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Little Minister, The
Chapter XXII - Lovers
James Matthew Barrie
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       _ Only something terrible, Gavin thought, could have brought Babbie
       to him at such an hour; yet when he left his mother's room it was
       to stand motionless on the stair, waiting for a silence in the
       manse that would not come. A house is never still in darkness to
       those who listen intently; there is a whispering in distant
       chambers, an unearthly hand presses the snib of the window, the
       latch rises. Ghosts were created when the first man woke in the
       night.
       Now Margaret slept. Two hours earlier, Jean, sitting on the salt-
       bucket, had read the chapter with which she always sent herself to
       bed. In honour of the little minister she had begun her Bible
       afresh when he came to Thrums, and was progressing through it, a
       chapter at night, sighing, perhaps, on washing days at a long
       chapter, such as Exodus twelfth, but never making two of it. The
       kitchen wag-at-the-wall clock was telling every room in the house
       that she had neglected to shut her door. As Gavin felt his way
       down the dark stair, awakening it into protest at every step, he
       had a glimpse of the pendulum's shadow running back and forward on
       the hearth; he started back from another shadow on the lobby wall,
       and then seeing it start too, knew it for his own. He opened the
       door and passed out unobserved; it was as if the sounds and
       shadows that filled the manse were too occupied with their game to
       mind an interloper.
       "Is that you?" he said to a bush, for the garden was in semi-
       darkness. Then the lantern's flash met him, and he saw the
       Egyptian in the summer-seat.
       "At last!" she said, reproachfully. "Evidently a lantern is a poor
       door-bell."
       "What is it?" Gavin asked, in suppressed excitement, for the least
       he expected to hear was that she was again being pursued for her
       share in the riot. The tremor in his voice surprised her into
       silence, and he thought she faltered because what she had to tell
       him was so woeful. So, in the darkness of the summer-seat, he
       kissed her, and she might have known that with that kiss the
       little minister was hers forever.
       Now Babbie had been kissed before, but never thus, and she turned
       from Gavin, and would have liked to be alone, for she had begun to
       know what love was, and the flash that revealed it to her laid
       bare her own shame, so that her impulse was to hide herself from
       her lover. But of all this Gavin was unconscious, and he repeated
       his question. The lantern was swaying in her hand, and when she
       turned fearfully to him its light fell on his face, and she saw
       how alarmed he was.
       "I am going away back to Nanny's," she said suddenly, and rose
       cowed, but he took her hand and held her.
       "Babbie," he said, huskily, "tell me what has happened to bring
       you here at this hour."
       She sought to pull her hand from him, but could not.
       "How you are trembling!" he whispered. "Babbie," he cried,
       "something terrible has happened to you, but do not fear. Tell me
       what it is, and then--then I will take you to my mother: yes, I
       will take you now."
       The Egyptian would have given all she had in the world to be able
       to fly from him then, that he might never know her as she was, but
       it could not be, and so she spoke out remorselessly. If her voice
       had become hard, it was a new-born scorn of herself that made it
       so.
       "You are needlessly alarmed," she said; "I am not at all the kind
       of person who deserves sympathy or expects it. There is nothing
       wrong. I am staying with Nanny over-night, and only came to Thrums
       to amuse myself. I chased your policeman down the Roods with my
       lantern, and then came here to amuse myself with you. That is
       all."
       "It was nothing but a love of mischief that brought you here?"
       Gavin asked, sternly, after an unpleasant pause.
       "Nothing," the Egyptian answered, recklessly.
       "I could not have believed this of you," the minister said; "I am
       ashamed of you."
       "I thought," Babbie retorted, trying to speak lightly until she
       could get away from him, "that you would be glad to see me. Your
       last words in Caddam seemed to justify that idea."
       "I am very sorry to see you," he answered, reproachfully.
       "Then I will go away at one," she said, stepping out of the
       summer-seat.
       "Yes," he replied, "you must go at once."
       "Then I won't," she said, turning back defiantly. "I know what you
       are to say: that the Thrums people would be shocked if they knew I
       was here; as if I cared what the Thrums people think of me."
