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Fanny Herself
CHAPTER 14
Edna Ferber
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       _ Fanny Brandeis' blouses showed real Cluny now, and her hats
       were nothing but line. A scant two years before she had
       wondered if she would ever reach a pinnacle of success lofty
       enough to enable her to wear blue tailor suits as smart as
       the well-cut garments worn by her mother's friend, Mrs. Emma
       McChesney. Mrs. McChesney's trig little suits had cost
       fifty dollars, and had looked sixty. Fanny's now cost one
       hundred and twenty-five, and looked one hundred and twenty-
       five. Her sleeves alone gave it away. If you would test
       the soul of a tailor you have only to glance at shoulder-
       seam, elbow and wrist. Therein lies the wizardry. Fanny's
       sleeve flowed from arm-pit to thumb-bone without a ripple.
       Also she moved from the South side to the North side, always
       a sign of prosperity or social ambition, in Chicago. Her
       new apartment was near the lake, exhilaratingly high,
       correspondingly expensive. And she was hideously lonely.
       She was earning a man-size salary now, and she was working
       like a man. A less magnificently healthy woman could not
       have stood the strain, for Fanny Brandeis was working with
       her head, not her heart. When we say heart we have come to
       mean something more than the hollow muscular structure that
       propels the blood through the veins. That, in the
       dictionary, is the primary definition. The secondary
       definition has to do with such words as emotion, sympathy,
       tenderness, courage, conviction. She was working, now, as
       Michael Fenger worked, relentlessly, coldly, indomitably,
       using all the material at hand as a means to an end, with
       never a thought of the material itself, as a
       builder reaches for a brick, or stone, and fits it into
       place, smoothly, almost without actually seeing the brick
       itself, except as something which will help to make a
       finished wall. She rarely prowled the city now. She told
       herself she was too tired at night, and on Sundays and
       holidays, and I suppose she was. Indeed, she no longer saw
       things with her former vision. It was as though her soul
       had shriveled in direct proportion to her salary's
       expansion. The streets seldom furnished her with a rich
       mental meal now. When she met a woman with a child, in the
       park, her keen eye noted the child's dress before it saw the
       child itself, if, indeed, she noticed the child at all.
       Fascinating Facts, the guileless, pink-cheeked youth who had
       driven her home the night of her first visit to the Fengers,
       shortly after her coming to Haynes-Cooper's, had proved her
       faithful slave, and she had not abused his devotion.
       Indeed, she hardly considered it that. The sex side of her
       was being repressed with the artist side. Most men found
       her curt, brisk, businesslike manner a little repellent,
       though interesting. They never made love to her, in spite
       of her undeniable attractiveness. Fascinating Facts drove
       her about in his smart little roadster and one night he
       established himself in her memory forever as the first man
       who had ever asked her to marry him. He did it haltingly,
       painfully, almost grudgingly. Fanny was frankly amazed.
       She had enjoyed going about with him. He rested and soothed
       her. He, in turn, had been stimulated by her energy, her
       humor, her electric force. Nothing was said for a minute
       after his awkward declaration.
       "But," he persisted, "you like me, don't you?"
       "Of course I do. Immensely."
       "Then why?"
       "When a woman of my sort marries it's a miracle. I'm
       twenty-six, and intelligent and very successful. A
       frightful combination. Unmarried women of my type
       aren't content just to feel. They must analyze their
       feelings. And analysis is death to romance."
       "Great Scott! You expect to marry somebody sometime, don't
       you, Fanny?"
       "No one I know now. When I do marry, if I do, it will be
       with the idea of making a definite gain. I don't mean
       necessarily worldly gain, though that would be a factor,
       too."
       Fascinating Facts had been staring straight ahead, his hands
       gripping the wheel with unnecessary rigidity. He relaxed a
       little now, and even laughed, though not very successfully.
       Then he said something very wise, for him.
       "Listen to me, girl. You'll never get away with that
       vampire stuff. Talons are things you have to be born with.
       You'll never learn to grab with these." He reached over,
       and picked up her left hand lying inertly in her lap, and
       brought it up to his lips, and kissed it, glove and all.
       "They're built on the open-face pattern--for giving. You
       can't fool me. I know."
       A year and a half after her coming to Haynes-Cooper Fanny's
       department was doing a business of a million a year. The
       need had been there. She had merely given it the impetus.
