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Sister Carrie
CHAPTER XIV WITH EYES AND NOT SEEING--ONE INFLUENCE WANES
Theodore Dreiser
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       _ Carrie in her rooms that evening was in a fine glow, physically
       and mentally. She was deeply rejoicing in her affection for
       Hurstwood and his love, and looked forward with fine fancy to
       their next meeting Sunday night. They had agreed, without any
       feeling of enforced secrecy, that she should come down town and
       meet him, though, after all, the need of it was the cause.
       Mrs. Hale, from her upper window, saw her come in.
       "Um," she thought to herself, "she goes riding with another man
       when her husband is out of the city. He had better keep an eye
       on her."
       The truth is that Mrs. Hale was not the only one who had a
       thought on this score. The housemaid who had welcomed Hurstwood
       had her opinion also. She had no particular regard for Carrie,
       whom she took to be cold and disagreeable. At the same time, she
       had a fancy for the merry and easy-mannered Drouet, who threw her
       a pleasant remark now and then, and in other ways extended her
       the evidence of that regard which he had for all members of the
       sex. Hurstwood was more reserved and critical in his manner. He
       did not appeal to this bodiced functionary in the same pleasant
       way. She wondered that he came so frequently, that Mrs. Drouet
       should go out with him this afternoon when Mr. Drouet was absent.
       She gave vent to her opinions in the kitchen where the cook was.
       As a result, a hum of gossip was set going which moved about the
       house in that secret manner common to gossip.
       Carrie, now that she had yielded sufficiently to Hurstwood to
       confess her affection, no longer troubled about her attitude
       towards him. Temporarily she gave little thought to Drouet,
       thinking only of the dignity and grace of her lover and of his
       consuming affection for her. On the first evening, she did
       little but go over the details of the afternoon. It was the
       first time her sympathies had ever been thoroughly aroused, and
       they threw a new light on her character. She had some power of
       initiative, latent before, which now began to exert itself. She
       looked more practically upon her state and began to see
       glimmerings of a way out. Hurstwood seemed a drag in the
       direction of honour. Her feelings were exceedingly creditable,
       in that they constructed out of these recent developments
       something which conquered freedom from dishonour. She had no
       idea what Hurstwood's next word would be. She only took his
       affection to be a fine thing, and appended better, more generous
       results accordingly.
       As yet, Hurstwood had only a thought of pleasure without
       responsibility. He did not feel that he was doing anything to
       complicate his life. His position was secure, his home-life, if
       not satisfactory, was at least undisturbed, his personal liberty
       rather untrammelled. Carrie's love represented only so much
       added pleasure. He would enjoy this new gift over and above his
       ordinary allowance of pleasure. He would be happy with her and
       his own affairs would go on as they had, undisturbed.
       On Sunday evening Carrie dined with him at a place he had
       selected in East Adams Street, and thereafter they took a cab to
       what was then a pleasant evening resort out on Cottage Grove
       Avenue near 39th Street. In the process of his declaration he
       soon realised that Carrie took his love upon a higher basis than
       he had anticipated. She kept him at a distance in a rather
       earnest way, and submitted only to those tender tokens of
       affection which better become the inexperienced lover. Hurstwood
       saw that she was not to be possessed for the asking, and deferred
       pressing his suit too warmly.
       Since he feigned to believe in her married state he found that he
       had to carry out the part. His triumph, he saw, was still at a
       little distance. How far he could not guess.
       They were returning to Ogden Place in the cab, when he asked:
       "When will I see you again?"
       "I don't know," she answered, wondering herself.
       "Why not come down to The Fair," he suggested, "next Tuesday?"
       She shook her head.
       "Not so soon," she answered.
       "I'll tell you what I'll do," he added. "I'll write you, care of
       this West Side Post-office. Could you call next Tuesday?"
       Carrie assented.
       The cab stopped one door out of the way according to his call.
       "Good-night," he whispered, as the cab rolled away.
       Unfortunately for the smooth progression of this affair, Drouet
       returned. Hurstwood was sitting in his imposing little office
       the next afternoon when he saw Drouet enter.
       "Why, hello, Charles," he called affably; "back again?"
       "Yes," smiled Drouet, approaching and looking in at the door.
       Hurstwood arose.
       "Well," he said, looking the drummer over, "rosy as ever, eh?"
       They began talking of the people they knew and things that had
       happened.
       "Been home yet?" finally asked Hurstwood.
