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Sister Carrie
CHAPTER XXII THE BLAZE OF THE TINDER--FLESH WARS WITH THE FLESH
Theodore Dreiser
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       _ The misfortune of the Hurstwood household was due to the fact
       that jealousy, having been born of love, did not perish with it.
       Mrs. Hurstwood retained this in such form that subsequent
       influences could transform it into hate. Hurstwood was still
       worthy, in a physical sense, of the affection his wife had once
       bestowed upon him, but in a social sense he fell short. With his
       regard died his power to be attentive to her, and this, to a
       woman, is much greater than outright crime toward another. Our
       self-love dictates our appreciation of the good or evil in
       another. In Mrs. Hurstwood it discoloured the very hue of her
       husband's indifferent nature. She saw design in deeds and
       phrases which sprung only from a faded appreciation of her
       presence.
       As a consequence, she was resentful and suspicious. The jealousy
       that prompted her to observe every falling away from the little
       amenities of the married relation on his part served to give her
       notice of the airy grace with which he still took the world. She
       could see from the scrupulous care which he exercised in the
       matter of his personal appearance that his interest in life had
       abated not a jot. Every motion, every glance had something in it
       of the pleasure he felt in Carrie, of the zest this new pursuit
       of pleasure lent to his days. Mrs. Hurstwood felt something,
       sniffing change, as animals do danger, afar off.
       This feeling was strengthened by actions of a direct and more
       potent nature on the part of Hurstwood. We have seen with what
       irritation he shirked those little duties which no longer
       contained any amusement of satisfaction for him, and the open
       snarls with which, more recently, he resented her irritating
       goads. These little rows were really precipitated by an
       atmosphere which was surcharged with dissension. That it would
       shower, with a sky so full of blackening thunderclouds, would
       scarcely be thought worthy of comment. Thus, after leaving the
       breakfast table this morning, raging inwardly at his blank
       declaration of indifference at her plans, Mrs. Hurstwood
       encountered Jessica in her dressing-room, very leisurely
       arranging her hair. Hurstwood had already left the house.
       "I wish you wouldn't be so late coming down to breakfast," she
       said, addressing Jessica, while making for her crochet basket.
       "Now here the things are quite cold, and you haven't eaten."
       Her natural composure was sadly ruffled, and Jessica was doomed
       to feel the fag end of the storm.
       "I'm not hungry," she answered.
       "Then why don't you say so, and let the girl put away the things,
       instead of keeping her waiting all morning?"
       "She doesn't mind," answered Jessica, coolly.
       "Well, I do, if she doesn't," returned the mother, "and, anyhow,
       I don't like you to talk that way to me. You're too young to put
       on such an air with your mother."
       "Oh, mamma, don't row,"; answered Jessica. "What's the matter
       this morning, anyway?"
       "Nothing's the matter, and I'm not rowing. You mustn't think
       because I indulge you in some things that you can keep everybody
       waiting. I won't have it."
       "I'm not keeping anybody waiting," returned Jessica, sharply,
       stirred out of a cynical indifference to a sharp defence. "I
       said I wasn't hungry. I don't want any breakfast."
       "Mind how you address me, missy. I'll not have it. Hear me now;
       I'll not have it!"
       Jessica heard this last while walking out of the room, with a
       toss of her head and a flick of her pretty skirts indicative of
       the independence and indifference she felt. She did not propose
       to be quarrelled with.
       Such little arguments were all too frequent, the result of a
       growth of natures which were largely independent and selfish.
       George, Jr., manifested even greater touchiness and exaggeration
       in the matter of his individual rights, and attempted to make all
       feel that he was a man with a man's privileges--an assumption
       which, of all things, is most groundless and pointless in a youth
       of nineteen.
       Hurstwood was a man of authority and some fine feeling, and it
       irritated him excessively to find himself surrounded more and
       more by a world upon which he had no hold, and of which he had a
       lessening understanding.
       Now, when such little things, such as the proposed earlier start
       to Waukesha, came up, they made clear to him his position. He
       was being made to follow, was not leading. When, in addition, a
       sharp temper was manifested, and to the process of shouldering
       him out of his authority was added a rousing intellectual kick,
       such as a sneer or a cynical laugh, he was unable to keep his
       temper. He flew into hardly repressed passion, and wished
       himself clear of the whole household. It seemed a most
       irritating drag upon all his desires and opportunities.
