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Dawn O’Hara, The Girl Who Laughed
CHAPTER XII - BENNIE THE CONSOLER
Edna Ferber
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       _ In a corner of Frau Nirlanger's bedroom, sheltered from
       draughts and glaring light, is a little wooden bed,
       painted blue and ornamented with stout red roses that are
       faded by time and much abuse. Every evening at eight
       o'clock three anxious-browed women hold low-spoken
       conclave about the quaint old bed, while its occupant
       sleeps and smiles as he sleeps, and clasps to his breast
       a chewed-looking woolly dog. For a new joy has come to
       the sad little Frau Nirlanger, and I, quite by accident,
       was the cause of bringing it to her. The queer little
       blue bed, with its faded roses, was brought down from the
       attic by Frau Knapf, for she is one of the three foster
       mothers of the small occupant of the bed. The occupant
       of the bed is named Bennie, and a corporation formed for
       the purpose of bringing him up in the way he should go is
       composed of: Dawn O'Hara Orme, President and Distracted
       Guardian; Mrs. Konrad Nirlanger, Cuddler-in-chief and
       Authority on the Subject of Bennie's Bed-time; Mr. Blackie
       Griffith, Good Angel, General Cut-up and Monitor off'n
       Bennie's Neckties and Toys; Dr. Ernst von Gerhard, Chief
       Medical Adviser, and Sweller of the Exchequer, with the
       Privilege of Selecting All Candies. Members of the
       corporation meet with great frequency evenings and Sundays,
       much to the detriment of a certain Book-in-the-making with
       which Dawn O'Hara Orme was wont to struggle o' evenings.
       Bennie had been one of those little tragedies that
       find their way into juvenile court. Bennie's story was
       common enough, but Bennie himself had been different.
       Ten minutes after his first appearance in the court room
       everyone, from the big, bald judge to the newest
       probation officer, had fallen in love with him. Somehow,
       you wanted to smooth the hair from his forehead, tip his
       pale little face upward, and very gently kiss his smooth,
       white brow. Which alone was enough to distinguish
       Bennie, for Juvenile court children, as a rule, are
       distinctly not kissable.
       Bennie's mother was accused of being unfit to care
       for her boy, and Bennie was temporarily installed in the
       Detention Home. There the superintendent and his plump
       and kindly wife had fallen head over heels in love with
       him, and had dressed him in a smart little Norfolk
       suit and a frivolous plaid silk tie. There were
       delays in the case, and postponement after postponement,
       so that Bennie appeared in the court room every Tuesday
       for four weeks. The reporters, and the probation
       officers and policemen became very chummy with Bennie,
       and showered him with bright new pennies and certain
       wonderful candies. Superintendent Arnett of the
       Detention Home was as proud of the boy as though he were
       his own. And when Bennie would look shyly and
       questioningly into his face for permission to accept the
       proffered offerings, the big superintendent would chuckle
       delightedly. Bennie had a strangely mobile face for such
       a baby, and the whitest, smoothest brow I have ever seen.
       The comedy and tears and misery and laughter of the
       big, white-walled court room were too much for Bennie.
       He would gaze about with puzzled blue eyes; then, giving
       up the situation as something too vast for his
       comprehension, he would fall to drawing curly-cues on a
       bit of paper with a great yellow pencil presented him by
       one of the newspaper men.
       Every Tuesday the rows of benches were packed with a
       motley crowd of Poles, Russians, Slavs, Italians, Greeks,
       Lithuanians--a crowd made up of fathers, mothers,
       sisters, brothers, aunts, uncles, neighbors, friends, and
       enemies of the boys and girls whose fate was in the hands
       of the big man seated in the revolving chair up in front.
       But Bennie's mother was not of this crowd; this pitiful,
       ludicrous crowd filling the great room with the stifling,
       rancid odor of the poor. Nor was Bennie. He sat, clear-eyed
       and unsmiling, in the depths of a great chair on the
       court side of the railing and gravely received the
       attentions of the lawyers, and reporters and court room
       attaches who had grown fond of the grave little figure.