       "No, I am going, though," said Drouet.
       "I remembered the little girl out there," said Hurstwood, "and
       called once. Thought you wouldn't want her left quite alone."
       "Right you are," agreed Drouet. "How is she?"
       "Very well," said Hurstwood. "Rather anxious about you though.
       You'd better go out now and cheer her up."
       "I will," said Drouet, smilingly.
       "Like to have you both come down and go to the show with me
       Wednesday," concluded Hurstwood at parting.
       "Thanks, old man," said his friend, "I'll see what the girl says
       and let you know."
       They separated in the most cordial manner.
       "There's a nice fellow," Drouet thought to himself as he turned
       the corner towards Madison.
       "Drouet is a good fellow," Hurstwood thought to himself as he
       went back into his office, "but he's no man for Carrie."
       The thought of the latter turned his mind into a most pleasant
       vein, and he wandered how he would get ahead of the drummer.
       When Drouet entered Carrie's presence, he caught her in his arms
       as usual, but she responded to his kiss with a tremour of
       opposition.
       "Well," he said, "I had a great trip."
       "Did you? How did you come out with that La Crosse man you were
       telling me about?"
       "Oh, fine; sold him a complete line. There was another fellow
       there, representing Burnstein, a regular hook-nosed sheeny, but
       he wasn't in it. I made him look like nothing at all."
       As he undid his collar and unfastened his studs, preparatory to
       washing his face and changing his clothes, he dilated upon his
       trip. Carrie could not help listening with amusement to his
       animated descriptions.
       "I tell you," he said, "I surprised the people at the office.
       I've sold more goods this last quarter than any other man of our
       house on the road. I sold three thousand dollars' worth in La
       Crosse."
       He plunged his face in a basin of water, and puffed and blew as
       he rubbed his neck and ears with his hands, while Carrie gazed
       upon him with mingled thoughts of recollection and present
       judgment. He was still wiping his face, when he continued:
       "I'm going to strike for a raise in June. They can afford to pay
       it, as much business as I turn in. I'll get it too, don't you
       forget."
       "I hope you do," said Carrie.
       "And then if that little real estate deal I've got on goes
       through, we'll get married," he said with a great show of
       earnestness, the while he took his place before the mirror and
       began brushing his hair.
       "I don't believe you ever intend to marry me, Charlie," Carrie
       said ruefully. The recent protestations of Hurstwood had given
       her courage to say this.
       "Oh, yes I do--course I do--what put that into your head?"
       He had stopped his trifling before the mirror now and crossed
       over to her. For the first time Carrie felt as if she must move
       away from him.
       "But you've been saying that so long," she said, looking with her
       pretty face upturned into his.
       "Well, and I mean it too, but it takes money to live as I want
       to. Now, when I get this increase, I can come pretty near fixing
       things all right, and I'll do it. Now, don't you worry, girlie."
       He patted her reassuringly upon the shoulder, but Carrie felt how
       really futile had been her hopes. She could clearly see that
       this easy-going soul intended no move in her behalf. He was
       simply letting things drift because he preferred the free round
       of his present state to any legal trammellings.
       In contrast, Hurstwood appeared strong and sincere. He had no
       easy manner of putting her off. He sympathised with her and
       showed her what her true value was. He needed her, while Drouet
       did not care.
       "Oh, no," she said remorsefully, her tone reflecting some of her
       own success and more of her helplessness, "you never will."
       "Well, you wait a little while and see," he concluded. "I'll
       marry you all right."
       Carrie looked at him and felt justified. She was looking for
       something which would calm her conscience, and here it was, a
       light, airy disregard of her claims upon his justice. He had
       faithfully promised to marry her, and this was the way he
       fulfilled his promise.
       "Say," he said, after he had, as he thought, pleasantly disposed
       of the marriage question, "I saw Hurstwood to-day, and he wants
       us to go to the theatre with him."
       Carrie started at the name, but recovered quickly enough to avoid
       notice.
       "When?" she asked, with assumed indifference.
       "Wednesday. We'll go, won't we?"
       "If you think so," she answered, her manner being so enforcedly
       reserved as to almost excite suspicion. Drouet noticed something
       but he thought it was due to her feelings concerning their talk
       about marriage.
       "He called once, he said."
       "Yes," said Carrie, "he was out here Sunday evening."
       "Was he?" said Drouet. "I thought from what he said that he had
       called a week or so ago."
