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Age of Innocence, The
CHAPTER 20
Edith Wharton
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       _ Of course we must dine with Mrs. Carfry, dearest,"
       Archer said; and his wife looked at him with an
       anxious frown across the monumental Britannia ware of
       their lodging house breakfast-table.
       In all the rainy desert of autumnal London there
       were only two people whom the Newland Archers
       knew; and these two they had sedulously avoided, in
       conformity with the old New York tradition that it was
       not "dignified" to force one's self on the notice of one's
       acquaintances in foreign countries.
       Mrs. Archer and Janey, in the course of their visits to
       Europe, had so unflinchingly lived up to this principle,
       and met the friendly advances of their fellow-travellers
       with an air of such impenetrable reserve, that they had
       almost achieved the record of never having exchanged
       a word with a "foreigner" other than those employed
       in hotels and railway-stations. Their own compatriots--
       save those previously known or properly accredited--
       they treated with an even more pronounced disdain; so
       that, unless they ran across a Chivers, a Dagonet or a
       Mingott, their months abroad were spent in an unbroken
       tete-a-tete. But the utmost precautions are sometimes
       unavailing; and one night at Botzen one of the
       two English ladies in the room across the passage (whose
       names, dress and social situation were already intimately
       known to Janey) had knocked on the door and
       asked if Mrs. Archer had a bottle of liniment. The
       other lady--the intruder's sister, Mrs. Carfry--had been
       seized with a sudden attack of bronchitis; and Mrs.
       Archer, who never travelled without a complete family
       pharmacy, was fortunately able to produce the required
       remedy.
       Mrs. Carfry was very ill, and as she and her sister
       Miss Harle were travelling alone they were profoundly
       grateful to the Archer ladies, who supplied them with
       ingenious comforts and whose efficient maid helped to
       nurse the invalid back to health.
       When the Archers left Botzen they had no idea of
       ever seeing Mrs. Carfry and Miss Harle again. Nothing,
       to Mrs. Archer's mind, would have been more
       "undignified" than to force one's self on the notice of a
       "foreigner" to whom one had happened to render an
       accidental service. But Mrs. Carfry and her sister, to
       whom this point of view was unknown, and who would
       have found it utterly incomprehensible, felt themselves
       linked by an eternal gratitude to the "delightful Americans"
       who had been so kind at Botzen. With touching
       fidelity they seized every chance of meeting Mrs. Archer
       and Janey in the course of their continental travels, and
       displayed a supernatural acuteness in finding out when
       they were to pass through London on their way to or
       from the States. The intimacy became indissoluble, and
       Mrs. Archer and Janey, whenever they alighted at
       Brown's Hotel, found themselves awaited by two affectionate
       friends who, like themselves, cultivated ferns in
       Wardian cases, made macrame lace, read the memoirs
       of the Baroness Bunsen and had views about the
       occupants of the leading London pulpits. As Mrs. Archer
       said, it made "another thing of London" to know Mrs.
       Carfry and Miss Harle; and by the time that Newland
       became engaged the tie between the families was so
       firmly established that it was thought "only right" to
       send a wedding invitation to the two English ladies,
       who sent, in return, a pretty bouquet of pressed Alpine
       flowers under glass. And on the dock, when Newland
       and his wife sailed for England, Mrs. Archer's last
       word had been: "You must take May to see Mrs.
       Carfry."
       Newland and his wife had had no idea of obeying
       this injunction; but Mrs. Carfry, with her usual acuteness,
       had run them down and sent them an invitation
       to dine; and it was over this invitation that May Archer
       was wrinkling her brows across the tea and muffins.
       "It's all very well for you, Newland; you KNOW them.
       But I shall feel so shy among a lot of people I've never
       met. And what shall I wear?"
       Newland leaned back in his chair and smiled at her.
       She looked handsomer and more Diana-like than ever.
       The moist English air seemed to have deepened the
       bloom of her cheeks and softened the slight hardness of
       her virginal features; or else it was simply the inner
       glow of happiness, shining through like a light under
       ice.