       Then, on the fifth Tuesday, Bennie's mother appeared.
       How she had come to be that child's mother God only
       knows--or perhaps He had had nothing to do with it. She
       was terribly sober and frightened. Her face was swollen
       and bruised, and beneath one eye there was a puffy
       green-and-blue swelling. Her sordid story was common
       enough as the probation officer told it. The woman had
       been living in one wretched room with the boy. Her
       husband had deserted her. There was no food, and little
       furniture. The queer feature of it, said the probation
       officer, was that the woman managed to keep the boy
       fairly neat and clean, regardless of her own condition,
       and he generally had food of some sort, although the
       mother sometimes went without food for days. Through the
       squalor and misery and degradation of her own life Bennie
       had somehow been kept unsullied, a thing apart.
       "H'm! " said judge Wheeling, and looked at Bennie.
       Bennie was standing beside his mother. He was very
       quiet, and his eyes were smiling up into those of the
       battered creature who was fighting for him. "I guess
       we'll have to take you out of this," the judge decided,
       abruptly. "That boy is too good to go to waste."
       The sodden, dazed woman before him did not
       immediately get the full meaning of his words. She still
       stood there, swaying a bit, and staring unintelligently
       at the judge. Then, quite suddenly, she realized it.
       She took a quick step forward. Her hand went up to her
       breast, to her throat, to her lips, with an odd, stifled
       gesture.
       "You ain't going to take him away! From me! No, you
       wouldn't do that, would you? Not for--not for always!
       You wouldn't do that--you wouldn't--"
       Judge Wheeling waved her away. But the woman dropped
       to her knees.
       "Judge, give me a chance! I'll stop drinking. Only
       don't take him away from me! Don't, judge, don't! He's all
       I've got in the world. Give me a chance. Three months!
       Six months! A year!"
       "Get up!" ordered judge Wheeling, gruffly, "and stop
       that! It won't do you a bit of good."
       And then a wonderful thing happened. The woman rose
       to her feet. A new and strange dignity had come into her
       battered face. The lines of suffering and vice were
       erased as by magic, and she seemed to grow taller,
       younger, almost beautiful. When she spoke again it was
       slowly and distinctly, her words quite free from the blur
       of the barroom and street vernacular.
       "I tell you you must give me a chance. You cannot
       take a child from a mother in this way. I tell you, if
       you will only help me I can crawl back up the road that
       I've traveled. I was not always like this. There was
       another life, before--before--Oh, since then there have
       been years of blackness, and hunger, and cold and--worse!
       But I never dragged the boy into it. Look at him!"
       Our eyes traveled from the woman's transfigured face
       to that of the boy. We could trace a wonderful likeness
       where before we had seen none. But the woman went on in
       her steady, even tone.
       "I can't talk as I should, because my brain isn't
       clear. It's the drink. When you drink, you forget. But
       you must help me. I can't do it alone. I can remember
       how to live straight, just as I can remember how to talk
       straight. Let me show you that I'm not all bad. Give me
       a chance. Take the boy and then give him back to me when
       you are satisfied. I'll try--God only knows how I'll
       try. Only don't take him away forever, Judge! Don't do
       that!"
       Judge Wheeling ran an uncomfortable finger around his
       collar's edge.
       "Any friends living here?"
       "No! No!"
       "Sure about that?"
       "Quite sure."
       "Now see here; I'm going to give you your chance. I
       shall take this boy away from you for a year. In that
       time you will stop drinking and become a decent,
       self-supporting woman. You will be given in charge of
       one of these probation officers. She will find work for
       you, and a good home, and she'll stand by you, and you
       must report to her. If she is satisfied with you at the
       end of the year, the boy goes back to you."