       She was working more or less directly with Fenger now, with
       an eye on every one of the departments that had to do with
       women's clothing, from shoes to hats. Not that she did any
       actual buying, or selling in these departments. She still
       confined her actual selecting of goods to the infants' wear
       section, but she occupied, unofficially, the position of
       assistant to the General Merchandise Manager. They worked
       well together, she and Fenger, their minds often marching
       along without the necessity of a single spoken word. There
       was no doubt that Fenger's mind was a marvelous piece of
       mechanism. Under it the Haynes-Cooper plant functioned with
       the clockwork regularity of a gigantic automaton. System
       and Results--these were his twin gods. With his mind
       intent on them he failed to see that new gods, born of
       spiritual unrest, were being set up in the temples of Big
       Business. Their coming had been rumored for many years.
       Words such as Brotherhood, Labor, Rights, Humanity, Hours,
       once regarded as the special property of the street corner
       ranter, were creeping into our everyday vocabulary. And
       strangely enough, Nathan Haynes, the gentle, the bewildered,
       the uninspired, heard them, and listened. Nathan Haynes had
       begun to accustom himself to the roar of the flood that had
       formerly deafened him. He was no longer stunned by the
       inrush of his millions. The report sheet handed him daily
       had never ceased to be a wildly unexpected thing, and he
       still shrank from it, sometimes. It was so fantastic, so
       out of all reason. But he even dared, now and then, to put
       out a tentative hand to guide the flood. He began to
       realize, vaguely, that Italian Gardens, and marble pools,
       educational endowments and pet charities were but poor,
       ineffectual barriers of mud and sticks, soon swept away by
       the torrent. As he sat there in his great, luxurious
       office, with the dim, rich old portraits gleaming down on
       him from the walls, he began, gropingly, to evolve a new
       plan; a plan by which the golden flood was to be curbed,
       divided, and made to form a sub-stream, to be utilized for
       the good of the many; for the good of the Ten Thousand, who
       were almost Fifteen Thousand now, with another fifteen
       thousand in mills and factories at distant points, whose
       entire output was swallowed up by the Haynes-Cooper plant.
       Michael Fenger, Super-Manager, listened to the plan, smiled
       tolerantly, and went on perfecting an already miraculous
       System. Sarah Sapinsky, at seven a week, was just so much
       untrained labor material, easily replaced by material
       exactly like it. No, Michael Fenger, with his head in the
       sand, heard no talk of new gods. He only knew that the
       monster plant under his management was yielding the
       greatest possible profit under the least possible outlay.
       In Fanny Brandeis he had found a stimulating, energizing
       fellow worker. That had been from the beginning. In the
       first month or two of her work, when her keen brain was
       darting here and there, into forgotten and neglected
       corners, ferreting out dusty scraps of business waste and
       holding them up to the light, disdainfully, Fenger had
       watched her with a mingling of amusement and a sort of fond
       pride, as one would a precocious child. As the months went
       on the pride and amusement welded into something more than
       admiration, such as one expert feels for a fellow-craftsman.
       Long before the end of the first year he knew that here was
       a woman such as he had dreamed of all his life and never
       hoped to find. He often found himself sitting at his office
       desk, or in his library at home, staring straight ahead for
       a longer time than he dared admit, his papers or book
       forgotten in his hand. His thoughts applied to her
       adjectives which proved her a paradox: Generous,
       sympathetic, warm-hearted, impulsive, imaginative; cold,
       indomitable, brilliant, daring, intuitive. He would rouse
       himself almost angrily and force himself to concentrate
       again upon the page before him. I don't know how he thought
       it all would end--he whose life-habit it was to follow out
       every process to its ultimate step, whether mental or
       mechanical. As for Fanny, there was nothing of the
       intriguant about her. She was used to admiration. She was
       accustomed to deference from men. Brandeis' Bazaar had
       insured that. All her life men had taken orders from her,
       all the way from Aloysius and the blithe traveling men of
       whom she bought goods, to the salesmen and importers in the
       Chicago wholesale houses. If they had attempted,
       occasionally, to mingle the social and personal with the
       commercial Fanny had not resented their attitude. She had
       accepted their admiration and refused their invitations
       with equal good nature, and thus retained their friendship.
       It is not exaggeration to say that she looked upon Michael
       Fenger much as she had upon these genial fellow-workers. A
       woman as straightforward and direct as she has what is known
       as a single-track mind in such matters. It is your soft and
       silken mollusc type of woman whose mind pursues a slimy and
       labyrinthine trail. But it is useless to say that she did
       not feel something of the intense personal attraction of the
       man. Often it used to puzzle and annoy her to find that as
       they sat arguing in the brisk, everyday atmosphere of office
       or merchandise room the air between them would suddenly
       become electric, vibrant. They met each other's eyes with
       effort. When their hands touched, accidentally, over papers
       or samples they snatched them back. Fanny found herself
       laughing uncertainly, at nothing, and was furious. When a
       silence fell between them they would pounce upon it,
       breathlessly, and smother it with talk.