       For all this, he still retained the semblance of leadership and
       control, even though his wife was straining to revolt. Her
       display of temper and open assertion of opposition were based
       upon nothing more than the feeling that she could do it. She had
       no special evidence wherewith to justify herself--the knowledge
       of something which would give her both authority and excuse. The
       latter was all that was lacking, however, to give a solid
       foundation to what, in a way, seemed groundless discontent. The
       clear proof of one overt deed was the cold breath needed to
       convert the lowering clouds of suspicion into a rain of wrath.
       An inkling of untoward deeds on the part of Hurstwood had come.
       Doctor Beale, the handsome resident physician of the
       neighbourhood, met Mrs. Hurstwood at her own doorstep some days
       after Hurstwood and Carrie had taken the drive west on Washington
       Boulevard. Dr. Beale, coming east on the same drive, had
       recognised Hurstwood, but not before he was quite past him. He
       was not so sure of Carrie--did not know whether it was
       Hurstwood's wife or daughter.
       "You don't speak to your friends when you meet them out driving,
       do you?" he said, jocosely, to Mrs. Hurstwood.
       "If I see them, I do. Where was I?"
       "On Washington Boulevard." he answered, expecting her eye to
       light with immediate remembrance.
       She shook her head.
       "Yes, out near Hoyne Avenue. You were with your husband."
       "I guess you're mistaken," she answered. Then, remembering her
       husband's part in the affair, she immediately fell a prey to a
       host of young suspicions, of which, however, she gave no sign.
       "I know I saw your husband," he went on. "I wasn't so sure about
       you. Perhaps it was your daughter."
       "Perhaps it was," said Mrs. Hurstwood, knowing full well that
       such was not the case, as Jessica had been her companion for
       weeks. She had recovered herself sufficiently to wish to know
       more of the details.
       "Was it in the afternoon?" she asked, artfully, assuming an air
       of acquaintanceship with the matter.
       "Yes, about two or three."
       "It must have been Jessica," said Mrs. Hurstwood, not wishing to
       seem to attach any importance to the incident.
       The physician had a thought or two of his own, but dismissed the
       matter as worthy of no further discussion on his part at least.
       Mrs. Hurstwood gave this bit of information considerable thought
       during the next few hours, and even days. She took it for
       granted that the doctor had really seen her husband, and that he
       had been riding, most likely, with some other woman, after
       announcing himself as BUSY to her. As a consequence, she
       recalled, with rising feeling, how often he had refused to go to
       places with her, to share in little visits, or, indeed, take part
       in any of the social amenities which furnished the diversion of
       her existence. He had been seen at the theatre with people whom
       he called Moy's friends; now he was seen driving, and, most
       likely, would have an excuse for that. Perhaps there were others
       of whom she did not hear, or why should he be so busy, so
       indifferent, of late? In the last six weeks he had become
       strangely irritable--strangely satisfied to pick up and go out,
       whether things were right or wrong in the house. Why?
       She recalled, with more subtle emotions, that he did not look at
       her now with any of the old light of satisfaction or approval in
       his eye. Evidently, along with other things, he was taking her
       to be getting old and uninteresting. He saw her wrinkles,
       perhaps. She was fading, while he was still preening himself in
       his elegance and youth. He was still an interested factor in the
       merry-makings of the world, while she--but she did not pursue the
       thought. She only found the whole situation bitter, and hated
       him for it thoroughly.
       Nothing came of this incident at the time, for the truth is it
       did not seem conclusive enough to warrant any discussion. Only
       the atmosphere of distrust and ill-feeling was strengthened,
       precipitating every now and then little sprinklings of irritable
       conversation, enlivened by flashes of wrath. The matter of the
       Waukesha outing was merely a continuation of other things of the
       same nature.
       The day after Carrie's appearance on the Avery stage, Mrs.
