had much to learn about boys, and
       he learnt not by direct observation--for which he believed he was
       unfitted--but by sedulous imitation of the more experienced
       masters. Originally he had intended to be friends with his
       pupils, and Mr. Pembroke commended the intention highly; but you
       cannot be friends either with boy or man unless you give yourself
       away in the process, and Mr. Pembroke did not commend this. He,
       for "personal intercourse," substituted the safer "personal
       influence," and gave his junior hints on the setting of kindly
       traps, in which the boy does give himself away and reveals his
       shy delicate thoughts, while the master, intact, commends or
       corrects them. Originally Rickie had meant to help boys in the
       anxieties that they undergo when changing into men: at Cambridge
       he had numbered this among life's duties. But here is a subject
       in which we must inevitably speak as one human being to another,
       not as one who has authority or the shadow of authority, and for
       this reason the elder school-master could suggest nothing but a
       few formulae. Formulae, like kindly traps, were not in Rickie's
       line, so he abandoned these subjects altogether and confined
       himself to working hard at what was easy. In the house he did as
       Herbert did, and referred all doubtful subjects to him. In his
       form, oddly enough, he became a martinet. It is so much simpler
       to be severe. He grasped the school regulations, and insisted on
       prompt obedience to them. He adopted the doctrine of collective
       responsibility. When one boy was late, he punished the whole
       form. "I can't help it," he would say, as if he was a power of
       nature. As a teacher he was rather dull. He curbed his own
       enthusiasms, finding that they distracted his attention, and that
       while he throbbed to the music of Virgil the boys in the back row
       were getting unruly. But on the whole he liked his form work: he
       knew why he was there, and Herbert did not overshadow him so
       completely.
       What was amiss with Herbert? He had known that something was
       amiss, and had entered into partnership with open eyes. The man
       was kind and unselfish; more than that he was truly charitable,
       and it was a real pleasure to him to give--pleasure to others.
       Certainly he might talk too much about it afterwards; but it was
       the doing, not the talking, that he really valued, and
       benefactors of this sort are not too common. He was, moreover,
       diligent and conscientious: his heart was in his work, and his
       adherence to the Church of England no mere matter of form. He was
       capable of affection: he was usually courteous and tolerant. Then
       what was amiss? Why, in spite of all these qualities, should
       Rickie feel that there was something wrong with him--nay, that he
       was wrong as a whole, and that if the Spirit of Humanity should
       ever hold a judgment he would assuredly be classed among the
       goats? The answer at first sight appeared a graceless one--it was
       that Herbert was stupid. Not stupid in the ordinary sense--he had
       a business-like brain, and acquired knowledge easily--but stupid
       in the important sense: his whole life was coloured by a contempt
       of the intellect. That he had a tolerable intellect of his own
       was not the point: it is in what we value, not in what we have,
       that the test of us resides. Now, Rickie's intellect was not
       remarkable. He came to his worthier results rather by imagination
       and instinct than by logic. An argument confused him, and he
       could with difficulty follow it even on paper. But he saw in this
       no reason for satisfaction, and tried to make such use of his
       brain as he could, just as a weak athlete might lovingly exercise
       his body. Like a weak athlete, too, he loved to watch the
       exploits, or rather the efforts, of others--their efforts not so
       much to acquire knowledge as to dispel a little of the darkness
       by which we and all our acquisitions are surrounded. Cambridge
       had taught him this, and he knew, if for no other reason, that
       his time there had not been in vain. And Herbert's contempt for
       such efforts revolted him. He saw that for all his fine talk
       about a spiritual life he had but one test for things--success:
       success for the body in this life or for the soul in the life to
       come. And for this reason Humanity, and perhaps such other
       tribunals as there may be, would assuredly reject him. _