       "So he did," answered Carrie, who was wholly unaware of what
       conversation her lovers might have held. She was all at sea
       mentally, and fearful of some entanglement which might ensue from
       what she would answer.
       "Oh, then he called twice?" said Drouet, the first shade of
       misunderstanding showing in his face.
       "Yes," said Carrie innocently, feeling now that Hurstwood must
       have mentioned but one call.
       Drouet imagined that he must have misunderstood his friend. He
       did not attach particular importance to the information, after
       all.
       "What did he have to say?" he queried, with slightly increased
       curiosity.
       "He said he came because he thought I might be lonely. You
       hadn't been in there so long he wondered what had become of you."
       "George is a fine fellow," said Drouet, rather gratified by his
       conception of the manager's interest. "Come on and we'll go out
       to dinner."
       When Hurstwood saw that Drouet was back he wrote at once to
       Carrie, saying:
       "I told him I called on you, dearest, when he was away. I did
       not say how often, but he probably thought once. Let me know of
       anything you may have said. Answer by special messenger when you
       get this, and, darling, I must see you. Let me know if you can't
       meet me at Jackson and Throop Streets Wednesday afternoon at two
       o'clock. I want to speak with you before we meet at the
       theatre."
       Carrie received this Tuesday morning when she called at the West
       Side branch of the post-office, and answered at once.
       "I said you called twice," she wrote. "He didn't seem to mind.
       I will try and be at Throop Street if nothing interferes. I seem
       to be getting very bad. It's wrong to act as I do, I know."
       Hurstwood, when he met her as agreed, reassured her on this
       score.
       "You mustn't worry, sweetheart," he said. "Just as soon as he
       goes on the road again we will arrange something. We'll fix it
       so that you won't have to deceive any one."
       Carrie imagined that he would marry her at once, though he had
       not directly said so, and her spirits rose. She proposed to make
       the best of the situation until Drouet left again.
       "Don't show any more interest in me than you ever have,"
       Hurstwood counselled concerning the evening at the theatre.
       "You mustn't look at me steadily then," she answered, mindful of
       the power of his eyes.
       "I won't," he said, squeezing her hand at parting and giving the
       glance she had just cautioned against.
       "There," she said playfully, pointing a finger at him.
       "The show hasn't begun yet," he returned.
       He watched her walk from him with tender solicitation. Such
       youth and prettiness reacted upon him more subtly than wine.
       At the theatre things passed as they had in Hurstwood's favour.
       If he had been pleasing to Carrie before, how much more so was he
       now. His grace was more permeating because it found a readier
       medium. Carrie watched his every movement with pleasure. She
       almost forgot poor Drouet, who babbled on as if he were the host.
       Hurstwood was too clever to give the slightest indication of a
       change. He paid, if anything, more attention to his old friend
       than usual, and yet in no way held him up to that subtle ridicule
       which a lover in favour may so secretly practise before the
       mistress of his heart. If anything, he felt the injustice of the
       game as it stood, and was not cheap enough to add to it the
       slightest mental taunt.
       Only the play produced an ironical situation, and this was due to
       Drouet alone.
       The scene was one in "The Covenant," in which the wife listened
       to the seductive voice of a lover in the absence of her husband.
       "Served him right," said Drouet afterward, even in view of her
       keen expiation of her error. "I haven't any pity for a man who
       would be such a chump as that."
       "Well, you never can tell," returned Hurstwood gently. "He
       probably thought he was right."
       "Well, a man ought to be more attentive than that to his wife if
       he wants to keep her."
       They had come out of the lobby and made their way through the
       showy crush about the entrance way.
       "Say, mister," said a voice at Hurstwood's side, "would you mind
       giving me the price of a bed?"
       Hurstwood was interestedly remarking to Carrie.
       "Honest to God, mister, I'm without a place to sleep."
       The plea was that of a gaunt-faced man of about thirty, who
       looked the picture of privation and wretchedness. Drouet was the
       first to see. He handed over a dime with an upwelling feeling of
       pity in his heart. Hurstwood scarcely noticed the incident.