       Hurstwood visited the races with Jessica and a youth of her
       acquaintance, Mr. Bart Taylor, the son of the owner of a local
       house-furnishing establishment. They had driven out early, and,
       as it chanced, encountered several friends of Hurstwood, all
       Elks, and two of whom had attended the performance the evening
       before. A thousand chances the subject of the performance had
       never been brought up had Jessica not been so engaged by the
       attentions of her young companion, who usurped as much time as
       possible. This left Mrs. Hurstwood in the mood to extend the
       perfunctory greetings of some who knew her into short
       conversations, and the short conversations of friends into long
       ones. It was from one who meant but to greet her perfunctorily
       that this interesting intelligence came.
       "I see," said this individual, who wore sporting clothes of the
       most attractive pattern, and had a field-glass strung over his
       shoulder, "that you did not get over to our little entertainment
       last evening."
       "No?" said Mrs. Hurstwood, inquiringly, and wondering why he
       should be using the tone he did in noting the fact that she had
       not been to something she knew nothing about. It was on her lips
       to say, "What was it?" when he added, "I saw your husband."
       Her wonder was at once replaced by the more subtle quality of
       suspicion.
       "Yes," she said, cautiously, "was it pleasant? He did not tell me
       much about it."
       "Very. Really one of the best private theatricals I ever
       attended. There was one actress who surprised us all."
       "Indeed," said Mrs. Hurstwood.
       "It's too bad you couldn't have been there, really. I was sorry
       to hear you weren't feeling well."
       Feeling well! Mrs. Hurstwood could have echoed the words after
       him open-mouthed. As it was, she extricated herself from her
       mingled impulse to deny and question, and said, almost raspingly:
       "Yes, it is too bad."
       "Looks like there will be quite a crowd here to-day, doesn't it?"
       the acquaintance observed, drifting off upon another topic.
       The manager's wife would have questioned farther, but she saw no
       opportunity. She was for the moment wholly at sea, anxious to
       think for herself, and wondering what new deception was this
       which caused him to give out that she was ill when she was not.
       Another case of her company not wanted, and excuses being made.
       She resolved to find out more.
       "Were you at the performance last evening?" she asked of the next
       of Hurstwood's friends who greeted her as she sat in her box.
       "Yes. You didn't get around."
       "No," she answered, "I was not feeling very well."
       "So your husband told me," he answered. "Well, it was really
       very enjoyable. Turned out much better than I expected."
       "Were there many there?"
       "The house was full. It was quite an Elk night. I saw quite a
       number of your friends--Mrs. Harrison, Mrs. Barnes, Mrs.
       Collins."
       "Quite a social gathering."
       "Indeed it was. My wife enjoyed it very much."
       Mrs. Hurstwood bit her lip.
       "So," she thought, "that's the way he does. Tells my friends I
       am sick and cannot come."
       She wondered what could induce him to go alone. There was
       something back of this. She rummaged her brain for a reason.
       By evening, when Hurstwood reached home, she had brooded herself
       into a state of sullen desire for explanation and revenge. She
       wanted to know what this peculiar action of his imported. She
       was certain there was more behind it all than what she had heard,
       and evil curiosity mingled well with distrust and the remnants of
       her wrath of the morning. She, impending disaster itself, walked
       about with gathered shadow at the eyes and the rudimentary
       muscles of savagery fixing the hard lines of her mouth.
       On the other hand, as we may well believe, the manager came home
       in the sunniest mood. His conversation and agreement with Carrie
       had raised his spirits until he was in the frame of mind of one
       who sings joyously. He was proud of himself, proud of his
       success, proud of Carrie. He could have been genial to all the
       world, and he bore no grudge against his wife. He meant to be
       pleasant, to forget her presence, to live in the atmosphere of
       youth and pleasure which had been restored to him.
       So now, the house, to his mind, had a most pleasing and
       comfortable appearance. In the hall he found an evening paper,
       laid there by the maid and forgotten by Mrs. Hurstwood. In the
       dining-room the table was clean laid with linen and napery and
       shiny with glasses and decorated china. Through an open door he
       saw into the kitchen, where the fire was crackling in the stove
       and the evening meal already well under way. Out in the small
       back yard was George, Jr., frolicking with a young dog he had
       recently purchased, and in the parlour Jessica was playing at the
       piano, the sounds of a merry waltz filling every nook and corner
       of the comfortable home. Every one, like himself, seemed to have
       regained his good spirits, to be in sympathy with youth and
       beauty, to be inclined to joy and merry-making. He felt as if he
       could say a good word all around himself, and took a most genial
       glance at the spread table and polished sideboard before going
       upstairs to read his paper in the comfortable armchair of the
       sitting-room which looked through the open windows into the
       street. When he entered there, however, he found his wife
       brushing her hair and musing to herself the while.