       Do not think that any furtive love-making went on,
       sandwiched between shop talk. Their conversation might have
       taken place between two men. Indeed, they often were
       brutally frank to each other. Fanny had the vision, Fenger
       the science to apply it. Sometimes her intuition leaped
       ahead of his reasoning. Then he would say, "I'm not sold on
       that," which is modern business slang meaning, "You haven't
       convinced me." She would go back and start afresh, covering
       the ground more slowly.
       Usually her suggestions were practical and what might be
       termed human. They seemed to be founded on an uncanny
       knowledge of people's frailties. It was only when she
       touched upon his beloved System that he was adamant.
       "None of that socialistic stuff," he would say. "This isn't
       a Benevolent Association we're running. It's the biggest
       mail order business in the world, and its back-bone is
       System. I've been just fifteen years perfecting that
       System. It's my job. Hands off."
       "A fifteen year old system ought to be scrapped," Fanny
       would retort, boldly. "Anyway, the Simon Legree thing has
       gone out."
       No one in the plant had ever dared to talk to him like that.
       He would glare down at Fanny for a moment, like a mastiff on
       a terrier. Fanny, seeing his face rage-red, would flash him
       a cheerful and impudent smile. The anger, fading slowly,
       gave way to another look, so that admiration and resentment
       mingled for a moment.
       "Lucky for you you're not a man."
       "I wish I were."
       "I'm glad you're not."
       Not a very thrilling conversation for those of you who are
       seeking heartthrobs.
       In May Fanny made her first trip to Europe for the firm. It
       was a sudden plan. Instantly Theodore leaped to her mind
       and she was startled at the tumult she felt at the thought
       of seeing him and his child. The baby, a girl, was more
       than a year old. Her business, a matter of two weeks,
       perhaps, was all in Berlin and Paris, but she cabled
       Theodore that she would come to them in Munich, if only for
       a day or two. She had very little curiosity about the woman
       Theodore had married. The memory of that first photograph
       of hers, befrizzed, bejeweled, and asmirk, had never effaced
       itself. It had stamped her indelibly in Fanny's mind.
       The day before she left for New York (she sailed from there)
       she had a letter from Theodore. It was evident at once that
       he had not received her cable. He was in Russia, giving a
       series of concerts. Olga and the baby were with him. He
       would be back in Munich in June. There was some talk of
       America. When Fanny realized that she was not to see him
       she experienced a strange feeling that was a mixture of
       regret and relief. All the family love in her, a
       racial trait, had been stirred at the thought of again
       seeing that dear blond brother, the self-centered, willful,
       gifted boy who had held the little congregation rapt, there
       in the Jewish house of worship in Winnebago. But she had
       recoiled a little from the meeting with this other unknown
       person who gave concerts in Russia, who had adopted Munich
       as his home, who was the husband of this Olga person, and
       the father of a ridiculously German looking baby in a very
       German looking dress, all lace and tucks, and wearing
       bracelets on its chubby arms, and a locket round its neck.
       That was what one might expect of Olga's baby. But not of
       Theodore's. Besides, what business had that boy with a
       baby, anyway? Himself a baby.
       Fenger had arranged for her cabin, and she rather resented
       its luxury until she learned later, that it is the buyers
       who always occupy the staterooms de luxe on ocean liners.
       She learned, too, that the men in yachting caps and white
       flannels, and the women in the smartest and most subdued of
       blue serge and furs were not millionaires temporarily
       deprived of their own private seagoing craft, but buyers
       like herself, shrewd, aggressive, wise and incredibly
       endowed with savoir faire. Merely to watch one of them
       dealing with a deck steward was to know for all time the
       superiority of mind over matter.
       Most incongruously, it was Ella Monahan and Clarence Heyl
       who waved good-by to her as her ship swung clear of the
       dock. Ella was in New York on her monthly trip. Heyl had
       appeared at the hotel as Fanny was adjusting her veil and
       casting a last rather wild look around the room. Molly
       Brandeis had been the kind of woman who never misses a train
       or overlooks a hairpin. Fanny's early training had proved
       invaluable more than once in the last two years.
       Nevertheless, she was rather flustered, for her, as the
       elevator took her down to the main floor. She told
       herself it was not the contemplation of the voyage itself
       that thrilled her. It was the fact that here was another
       step definitely marking her progress.