       "She will be satisfied," the woman said, simply. She
       stooped and taking Bennie's face between her
       hands kissed him once. Then she stepped aside and stood
       quite still, looking after the little figure that passed
       out of the court room with his hand in that of a big,
       kindly police officer. She looked until the big door had
       opened and closed upon them.
       Then--well, it was just another newspaper story. It
       made a good one. That evening I told Frau Nirlanger
       about it, and she wept, softly, and murmured: "Ach, das
       arme baby! Like my little Oscar he is, without a
       mother." I told Ernst about him too, and Blackie,
       because I could not get his grave little face out of my
       mind. I wondered if those who had charge of him now
       would take the time to bathe the little body, and brush
       the soft hair until it shone, and tie the gay plaid silk
       tie as lovingly as "Daddy" Arnett of the Detention Home
       had done.
       Then it was that I, quite unwittingly, stepped into
       Bennie's life.
       There was an anniversary, or a change in the board of
       directors, or a new coat of paint or something of the
       kind in one of the orphan homes, and the story fell to
       me. I found the orphan home to be typical of its kind--a
       big, dreary, prison-like structure. The woman at
       the door did not in the least care to let me in. She was
       a fish-mouthed woman with a hard eye, and as I told my
       errand her mouth grew fishier and the eye harder.
       Finally she led me down a long, dark, airless stretch of
       corridor and departed in search of the matron, leaving me
       seated in the unfriendly reception room, with its
       straight-backed chairs placed stonily against the walls,
       beneath rows of red and blue and yellow religious
       pictures.
       Just as I was wondering why it seemed impossible to
       be holy and cheerful at the same time, there came a
       pad-padding down the corridor. The next moment the
       matron stood in the doorway. She was a mountainous,
       red-faced woman, with warts on her nose.
       "Good-afternoon," I said, sweetly. ("Ugh! What a
       brute!") I thought. Then I began to explain my errand
       once more. Criticism of the Home? No indeed, I assured
       her. At last, convinced of my disinterestedness she
       reluctantly guided me about the big, gloomy building.
       There were endless flights of shiny stairs, and endless
       stuffy, airless rooms, until we came to a door which she
       flung open, disclosing the nursery. It seemed to me that
       there were a hundred babies--babies at every stage of
       development, of all sizes, and ages and types. They glanced
       up at the opening of the door, and then a dreadful thing
       happened.
       Every child that was able to walk or creep scuttled
       into the farthest corners and remained quite, quite still
       with a wide-eyed expression of fear and apprehension on
       every face.
       For a moment my heart stood still. I turned to look
       at the woman by my side. Her thin lips were compressed
       into a straight, hard line. She said a word to a nurse
       standing near, and began to walk about, eying the
       children sharply. She put out a hand to pat the head of
       one red-haired mite in a soiled pinafore; but before her
       hand could descend I saw the child dodge and the tiny
       hand flew up to the head, as though in defense.
       "They are afraid of her!" my sick heart told me.
       "Those babies are afraid of her! What does she do to
       them? I can't stand this. I'm going."
       I mumbled a hurried "Thank you," to the fat matron as
       I turned to leave the big, bare room. At the head of the
       stairs there was a great, black door. I stopped before
       it--God knows why!--and pointed toward it.
       "What is in that room?" I asked. Since then I have
       wondered many times at the unseen power that prompted me
       to put the question.
       The stout matron bustled on, rattling her keys as she
       walked.
       "That--oh, that's where we keep the incorrigibles."
       "May I see them?" I asked, again prompted by that
       inner voice.
       "There is only one." She grudgingly unlocked the
       door, using one of the great keys that swung from her
       waist. The heavy, black door swung open. I stepped into
       the bare room, lighted dimly by one small window. In the
       farthest corner crouched something that stirred and
       glanced up at our entrance. It peered at us with an ugly
       look of terror and defiance, and I stared back at it, in
       the dim light. During one dreadful, breathless second I
       remained staring, while my heart stood still. Then--
       "Bennie!" I cried. And stumbled toward him. "Bennie--
       boy!"
