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Little Minister, The
Chapter XVIII - Caddam--Love Leading to a Rupture
James Matthew Barrie
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       _ Gavin told himself not to go near the mud house on the following
       Monday; but he went. The distance is half a mile, and the time he
       took was two hours. This was owing to his setting out due west to
       reach a point due north; yet with the intention of deceiving none
       save himself. His reason had warned him to avoid the Egyptian, and
       his desires had consented to be dragged westward because they knew
       he had started too soon. When the proper time came they knocked
       reason on the head and carried him straight to Caddam. Here reason
       came to, and again began to state its case. Desires permitted him
       to halt, as if to argue the matter out, but were thus tolerant
       merely because from where he stood he could see Nanny's doorway.
       When Babbie emerged from it reason seems to have made one final
       effort, for Gavin quickly took that side of a tree which is loved
       of squirrels at the approach of an enemy. He looked round the
       tree-trunk at her, and then reason discarded him. The gypsy had
       two empty pans in her hands, For a second she gazed in the
       minister's direction, then demurely leaped the ditch of leaves
       that separated Nanny's yard from Caddam, and strolled into the
       wood. Discovering with indignation that he had been skulking
       behind the tree, Gavin came into the open. How good of the
       Egyptian, he reflected, to go to the well for water, and thus save
       the old woman's arms! Reason shouted from near the manse (he only
       heard the echo) that he could still make up on it. "Come along."
       said his desires, and marched him prisoner to the well.
       The path which Babbie took that day is lost in blaeberry leaves
       now, and my little maid and I lately searched for an hour before
       we found the well. It was dry, choked with broom and stones, and
       broken rusty pans, but we sat down where Babbie and Gavin had
       talked, and I stirred up many memories. Probably two of those
       pans, that could be broken in the hands to-day like shortbread,
       were Nanny's, and almost certainly the stones are fragments from
       the great slab that used to cover the well. Children like to peer
       into wells to see what the world is like at the other side, and so
       this covering was necessary. Rob Angus was the strong man who bore
       the stone to Caddam, flinging it a yard before him at a time. The
       well had also a wooden lid with leather hinges, and over this the
       stone was dragged.
       Gavin arrived at the well in time to offer Babbie the loan of his
       arms. In her struggle she had taken her lips into her mouth, but
       in vain did she tug at the stone, which refused to do more than
       turn round on the wood. But for her presence, the minister's
       efforts would have been equally futile. Though not strong,
       however, he had the national horror of being beaten before a
       spectator, and once at school he had won a fight by telling his
       big antagonist to come on until the boy was tired of pummelling
       him. As he fought with the stone now, pains shot through his head,
       and his arms threatened to come away at the shoulders; but remove
       it he did.
       "How strong you are!" Babbie said with open admiration.
       I am sure no words of mine could tell how pleased the minister
       was; yet he knew he was not strong, and might have known that she
       had seen him do many things far more worthy of admiration without
       admiring them. This, indeed, is a sad truth, that we seldom give
       our love to what is worthiest in its object.
       "How curious that we should have met here," Babbie said, in her
       dangerously friendly way, as they filled the pans. "Do you know I
       quite started when your shadow fell suddenly on the stone. Did you
       happen to be passing through the wood?"
       "No," answered truthful Gavin, "I was looking for you. I thought
       you saw me from Nanny's door."
       "Did you? I only saw a man hiding behind a tree, and of course I
       knew it could not be you."
       Gavin looked at her sharply, but she was not laughing at him.
       "It was I," he admitted; "but I was not exactly hiding behind the
       tree."
       "You had only stepped behind it for a moment," suggested the
       Egyptian.
       Her gravity gave way to laughter under Gavin's suspicious looks,
       but the laughing ended abruptly. She had heard a noise in the
       wood, Gavin heard it too, and they both turned round in time to
       see two ragged boys running from them. When boys are very happy
       they think they must be doing wrong, and in a wood, of which they
       are among the natural inhabitants, they always take flight from
       the enemy, adults, if given time. For my own part, when I see a
       boy drop from a tree I am as little surprised as if he were an
       apple or a nut. But Gavin was startled, picturing these spies
       handing in the new sensation about him at every door, as a
       district visitor distributes tracts. The gypsy noted his
       uneasiness and resented it.
       "What does it feel like to be afraid?" she asked, eyeing him.
       "I am afraid of nothing," Gavin answered, offended in turn.
       "Yes, you are. When you saw me come out of Nanny's you crept
       behind a tree; when these boys showed themselves you shook. You
       are afraid of being seen with me. Go away, then; I don't want
       you."
       "Fear," said Gavin, "is one thing, and prudence is another."
       "Another name for it," Babbie interposed.