       "I care what they think of you," Gavin said, as if that were
       decisive, "and I tell you I will not allow you to repeat this
       freak."
       "You 'will not allow me,'" echoed Babbie, almost enjoying herself,
       despite her sudden loss of self-respect,
       "I will not," Gavin said, resolutely. "Henceforth you must do as I
       think fit."
       "Since when have you taken command of me?" demanded Babbie.
       "Since a minute ago," Gavin replied, "when you let me kiss you."
       "Let you!" exclaimed Babbie, now justly incensed. "You did it
       yourself. I was very angry."
       "No, you were not."
       "I am not allowed to say that even?" asked the Egyptian. "Tell me
       something I may say, then, and I will repeat it after you."
       "I have something to say to you," Gavin told her, after a moment's
       reflection; "yes, and there is something I should like to hear you
       repeat after me, but not to-night."
       "I don't want to hear what it is," Babbie said, quickly, but she
       knew what it was, and even then, despite the new pain at her
       heart, her bosom swelled with pride because this man still loved
       her. Now she wanted to run away with his love for her before he
       could take it from her, and then realising that this parting must
       be forever, a great desire filled her to hear him put that kiss
       into words, and she said, faltering:
       "You can tell me what it is if you like."
       "Not to-night," said Gavin.
       "To-night, if at all," the gypsy almost entreated.
       "To-morrow, at Nanny's," answered Gavin, decisively: and this time
       he remembered without dismay that the morrow was the Sabbath.
       In the fairy tale the beast suddenly drops his skin and is a
       prince, and I believed it seemed to Babbie that some such change
       had come over this man, her plaything.
       "Your lantern is shining on my mother's window," were the words
       that woke her from this discovery, and then she found herself
       yielding the lantern to him. She became conscious vaguely that a
       corresponding change was taking place in herself.
       "You spoke of taking me to your mother," she said, bitterly.
       "Yes," he answered at once, "to-morrow"; but she shook her head,
       knowing that to-morrow he would be wiser.
       "Give me the lantern," she said, in a low voice, "I am going back
       to Nanny's now."
       "Yes," he said, "we must set out now, but I can carry the
       lantern."
       "You are not coming with me!" she exclaimed, shaking herself free
       of his hand.
       "I am coming," he replied, calmly, though he was not calm. "Take
       my arm, Babbie."
       She made a last effort to free herself from bondage, crying
       passionately, "I will not let you come."
       "When I say I am coming," Gavin answered between his teeth, "I
       mean that I am coming, and so let that be an end of this folly.
       Take my arm."
       "I think I hate you," she said, retreating from him.
       "Take my arm," he repeated, and, though her breast was rising
       rebelliously, she did as he ordered, and so he escorted her from
       the garden. At the foot of the field she stopped, and thought to
       frighten him by saying, "What would the people say if they saw you
       with me now?"
       "It does not much matter what they would say," he answered, still
       keeping his teeth together as if doubtful of their courage. "As
       for what they would do, that is certain; they would put me out of
       my church."
       "And it is dear to you?"
       "Dearer than life."
       "You told me long ago that your mother's heart would break if----"
       "Yes, I am sure it would."
       They had begun to climb the fields, but she stopped him with a
       jerk.
       "Go back, Mr. Dishart," she implored, clutching his arm with both
       hands. "You make me very unhappy for no purpose. Oh, why should
       you risk so much for me?"
       "I cannot have you wandering here alone at midnight," Gavin
       answered, gently.
       "That is nothing to me," she said, eagerly, but no longer
       resenting his air of proprietorship.
       "You will never do it again if I can prevent it."
       "But you cannot," she said, sadly. "Oh, yes, you can, Mr. Dishart.
       If you will turn back now I shall promise never to do anything
       again without first asking myself whether it would seem right to
       you. I know I acted very wrongly to-night."
       "Only thoughtlessly," he said.