       Carrie quickly forgot. _
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Chapter I THE MAGNET ATTRACTING--A WAIF AMID FORCES
CHAPTER II WHAT POVERTY THREATENED--OF GRANITE AND BRASS
CHAPTER III WEE QUESTION OF FORTUNE--FOUR-FIFTY A WEEK
CHAPTER IV THE SPENDINGS OF FANCY--FACTS ANSWER WITH SNEERS
CHAPTER V A GLITTERING NIGHT FLOWER--THE USE OF A NAME
CHAPTER VI THE MACHINE AND THE MAIDEN--A KNIGHT OF TO-DAY
CHAPTER VII THE LURE OF THE MATERIAL--BEAUTY SPEAKS FOR ITSELF
CHAPTER VIII INTIMATIONS BY WINTER--AN AMBASSADOR SUMMONED
CHAPTER IX CONVENTION'S OWN TINDER-BOX--THE EYE THAT IS GREEN
CHAPTER X THE COUNSEL OF WINTER--FORTUNE'S AMBASSADOR CALLS
CHAPTER XI THE PERSUASION OF FASHION--FEELING GUARDS O'ER ITS OWN
CHAPTER XII OF THE LAMPS OF THE MANSIONS--THE AMBASSADOR PLEA
CHAPTER XIII HIS CREDENTIALS ACCEPTED--A BABEL OF TONGUES
CHAPTER XIV WITH EYES AND NOT SEEING--ONE INFLUENCE WANES
CHAPTER XV THE IRK OF THE OLD TIES--THE MAGIC OF YOUTH
CHAPTER XVI A WITLESS ALADDIN--THE GATE TO THE WORLD
CHAPTER XVII A GLIMPSE THROUGH THE GATEWAY--HOPE LIGHTENS THE EYE
CHAPTER XVIII JUST OVER THE BORDER--A HAIL AND FAREWELL
CHAPTER XIX AN HOUR IN ELFLAND--A CLAMOUR HALF HEARD
CHAPTER XX THE LURE OF THE SPIRIT--THE FLESH IN PURSUIT
CHAPTER XXI THE LURE OF THE SPIRIT--THE FLESH IN PURSUIT
CHAPTER XXII THE BLAZE OF THE TINDER--FLESH WARS WITH THE FLESH
CHAPTER XXIII A SPIRIT IN TRAVAIL--ONE RUNG PUT BEHIND
CHAPTER XXIV ASHES OF TINDER--A FACE AT THE WINDOW
CHAPTER XXV ASHES OF TINDER--THE LOOSING OF STAYS
CHAPTER XXVI THE AMBASSADOR FALLEN--A SEARCH FOR THE GATE
CHAPTER XXVII WHEN WATERS ENGULF US WE REACH FOR A STAR
CHAPTER XXVIII A PILGRIM, AN OUTLAW--THE SPIRIT DETAINED
CHAPTER XXIX THE SOLACE OF TRAVEL--THE BOATS OF THE SEA
CHAPTER XXX THE KINGDOM OF GREATNESS--THE PILGRIM A DREAM
CHAPTER XXXI A PET OF GOOD FORTUNE--BROADWAY FLAUNTS ITS JOYS
CHAPTER XXXII THE FEAST OF BELSHAZZAR--A SEER TO TRANSLATE
CHAPTER XXXIII WITHOUT THE WALLED CITY--THE SLOPE OF THE YEARS
CHAPTER XXXIV THE GRIND OF THE MILLSTONES--A SAMPLE OF CHAFF
CHAPTER XXXV THE PASSING OF EFFORT--THE VISAGE OF CARE
CHAPTER XXXVI A GRIM RETROGRESSION--THE PHANTOM OF CHANCE
CHAPTER XXXVII THE SPIRIT AWAKENS--NEW SEARCH FOR THE GATE
CHAPTER XXXVIII IN ELF LAND DISPORTING--THE GRIM WORLD WITHOUT
CHAPTER XXXIX OF LIGHTS AND OF SHADOWS--THE PARTING OF WORLDS
CHAPTER XL A PUBLIC DISSENSION--A FINAL APPEAL
CHAPTER XLI THE STRIKE
CHAPTER XLII A TOUCH OF SPRING--THE EMPTY SHELL
CHAPTER XLIII THE WORLD TURNS FLATTERER--AN EYE IN THE DARK
CHAPTER XLIV AND THIS IS NOT ELF LAND--WHAT GOLD WILL NOT BUY
CHAPTER XLV CURIOUS SHIFTS OF THE POOR
CHAPTER XLVI STIRRING TROUBLED WATERS
CHAPTER XLVII THE WAY OF THE BEATEN--A HARP IN THE WIND