       "Not at all; but I owe it to my position to be careful. Unhappily,
       you do not seem to feel--to recognise--to know--"
       "To know what?"
       "Let us avoid the subject."
       "No," the Egyptian said, petulantly. "I hate not to be told
       things. Why must you be 'prudent?'"
       "You should see," Gavin replied, awkwardly, "that there is a--a
       difference between a minister and a gypsy."
       "But if I am willing to overlook it?" asked Babbie, impertinently.
       Gavin beat the brushwood mournfully with his staff.
       "I cannot allow you," he said, "to talk disrespectfully of my
       calling. It is the highest a man can follow. I wish--"
       He checked himself; but he was wishing she could see him in his
       pulpit.
       "I suppose," said the gypsy, reflectively, "one must be very
       clever to be a minister."
       "As for that--" answered Gavin, waving his hand grandly.
       "And it must be nice, too," continued Babbie, "to be able to speak
       for a whole hour to people who can neither answer nor go away. Is
       it true that before you begin to preach you lock the door to keep
       the congregation in?"
       "I must leave you if you talk in that way."
       "I only wanted to know."
       "Oh, Babbie, I am afraid you have little acquaintance with the
       inside of churches. Do you sit under anybody?"
       "Do I sit under anybody?" repeated Babbie, blankly.
       Is it any wonder that the minister sighed? "Whom do you sit
       under?" was his form of salutation to strangers.
       "I mean, where do you belong?" he said.
       "Wanderers," Babbie answered, still misunderstanding him, "belong
       to nowhere in particular."
       "I am only asking you if you ever go to church?"
       "Oh, that is what you mean. Yes, I go often."
       "What church?"
       "You promised not to ask questions."
       "I only mean what denomination do you belong to?"
       "Oh, the--the--Is there an English church denomination?"
       Gavin groaned.
       "Well, that is my denomination," said Babbie, cheerfully. "Some
       day, though, I am coming to hear you preach. I should like to see
       how you look in your gown."
       "We don't wear gowns."
       "What a shame! But I am coming, nevertheless. I used to like going
       to church in Edinburgh."
       "You have lived in Edinburgh?"
       "We gypsies have lived everywhere," Babbie said, lightly, though
       she was annoyed at having mentioned Edinburgh.
       "But all gypsies don't speak as you do," said Gavin, puzzled
       again. "I don't understand you."
       "Of course you dinna," replied Babbie, in broad Scotch. "Maybe, if
       you did, you would think that it's mair imprudent in me to stand
       here cracking clavers wi' the minister than for the minister to
       waste his time cracking wi' me."
       "Then why do it?"
       "Because--Oh, because prudence and I always take different roads."
       "Tell me who you are, Babbie," the minister entreated; "at least,
       tell me where your encampment is."
       "You have warned me against imprudence," she said.
       "I want," Gavin continued, earnestly, "to know your people, your
       father and mother."
       "Why?"
       "Because," he answered, stoutly, "I like their daughter."
       At that Babbie's fingers played on one of the pans, and, for the
       moment, there was no more badinage in her.
       "You are a good man," she said, abruptly; "but you will never know
       my parents."
       "Are they dead?"
       "They may be; I cannot tell."
       "This is all incomprehensible to me."
       "I suppose it is. I never asked any one to understand me."
       "Perhaps not," said Gavin, excitedly; "but the time has come when
       I must know everything of you that is to be known."
       Babbie receded from him in quick fear.
       "You must never speak to me in that way again," she said, in a
       warning voice.
       "In what way?"
       Gavin knew what way very well, but he thirsted to hear in her
       words what his own had implied. She did not choose to oblige him,
       however.
       "You never will understand me," she said. "I daresay I might be
       more like other people now, if--if I had been brought up
       differently. Not," she added, passionately, "that I want to be
       like others. Do you never feel, when you have been living a
       humdrum life for months, that you must break out of it, or go
       crazy?"
       Her vehemence alarmed Gavin, who hastened to reply--
       "My life is not humdrum. It is full of excitement, anxieties,
       pleasures, and I am too fond of the pleasures. Perhaps it is
       because I have more of the luxuries of life than you that I am so
       content with my lot."
       "Why, what can you know of luxuries?"
       "I have eighty pounds a year."
       Babble laughed. "Are ministers so poor?" she asked, calling back
       her gravity.
       "It is a considerable sum," said Gavin, a little hurt, for it was
       the first time he had ever heard any one speak disrespectfully of
       eighty pounds.
       The Egyptian looked down at her ring, and smiled.
       "I shall always remember your saying that," she told him, "after
       we have quarrelled."
       "We shall not quarrel," said Gavin, decidedly.
       "Oh, yes, we shall."
       "We might have done so once, but we know each other too well now."