       The little unkempt figure, in its soiled
       knickerbocker suit, the sunny hair all uncared for, the
       gay plaid tie draggled and limp, rushed into my arms with
       a crazy, inarticulate cry.
       Down on my knees on the bare floor I held him close--
       close! and his arms were about my neck as though they
       never should unclasp.
       "Take me away! Take me away!" His wet cheek was
       pressed against my own streaming one. "I want my mother!
       I want Daddy Arnett! Take me away!"
       I wiped his cheeks with my notebook or something,
       picked him up in my arms, and started for the door. I
       had quite forgotten the fat matron.
       "What are you doing?" she asked, blocking the doorway
       with her huge bulk.
       "I'm going to take him back with me. Please let me!
       I'll take care of him until the year is up. He shan't
       bother you any more."
       "That is impossible," she said, coldly. "He has been
       sent here by the court, for a year, and he must stay
       here. Besides, he is a stubborn, uncontrollable child."
       "Uncontrollable! He's nothing of the kind! Why
       don't you treat him as a child should be treated, instead
       of like a little animal? You don't know him! Why, he's
       the most lovable--I And he's only a baby! Can't you
       see that? A baby!"
       She only stared her dislike, her little pig eyes
       grown smaller and more glittering.
       "You great--big--thing! " I shrieked at her, like an
       infuriated child. With the tears streaming down my
       cheeks I unclasped Bennie's cold hands from about my
       neck. He clung to me, frantically, until I had to push
       him away and run.
       The woman swung the door shut, and locked it. But
       for all its thickness I could hear Bennie's helpless
       fists pounding on its panels as I stumbled down the
       stairs, and Bennie's voice came faintly to my ears,
       muffled by the heavy door, as he shrieked to me to take
       him away to his mother, and to Daddy Arnett.
       I blubbered all the way back in the car, until
       everyone stared, but I didn't care. When I reached the
       office I made straight for Blackie's smoke-filled
       sanctum. When my tale was ended he let me cry all over
       his desk, with my head buried in a heap of galley-proofs
       and my tears watering his paste-pot. He sat calmly by,
       smoking. Finally he began gently to philosophize. "Now
       girl, he's prob'ly better off there than he ever was at
       home with his mother soused all the time. Maybe he give
       that warty matron friend of yours all kinds of trouble,
       yellin' for his ma."
       I raised my head from the desk. "Oh, you can talk!
       You didn't see him. What do you care! But if you could
       have seen him, crouched there--alone--like a little
       animal! He was so sweet--and lovable--and--and--he
       hadn't been decently washed for weeks--and his arms clung
       to me--I can feel his hands about my neck!--"
       I buried my head in the papers again. Blackie went
       on smoking. There was no sound in the little room except
       the purr-purring of Blackie's pipe. Then:
       "I done a favor for Wheeling once," mused he.
       I glanced up, quickly. "Oh, Blackie, do you think--"
       "No, I don't. But then again, you can't never tell.
       That was four or five years ago, and the mem'ry of past
       favors grows dim fast. Still, if you're through waterin'
       the top of my desk, why I'd like t' set down and do a
       little real brisk talkin' over the phone. You're
       excused."
       Quite humbly I crept away, with hope in my heart.
       To this day I do not know what secret string the
       resourceful Blackie pulled. But the next afternoon I
       found a hastily scrawled note tucked into the roll of my
       typewriter. It sent me scuttling across the hall to the
       sporting editor's smoke-filled room. And there on a
       chair beside the desk, surrounded by scrap-books, lead
       pencils, paste-pot and odds and ends of newspaper office
       paraphernalia, sat Bennie. His hair
       was parted very smoothly on one side, and under his
       dimpled chin bristled a very new and extremely lively
       green-and-red plaid silk tie.