       He came lightly in, thinking to smooth over any feeling that
       might still exist by a kindly word and a ready promise, but Mrs.
       Hurstwood said nothing. He seated himself in the large chair,
       stirred lightly in making himself comfortable, opened his paper,
       and began to read. In a few moments he was smiling merrily over
       a very comical account of a baseball game which had taken place
       between the Chicago and Detroit teams.
       The while he was doing this Mrs. Hurstwood was observing him
       casually through the medium of the mirror which was before her.
       She noticed his pleasant and contented manner, his airy grace and
       smiling humour, and it merely aggravated her the more. She
       wondered how he could think to carry himself so in her presence
       after the cynicism, indifference, and neglect he had heretofore
       manifested and would continue to manifest so long as she would
       endure it. She thought how she should like to tell him--what
       stress and emphasis she would lend her assertions, how she should
       drive over this whole affair until satisfaction should be
       rendered her. Indeed, the shining sword of her wrath was but
       weakly suspended by a thread of thought.
       In the meanwhile Hurstwood encountered a humorous item concerning
       a stranger who had arrived in the city and became entangled with
       a bunco-steerer. It amused him immensely, and at last he stirred
       and chuckled to himself. He wished that he might enlist his
       wife's attention and read it to her.
       "Ha, ha," he exclaimed softly, as if to himself, "that's funny."
       Mrs. Hurstwood kept on arranging her hair, not so much as
       deigning a glance.
       He stirred again and went on to another subject. At last he felt
       as if his good-humour must find some outlet. Julia was probably
       still out of humour over that affair of this morning, but that
       could easily be straightened. As a matter of fact, she was in
       the wrong, but he didn't care. She could go to Waukesha right
       away if she wanted to. The sooner the better. He would tell her
       that as soon as he got a chance, and the whole thing would blow
       over.
       "Did you notice," he said, at last, breaking forth concerning
       another item which he had found, "that they have entered suit to
       compel the Illinois Central to get off the lake front, Julia?" he
       asked.
       She could scarcely force herself to answer, but managed to say
       "No," sharply.
       Hurstwood pricked up his ears. There was a note in her voice
       which vibrated keenly.
       "It would be a good thing if they did," he went on, half to
       himself, half to her, though he felt that something was amiss in
       that quarter. He withdrew his attention to his paper very
       circumspectly, listening mentally for the little sounds which
       should show him what was on foot.
       As a matter of fact, no man as clever as Hurstwood--as observant
       and sensitive to atmospheres of many sorts, particularly upon his
       own plane of thought--would have made the mistake which he did in
       regard to his wife, wrought up as she was, had he not been
       occupied mentally with a very different train of thought. Had
       not the influence of Carrie's regard for him, the elation which
       her promise aroused in him, lasted over, he would not have seen
       the house in so pleasant a mood. It was not extraordinarily
       bright and merry this evening. He was merely very much mistaken,
       and would have been much more fitted to cope with it had he come
       home in his normal state.
       After he had studied his paper a few moments longer, he felt that
       he ought to modify matters in some way or other. Evidently his
       wife was not going to patch up peace at a word. So he said:
       "Where did George get the dog he has there in the yard?"
       "I don't know," she snapped.
       He put his paper down on his knees and gazed idly out of the
       window. He did not propose to lose his temper, but merely to be
       persistent and agreeable, and by a few questions bring around a
       mild understanding of some sort.
       "Why do you feel so bad about that affair of this morning? he
       said, at last. "We needn't quarrel about that. You know you can
       go to Waukesha if you want to."
       "So you can stay here and trifle around with some one else?" she
       exclaimed, turning to him a determined countenance upon which was
       drawn a sharp and wrathful sneer.