       "That is why we are to quarrel."
       "About what?" said the minister. "I have not blamed you for
       deriding my stipend, though how it can seem small in the eyes of a
       gypsy--"
       "Who can afford," broke in Babbie, "to give Nanny seven shillings
       a week?"
       "True," Gavin said, uncomfortably, while the Egyptian again toyed
       with her ring. She was too impulsive to be reticent except now and
       then, and suddenly she said, "You have looked at this ring before
       now. Do you know that if you had it on your finger you would be
       more worth robbing than with eighty pounds in each of your
       pockets?"
       "Where did you get it?" demanded Gavin, fiercely.
       "I am sorry I told you that," the gypsy said, regretfully.
       "Tell me how you got it," Gavin insisted, his face now hard.
       "Now, you see, we are quarrelling."
       "I must know."
       "Must know! You forget yourself," she said haughtily.
       "No, but I have forgotten myself too long. Where did you get that
       ring?"
       "Good afternoon to you," said the Egyptian, lifting her pans.
       "It is not good afternoon," he cried, detaining her. "It is good-
       bye for ever, unless you answer me."
       "As you please," she said. "I will not tell you where I got my
       ring. It is no affair of yours."
       "Yes, Babbie, it is."
       She was not, perhaps, greatly grieved to hear him say so, for she
       made no answer.
       "You are no gypsy," he continued, suspiciously.
       "Perhaps not," she answered, again taking the pans.
       "This dress is but a disguise."
       "It may be. Why don't you go away and leave me?"
       "I am going," he replied, wildly. "I will have no more to do with
       you. Formerly I pitied you, but--"
       He could not have used a word more calculated to rouse the
       Egyptian's ire, and she walked away with her head erect. Only once
       did she look back, and it was to say--
       "This is prudence--now." _
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Chapter I - The Love-Light
Chapter II - Runs Alongside the Making of a Minister
Chapter III - The Night-Watchers
Chapter IV - First Coming of the Egyptian Woman
Chapter V - A Warlike Chapter, Culminating in the Flouting of the Minister by the Woman
Chapter VI - In which the Soldiers Meet the Amazons of Thrums
Chapter VII - Has the Folly of Looking into a Woman's Eyes by Way of Text
Chapter VIII - 3 A.M.--Monstrous Audacity of the Woman
Chapter IX - The Woman Considered in Absence--Adventures of a Military Cloak
Chapter X - First Sermon against Women
Chapter XI - Tells in a Whisper of Man's Fall during the Curling Season
Chapter XII - Tragedy of a Mud House
Chapter XIII - Second Coming of the Egyptian Woman
Chapter XIV - The Minister Dances to the Woman's Piping
Chapter XV - The Minister Bewitched--Second Sermon against Women
Chapter XVI - Continued Misbehavior of the Egyptian Woman
Chapter XVII - Intrusion of Haggart into these Pages against the Author's Wish
Chapter XVIII - Caddam--Love Leading to a Rupture
Chapter XIX - Circumstances Leading to the First Sermon in Approval of Women
Chapter XX - End of the State of Indecision
Chapter XXI - Night--Margaret--Flashing of a Lantern
Chapter XXII - Lovers
Chapter XXIII - Contains a Birth, Which is Sufficient for One Chapter
Chapter XXIV - The New World, and the Women who may not Dwell therein
Chapter XXV - Beginning of the Twenty-four Hours
Chapter XXVI - Scene at the Spittal
Chapter XXVII - First Journey of the Dominie to Thrums during the Twenty-four Hours
Chapter XXVIII - The Hill before Darkness Fell--Scene of the Impending Catastrophe
Chapter XXIX - Story of the Egyptian
Chapter XXX - The Meeting for Rain
Chapter XXXI - Various Bodies Converging on the Hill
Chapter XXXII - Leading Swiftly to the Appalling Marriage
Chapter XXXIII - While the Ten o'Clock Bell was Ringing
Chapter XXXIV - The Great Rain
Chapter XXXV - The Glen at Break of Day
Chapter XXXVI - Story of the Dominie
Chapter XXXVII - Second Journey of the Dominie to Thrums during the Twenty-four Hours
Chapter XXXVIII - Thrums during the Twenty-four Hours--Defence of the Manse
Chapter XXXIX - How Babbie Spent the Night of August Fourth
Chapter XL - Babbie and Margaret--Defence of the Manse continued
Chapter XLI - Rintoui and Babbie--Break-down of the Defence of the Manse
Chapter XLII - Margaret, the Precentor, and God between
Chapter XLIII - Rain--Mist--The Jaws
Chapter XLIV - End of the Twenty-four Hours
Chapter XLV - Talk of a Little Maid since Grown Tall