       "Then have pity on me," she besought him, "and go back. If I have
       only been thoughtless, how can you punish me thus? Mr. Dishart,"
       she entreated, her voice breaking, "if you were to suffer for this
       folly of mine, do you think I could live?"
       "We are in God's hands, dear," he answered, firmly, and he again
       drew her arm to him. So they climbed the first field, and were
       almost at the hill before either spoke again.
       "Stop," Babbie whispered, crouching as she spoke; "I see some one
       crossing the hill."
       "I have seen him for some time," Gavin answered, quietly; "but I
       am doing no wrong, and I will not hide."
       The Egyptian had to walk on with him, and I suppose she did not
       think the less of him for that. Yet she said, warningly--
       "If he sees you, all Thrums will be in an uproar before morning."
       "I cannot help that," Gavin replied. "It is the will of God."
       "To ruin you for my sins?"
       "If He thinks fit."
       The figure drew nearer, and with every step Babbie's distress
       doubled.
       "We are walking straight to him," she whispered. "I implore you to
       wait here until he passes, if not for your own sake, for your
       mother's."
       At that he wavered, and she heard his teeth sliding against each
       other, as if he could no longer clench them.
       "But, no," he said moving on again, "I will not be a skulker from
       any man. If it be God's wish that I should suffer for this, I must
       suffer."
       "Oh, why," cried Babbie, beating her hands together in grief,
       "should you suffer for me?"
       "You are mine," Gavin answered. Babbie gasped.
       "And if you act foolishly," he continued, "it is right that I
       should bear the brunt of it. No, I will not let you go on alone;
       you are not fit to be alone. You need some one to watch over you
       and care for you and love you, and, if need be, to suffer with
       you."
       "Turn back, dear, before he sees us."
       "He has seen us."
       Yes, I had seen them, for the figure on the hill was no other than
       the dominie of Glen Quharity. The park gate clicked as it swung
       to, and I looked up and saw Gavin and the Egyptian. My eyes should
       have found them sooner, but it was to gaze upon Margaret's home,
       while no one saw me, that I had trudged into Thrums so late, and
       by that time, I suppose, my eyes were of little service for seeing
       through. Yet, when I knew that of these two people suddenly beside
       me on the hill one was the little minister and the other a strange
       woman, I fell back from their side with dread before I could step
       forward and cry "Gavin!"
       "I am Mr. Dishart," he answered, with a composure that would not
       have served him for another sentence. He was more excited than I,
       for the "Gavin" fell harmlessly on him, while I had no sooner
       uttered it than there rushed through me the shame of being false
       to Margaret. It was the only time in my life that I for-got her in
       him, though he has ever stood next to her in my regard.
       I looked from Gavin to the gypsy woman, and again from her to him,
       and she began to tell a lie in his interest. But she got no
       farther than "I met Mr. Dis-bart accid--" when she stopped,
       ashamed. It was reverence for Gavin that checked the lie. Not
       every man has had such a compliment paid him.
       "It is natural," Gavin said, slowly, "that you, sir, should wonder
       why I am here with this woman at such an hour, and you may know me
       so little as to think ill of me for it."
       I did not answer, and he misunderstood my silence.
       "No," he continued, in a harder voice, as if I had asked him a
       question, "I will explain nothing to you. You are not my judge. If
       you would do me harm, sir, you have it in your power."
       It was with these cruel words that Gavin addressed me. He did not
       know how cruel they were. The Egyptian, I think, must have seen
       that his suspicions hurt me, for she said, softly, with a look of
       appeal in her eyes--
       "You are the schoolmaster in Glen Quharity? Then you will perhaps
       save Mr. Dishart the trouble of coming farther by showing me the
       way to old Nanny Webster's house at Windyghoul?"
       "I have to pass the house at any rate," I answered eagerly, and
       she came quickly to my side.