       Heyl, looking incredibly limp, was leaning against a gaudy
       marble pillar, his eyes on the downcoming elevators. Fanny
       saw him just an instant before he saw her, and in that
       moment she found herself wondering why this boy (she felt
       years older than he) should look so fantastically out of
       place in this great, glittering, feverish hotel lobby. Just
       a shy, rather swarthy Jewish boy, who wore the right kind of
       clothes in the wrong manner--then Heyl saw her and came
       swiftly toward her.
       "Hello, Fan!"
       "Hello, Clancy!" They had not seen each other in six
       months.
       "Anybody else going down with you?"
       "No. Ella Monahan had a last-minute business appointment,
       but she promised to be at the dock, somehow, before the boat
       leaves. I'm going to be grand, and taxi all the way."
       "I've an open car, waiting."
       "But I won't have it! I can't let you do that."
       "Oh, yes you can. Don't take it so hard. That's the
       trouble with you business women. You're killing the
       gallantry of a nation. Some day one of you will get up and
       give me a seat in a subway----"
       "I'll punish you for that, Clancy. If you want the Jane
       Austen thing I'll accommodate. I'll drop my handkerchief,
       gloves, bag, flowers and fur scarf at intervals of five
       minutes all the way downtown. Then you may scramble around
       on the floor of the cab and feel like a knight."
       Fanny had long ago ceased to try to define the charm of this
       man. She always meant to be serenely dignified with him.
       She always ended by feeling very young, and, somehow,
       gloriously carefree and lighthearted. There was about him a
       naturalness, a simplicity, to which one responded in kind.
       Seated beside her he turned and regarded her with
       disconcerting scrutiny.
       "Like it?" demanded Fanny, pertly. And smoothed her veil,
       consciously.
       "No."
       "Well, for a man who looks negligee even in evening clothes
       aren't you overcritical?"
       "I'm not criticizing your clothes. Even I can see that that
       hat and suit have the repressed note that means money. And
       you're the kind of woman who looks her best in those plain
       dark things."
       "Well, then?"
       "You look like a buyer. In two more years your face will
       have that hard finish that never comes off."
       "I am a buyer."
       "You're not. You're a creator. Remember, I'm not
       belittling your job. It's a wonderful job--for Ella
       Monahan. I wish I had the gift of eloquence. I wish I had
       the right to spank you. I wish I could prove to you,
       somehow, that with your gift, and heritage, and racial right
       it's as criminal for you to be earning your thousands at
       Haynes-Cooper's as it would have been for a vestal virgin to
       desert her altar fire to stoke a furnace. Your eyes are
       bright and hard, instead of tolerant. Your mouth is losing
       its graciousness. Your whole face is beginning to be
       stamped with a look that says shrewdness and experience, and
       success."
       "I am successful. Why shouldn't I look it?"
       "Because you're a failure. I'm sick, I tell you--sick with
       disappointment in you. Jane Addams would have been a
       success in business, too. She was born with a humanity
       sense, and a value sense, and a something else that can't be
       acquired. Ida Tarbell could have managed your whole Haynes-
       Cooper plant, if she'd had to. So could a dozen other
       women I could name. You don't see any sign of what you call
       success on Jane Addams's face, do you? You wouldn't say, on
       seeing her, that here was a woman who looked as if she might
       afford hundred-dollar tailor suits and a town car. No. All
       you see in her face is the reflection of the souls of all
       the men and women she has worked to save. She has covered
       her job--the job that the Lord intended her to cover. And
       to me she is the most radiantly beautiful woman I have ever
       seen."
       Fanny sat silent. She was twisting the fingers of one hand
       in the grip of the other, as she had since childhood, when
       deeply disturbed. And suddenly she began to cry--silently,
       harrowingly, as a man cries, her shoulders shaking, her face
       buried in her furs.
       "Fanny! Fanny girl!" He was horribly disturbed and
       contrite. He patted her arm, awkwardly. She shook free of
       his hand, childishly. "Don't cry, dear. I'm sorry. It's
       just that I care so much. It's just----"
       She raised an angry, tear-stained face. "It's just that you
       have an exalted idea of your own perceptions. It's just
       that you've grown up from what they used to call a bright
       little boy to a bright young man, and you're just as
       tiresome now as you were then. I'm happy enough, except
       when I see you. I'm getting the things I starved for all
       those years. Why, I'll never get over being thrilled at the
       idea of being able to go to the theater, or to a concert,
       whenever I like. Actually whenever I want to. And to be
       able to buy a jabot, or a smart hat, or a book. You don't
       know how I wanted things, and how tired I got of never
       having them. I'm happy! I'm happy! Leave me alone!"
       "It's an awful price to pay for a hat, and a jabot, and a
       book and a theater ticket, Fan."
       Ella Monahan had taken the tube, and was standing in the
       great shed, watching arrivals with interest, long
       before they bumped over the cobblestones of Hoboken.