       He stopped as if slapped in the face. In an instant his
       persuasive, conciliatory manner fled. He was on the defensive at
       a wink and puzzled for a word to reply.
       "What do you mean?" he said at last, straightening himself and
       gazing at the cold, determined figure before him, who paid no
       attention, but went on arranging herself before the mirror.
       "You know what I mean," she said, finally, as if there were a
       world of information which she held in reserve--which she did not
       need to tell.
       "Well, I don't," he said, stubbornly, yet nervous and alert for
       what should come next. The finality of the woman's manner took
       away his feeling of superiority in battle.
       She made no answer.
       "Hmph!" he murmured, with a movement of his head to one side. It
       was the weakest thing he had ever done. It was totally
       unassured.
       Mrs. Hurstwood noticed the lack of colour in it. She turned upon
       him, animal-like, able to strike an effectual second blow.
       "I want the Waukesha money to-morrow morning," she said.
       He looked at her in amazement. Never before had he seen such a
       cold, steely determination in her eye--such a cruel look of
       indifference. She seemed a thorough master of her mood--
       thoroughly confident and determined to wrest all control from
       him. He felt that all his resources could not defend him. He
       must attack.
       "What do you mean?" he said, jumping up. "You want! I'd like to
       know what's got into you to-night."
       "Nothing's GOT into me," she said, flaming. "I want that money.
       You can do your swaggering afterwards."
       "Swaggering, eh! What! You'll get nothing from me. What do you
       mean by your insinuations, anyhow?"
       "Where were you last night?" she answered. The words were hot as
       they came. "Who were you driving with on Washington Boulevard?
       Who were you with at the theatre when George saw you? Do you
       think I'm a fool to be duped by you? Do you think I'll sit at
       home here and take your 'too busys' and 'can't come,' while you
       parade around and make out that I'm unable to come? I want you to
       know that lordly airs have come to an end so far as I am
       concerned. You can't dictate to me nor my children. I'm through
       with you entirely."
       "It's a lie," he said, driven to a corner and knowing no other
       excuse.
       "Lie, eh!" she said, fiercely, but with returning reserve; "you
       may call it a lie if you want to, but I know."
       "It's a lie, I tell you," he said, in a low, sharp voice.
       "You've been searching around for some cheap accusation for
       months and now you think you have it. You think you'll spring
       something and get the upper hand. Well, I tell you, you can't.
       As long as I'm in this house I'm master of it, and you or any one
       else won't dictate to me--do you hear?"
       He crept toward her with a light in his eye that was ominous.
       Something in the woman's cool, cynical, upper-handish manner, as
       if she were already master, caused him to feel for the moment as
       if he could strangle her.
       She gazed at him--a pythoness in humour.
       "I'm not dictating to you," she returned; "I'm telling you what I
       want."
       The answer was so cool, so rich in bravado, that somehow it took
       the wind out of his sails. He could not attack her, he could not
       ask her for proofs. Somehow he felt evidence, law, the
       remembrance of all his property which she held in her name, to be
       shining in her glance. He was like a vessel, powerful and
       dangerous, but rolling and floundering without sail.
       "And I'm telling you," he said in the end, slightly recovering
       himself, "what you'll not get."
       "We'll see about it," she said. "I'll find out what my rights
       are. Perhaps you'll talk to a lawyer, if you won't to me."
       It was a magnificent play, and had its effect. Hurstwood fell
       back beaten. He knew now that he had more than mere bluff to
       contend with. He felt that he was face to face with a dull
       proposition. What to say he hardly knew. All the merriment had
       gone out of the day. He was disturbed, wretched, resentful.
       What should he do?