       I knew, though in the darkness I could see but vaguely, that Gavin
       was holding his head high and waiting for me to say my worst. I
       had not told him that I dared think no evil of him, and he still
       suspected me. Now I would not trust myself to speak lest I should
       betray Margaret, and yet I wanted him to know that base doubts
       about him could never find a shelter in me. I am a timid man who
       long ago lost the glory of my life by it, and I was again timid
       when I sought to let Gavin see that my faith in him was unshaken.
       I lifted my bonnet to the gypsy, and asked her to take my arm. It
       was done clumsily, I cannot doubt, but he read my meaning and held
       out his hand to me. I had not touched it since he was three years
       old, and I trembled too much to give it the grasp I owed it. He
       and I parted without a word, but to the Egyptian he said, "To-
       morrow, dear, I will see you at Nanny's," and he was to kiss her,
       but I pulled her a step farther from him, and she put her hands
       over her face, crying, "No, no!"
       If I asked her some questions between the hill and Windyghoul you
       must not blame me, for this was my affair as well as theirs. She
       did not answer me; I know now that she did not hear me. But at the
       mud house she looked abruptly into my face, and said--
       "You love him, too!"
       I trudged to the school-house with these words for company, and it
       was less her discovery than her confession that tortured me. How
       much I slept that night you may guess. _
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Chapter I - The Love-Light
Chapter II - Runs Alongside the Making of a Minister
Chapter III - The Night-Watchers
Chapter IV - First Coming of the Egyptian Woman
Chapter V - A Warlike Chapter, Culminating in the Flouting of the Minister by the Woman
Chapter VI - In which the Soldiers Meet the Amazons of Thrums
Chapter VII - Has the Folly of Looking into a Woman's Eyes by Way of Text
Chapter VIII - 3 A.M.--Monstrous Audacity of the Woman
Chapter IX - The Woman Considered in Absence--Adventures of a Military Cloak
Chapter X - First Sermon against Women
Chapter XI - Tells in a Whisper of Man's Fall during the Curling Season
Chapter XII - Tragedy of a Mud House
Chapter XIII - Second Coming of the Egyptian Woman
Chapter XIV - The Minister Dances to the Woman's Piping
Chapter XV - The Minister Bewitched--Second Sermon against Women
Chapter XVI - Continued Misbehavior of the Egyptian Woman
Chapter XVII - Intrusion of Haggart into these Pages against the Author's Wish
Chapter XVIII - Caddam--Love Leading to a Rupture
Chapter XIX - Circumstances Leading to the First Sermon in Approval of Women
Chapter XX - End of the State of Indecision
Chapter XXI - Night--Margaret--Flashing of a Lantern
Chapter XXII - Lovers
Chapter XXIII - Contains a Birth, Which is Sufficient for One Chapter
Chapter XXIV - The New World, and the Women who may not Dwell therein
Chapter XXV - Beginning of the Twenty-four Hours
Chapter XXVI - Scene at the Spittal
Chapter XXVII - First Journey of the Dominie to Thrums during the Twenty-four Hours
Chapter XXVIII - The Hill before Darkness Fell--Scene of the Impending Catastrophe
Chapter XXIX - Story of the Egyptian
Chapter XXX - The Meeting for Rain
Chapter XXXI - Various Bodies Converging on the Hill
Chapter XXXII - Leading Swiftly to the Appalling Marriage
Chapter XXXIII - While the Ten o'Clock Bell was Ringing
Chapter XXXIV - The Great Rain
Chapter XXXV - The Glen at Break of Day
Chapter XXXVI - Story of the Dominie
Chapter XXXVII - Second Journey of the Dominie to Thrums during the Twenty-four Hours
Chapter XXXVIII - Thrums during the Twenty-four Hours--Defence of the Manse
Chapter XXXIX - How Babbie Spent the Night of August Fourth
Chapter XL - Babbie and Margaret--Defence of the Manse continued
Chapter XLI - Rintoui and Babbie--Break-down of the Defence of the Manse
Chapter XLII - Margaret, the Precentor, and God between
Chapter XLIII - Rain--Mist--The Jaws
Chapter XLIV - End of the Twenty-four Hours
Chapter XLV - Talk of a Little Maid since Grown Tall