       The three descended to Fanny's cabin. Ella had sent
       champagne--six cosy pints in a wicker basket.
       "They say it's good for seasickness," she announced,
       cheerfully, "but it's a lie. Nothing's good for
       seasickness, except death, or dry land. But even if you do
       feel miserable--and you probably will--there's something
       about being able to lie in your berth and drink champagne
       alone, by the spoonful, that's sort of soothing."
       Heyl had fallen silent. Fanny was radiant again, and
       exclamatory over her books and flowers.
       "Of course it's my first trip," she explained, "and an event
       in my life, but I didn't suppose that anybody else would
       care. What's this? Candy? Glace fruit." She glanced
       around the luxurious little cabin, then up at Heyl,
       impudently. "I may be a coarse commercial person, Clancy,
       but I must say I like this very, very much. Sorry."
       They went up on deck. Ella, a seasoned traveler, was full
       of parting instructions. "And be sure to eat at
       Kempinski's, in Berlin. Twenty cents for lobster. And
       caviar! Big as hen's eggs, and as cheap as codfish. And
       don't forget to order mai-bowle. It tastes like
       champagne, but isn't, and it has the most delicious dwarf
       strawberries floating on top. This is just the season for
       it. You're lucky. If you tip the waiter one mark he's
       yours for life. Oh, and remember the plum compote.
       You'll be disappointed in their Wertheim's that they're
       always bragging about. After all, Field's makes 'em all
       look like country stores."
       "Wertheim's? Is that something to eat, too?"
       "No, idiot. It's their big department store." Ella turned
       to Heyl, for whom she felt mingled awe and liking. "If this
       trip of hers is successful, the firm will probably send her
       over three or four times a year. It's a wonderful chance
       for a kid like her."
       "Then I hope," said Heyl, quietly, "that this trip may be a
       failure."
       Ella smiled, uncertainly.
       "Don't laugh," said Fanny, sharply. "He means it."
       Ella, sensing an unpleasant something in which she had no
       part, covered the situation with another rush of
       conversation.
       "You'll get the jolt of your life when you come to Paris and
       find that you're expected to pay for the lunches, and all
       the cab fares, and everything, of those shrimpy little
       commissionaires. Polite little fellows, they are, in
       frock coats, and mustaches, and they just stand aside, as
       courtly as you please, while you pay for everything. Their
       house expects it. I almost passed away, the first time, but
       you get used to it. Say, imagine one of our traveling men
       letting you pay for his lunch and taxi."
       She rattled on, genially. Heyl listened with unfeigned
       delight. Ella found herself suddenly abashed before those
       clear, far-seeing eyes. "You think I'm a gabby old girl,
       don't you?"
       "I think you're a wonderful woman," said Heyl. "Very wise,
       and very kind."
       "Why--thanks," faltered Ella. "Why--thanks."
       They said their good-bys. Ella hugged Fanny warm-heartedly.
       Then she turned away, awkwardly. Heyl put his two hands on
       Fanny's shoulders and looked down at her. For a breathless
       second she thought he was about to kiss her. She was amazed
       to find herself hoping that he would. But he didn't.
       "Good-by," he said, simply. And took her hand in his steel
       grip a moment, and dropped it. And turned away. A
       messenger boy, very much out of breath, came running up to
       her, a telegram in his hand.
       "For me?" Fanny opened it, frowned, smiled. "It's from Mr.
       Fenger. Good wishes. As if all those flowers weren't
       enough."
       "Mm," said Ella. She and Heyl descended the gang-way, and
       stood at the dock's edge, looking rather foolish and
       uncertain, as people do at such times. There followed a few
       moments of scramble, of absurdly shouted last messages, of
       bells, and frantic waving of handkerchiefs. Fanny, at the
       rail, found her two among the crowd, and smiled down upon
       them, mistily. Ella was waving energetically. Heyl was
       standing quite still, looking up. The ship swung clear,
       crept away from the dock. The good-bys swelled to a roar.
       Fanny leaned far over the rail and waved too, a sob in her
       throat. Then she saw that she was waving with the hand that
       held the yellow telegram. She crumpled it in the other
       hand, and substituted her handkerchief. Heyl still stood,
       hat in hand, motionless.
       "Why don't you wave good-by?" she called, though he could
       not possibly hear. "Wave good-by!" And then the hand with
       the handkerchief went to her face, and she was weeping. I
       think it was that old drama-thrill in her, dormant for so
       long. But at that Heyl swung his hat above his head, three
       times, like a schoolboy, and, grasping Ella's plump and
       resisting arm, marched abruptly away. _