       "Do as you please," he said, at last. "I'll have nothing more to
       do with you," and out he strode. _
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Chapter I THE MAGNET ATTRACTING--A WAIF AMID FORCES
CHAPTER II WHAT POVERTY THREATENED--OF GRANITE AND BRASS
CHAPTER III WEE QUESTION OF FORTUNE--FOUR-FIFTY A WEEK
CHAPTER IV THE SPENDINGS OF FANCY--FACTS ANSWER WITH SNEERS
CHAPTER V A GLITTERING NIGHT FLOWER--THE USE OF A NAME
CHAPTER VI THE MACHINE AND THE MAIDEN--A KNIGHT OF TO-DAY
CHAPTER VII THE LURE OF THE MATERIAL--BEAUTY SPEAKS FOR ITSELF
CHAPTER VIII INTIMATIONS BY WINTER--AN AMBASSADOR SUMMONED
CHAPTER IX CONVENTION'S OWN TINDER-BOX--THE EYE THAT IS GREEN
CHAPTER X THE COUNSEL OF WINTER--FORTUNE'S AMBASSADOR CALLS
CHAPTER XI THE PERSUASION OF FASHION--FEELING GUARDS O'ER ITS OWN
CHAPTER XII OF THE LAMPS OF THE MANSIONS--THE AMBASSADOR PLEA
CHAPTER XIII HIS CREDENTIALS ACCEPTED--A BABEL OF TONGUES
CHAPTER XIV WITH EYES AND NOT SEEING--ONE INFLUENCE WANES
CHAPTER XV THE IRK OF THE OLD TIES--THE MAGIC OF YOUTH
CHAPTER XVI A WITLESS ALADDIN--THE GATE TO THE WORLD
CHAPTER XVII A GLIMPSE THROUGH THE GATEWAY--HOPE LIGHTENS THE EYE
CHAPTER XVIII JUST OVER THE BORDER--A HAIL AND FAREWELL
CHAPTER XIX AN HOUR IN ELFLAND--A CLAMOUR HALF HEARD
CHAPTER XX THE LURE OF THE SPIRIT--THE FLESH IN PURSUIT
CHAPTER XXI THE LURE OF THE SPIRIT--THE FLESH IN PURSUIT
CHAPTER XXII THE BLAZE OF THE TINDER--FLESH WARS WITH THE FLESH
CHAPTER XXIII A SPIRIT IN TRAVAIL--ONE RUNG PUT BEHIND
CHAPTER XXIV ASHES OF TINDER--A FACE AT THE WINDOW
CHAPTER XXV ASHES OF TINDER--THE LOOSING OF STAYS
CHAPTER XXVI THE AMBASSADOR FALLEN--A SEARCH FOR THE GATE
CHAPTER XXVII WHEN WATERS ENGULF US WE REACH FOR A STAR
CHAPTER XXVIII A PILGRIM, AN OUTLAW--THE SPIRIT DETAINED
CHAPTER XXIX THE SOLACE OF TRAVEL--THE BOATS OF THE SEA
CHAPTER XXX THE KINGDOM OF GREATNESS--THE PILGRIM A DREAM
CHAPTER XXXI A PET OF GOOD FORTUNE--BROADWAY FLAUNTS ITS JOYS
CHAPTER XXXII THE FEAST OF BELSHAZZAR--A SEER TO TRANSLATE
CHAPTER XXXIII WITHOUT THE WALLED CITY--THE SLOPE OF THE YEARS
CHAPTER XXXIV THE GRIND OF THE MILLSTONES--A SAMPLE OF CHAFF
CHAPTER XXXV THE PASSING OF EFFORT--THE VISAGE OF CARE
CHAPTER XXXVI A GRIM RETROGRESSION--THE PHANTOM OF CHANCE
CHAPTER XXXVII THE SPIRIT AWAKENS--NEW SEARCH FOR THE GATE
CHAPTER XXXVIII IN ELF LAND DISPORTING--THE GRIM WORLD WITHOUT
CHAPTER XXXIX OF LIGHTS AND OF SHADOWS--THE PARTING OF WORLDS
CHAPTER XL A PUBLIC DISSENSION--A FINAL APPEAL
CHAPTER XLI THE STRIKE
CHAPTER XLII A TOUCH OF SPRING--THE EMPTY SHELL
CHAPTER XLIII THE WORLD TURNS FLATTERER--AN EYE IN THE DARK
CHAPTER XLIV AND THIS IS NOT ELF LAND--WHAT GOLD WILL NOT BUY
CHAPTER XLV CURIOUS SHIFTS OF THE POOR
CHAPTER XLVI STIRRING TROUBLED WATERS
CHAPTER XLVII THE WAY OF THE BEATEN--A HARP IN THE WIND