       The next instant I had swept aside papers, brushes,
       pencils, books, and Bennie was gathered close in my arms.
       Blackie, with a strange glow in his deep-set black eyes
       regarded us with an assumed disgust.
       "Wimmin is all alike. Ain't it th' truth? I used t'
       think you was different. But shucks! It ain't so. Got
       t' turn on the weeps the minute you're tickled or mad.
       Why say, I ain't goin' t' have you comin' in here an'
       dampenin' up the whole place every little while! It's
       unhealthy for me, sittin' here in the wet."
       "Oh, shut up, Blackie," I said, happily. "How in the
       world did you do it?"
       "Never you mind. The question is, what you goin' t'
       do with him, now you've got him? Goin' t' have a French
       bunny for him, or fetch him up by hand? Wheeling
       appointed a probation skirt to look after the crowd of
       us, and we got t' toe the mark."
       "Glory be!" I ejaculated. "I don't know what I shall
       do with him. I shall have to bring him down with me
       every morning, and perhaps you can make a sporting editor
       out of him."
       "Nix. Not with that forehead. He's a high-brow.
       We'll make him dramatic critic. In the meantime, I'll be
       little fairy godmother, an' if you'll get on your bonnet
       I'll stake you and the young 'un to strawberry shortcake
       an' chocolate ice cream."
       So it happened that a wondering Frau Knapf and a
       sympathetic Frau Nirlanger were called in for
       consultation an hour later. Bennie was ensconced in my
       room, very wide-eyed and wondering, but quite content.
       With the entrance of Frau Nirlanger the consultation was
       somewhat disturbed. She made a quick rush at him and
       gathered him in her hungry arms.
       "Du baby du!" she cried. "Du Kleiner! And she was
       down on her knees, and somehow her figure had melted into
       delicious mother-curves, with Bennie's head just fitting
       into that most gracious one between her shoulder and
       breast. She cooed to him in a babble of French and
       German and English, calling him her lee-tel Oscar.
       Bennie seemed miraculously to understand. Perhaps he was
       becoming accustomed to having strange ladies snatch him
       to their breasts.
       "So," said Frau Nirlanger, looking up at us. "Is he
       not sweet? He shall be my lee-tel boy, nicht? For one
       small year he shall be my own boy. Ach, I am but lonely
       all the long day here in this strange land. You will let
       me care for him, nicht? And Konrad, he will be very angry,
       but that shall make no bit of difference. Eh, Oscar?"
       And so the thing was settled, and an hour later three
       anxious-browed women were debating the weighty question
       of eggs or bread-and-milk for Bennie's supper. Frau
       Nirlanger was for soft-boiled eggs as being none too
       heavy after orphan asylum fare; I was for bread-and-milk,
       that being the prescribed supper dish for all the orphans
       and waifs that I had ever read about, from "The Wide,
       Wide World" to "Helen's Babies," and back again. Frau
       Knapf was for both eggs and bread-and-milk with a dash of
       meat and potatoes thrown in for good measure, and a slice
       or so of Kuchen on the side. We compromised on one egg,
       one glass of milk, and a slice of lavishly buttered
       bread, and jelly. It was a clean, sweet, sleepy-eyed
       Bennie that we tucked between the sheets. We three women
       stood looking down at him as he lay there in the quaint
       old blue-painted bed that had once held the plump little
       Knapfs.
       "You think anyway he had enough supper? mused the
       anxious-browed Frau Knapf.
       "To school he will have to go, yes?" murmured Frau
       Nirlanger, regretfully.
       I tucked in the covers at one side of the bed, not
       that they needed tucking, but because it was such a
       comfortable, satisfying thing to do.
       "Just at this minute," I said, as I tucked, "I'd
       rather be a newspaper reporter than anything else in the
       world. As a profession 'tis so broadenin', an' at the
       same time, so chancey." _