       "Wear, dearest? I thought a trunkful of things had
       come from Paris last week."
       "Yes, of course. I meant to say that I shan't know
       WHICH to wear." She pouted a little. "I've never dined
       out in London; and I don't want to be ridiculous."
       He tried to enter into her perplexity. "But don't
       Englishwomen dress just like everybody else in the
       evening?"
       "Newland! How can you ask such funny questions?
       When they go to the theatre in old ball-dresses and
       bare heads."
       "Well, perhaps they wear new ball-dresses at home;
       but at any rate Mrs. Carfry and Miss Harle won't.
       They'll wear caps like my mother's--and shawls; very
       soft shawls."
       "Yes; but how will the other women be dressed?"
       "Not as well as you, dear," he rejoined, wondering
       what had suddenly developed in her Janey's morbid
       interest in clothes.
       She pushed back her chair with a sigh. "That's dear
       of you, Newland; but it doesn't help me much."
       He had an inspiration. "Why not wear your wedding-
       dress? That can't be wrong, can it?"
       "Oh, dearest! If I only had it here! But it's gone to
       Paris to be made over for next winter, and Worth
       hasn't sent it back."
       "Oh, well--" said Archer, getting up. "Look here--
       the fog's lifting. If we made a dash for the National
       Gallery we might manage to catch a glimpse of the
       pictures."
       The Newland Archers were on their way home, after
       a three months' wedding-tour which May, in writing to
       her girl friends, vaguely summarised as "blissful."
       They had not gone to the Italian Lakes: on reflection,
       Archer had not been able to picture his wife in
       that particular setting. Her own inclination (after a
       month with the Paris dressmakers) was for mountaineering
       in July and swimming in August. This plan they
       punctually fulfilled, spending July at Interlaken and
       Grindelwald, and August at a little place called Etretat,
       on the Normandy coast, which some one had recommended
       as quaint and quiet. Once or twice, in the
       mountains, Archer had pointed southward and said:
       "There's Italy"; and May, her feet in a gentian-bed,
       had smiled cheerfully, and replied: "It would be lovely
       to go there next winter, if only you didn't have to be in
       New York."
       But in reality travelling interested her even less than
       he had expected. She regarded it (once her clothes were
       ordered) as merely an enlarged opportunity for walking,
       riding, swimming, and trying her hand at the fascinating
       new game of lawn tennis; and when they finally
       got back to London (where they were to spend a fortnight
       while he ordered HIS clothes) she no longer concealed
       the eagerness with which she looked forward to
       sailing.
       In London nothing interested her but the theatres
       and the shops; and she found the theatres less exciting
       than the Paris cafes chantants where, under the blossoming
       horse-chestnuts of the Champs Elysees, she had
       had the novel experience of looking down from the
       restaurant terrace on an audience of "cocottes," and
       having her husband interpret to her as much of the
       songs as he thought suitable for bridal ears.
       Archer had reverted to all his old inherited ideas
       about marriage. It was less trouble to conform with the
       tradition and treat May exactly as all his friends treated
       their wives than to try to put into practice the theories
       with which his untrammelled bachelorhood had dallied.
       There was no use in trying to emancipate a wife
       who had not the dimmest notion that she was not free;
       and he had long since discovered that May's only use
       of the liberty she supposed herself to possess would be
       to lay it on the altar of her wifely adoration. Her innate
       dignity would always keep her from making the gift
       abjectly; and a day might even come (as it once had)
       when she would find strength to take it altogether back
       if she thought she were doing it for his own good. But
       with a conception of marriage so uncomplicated and
       incurious as hers such a crisis could be brought about
       only by something visibly outrageous in his own conduct;
       and the fineness of her feeling for him made that
       unthinkable. Whatever happened, he knew, she would
       always be loyal, gallant and unresentful; and that pledged
       him to the practice of the same virtues.
       All this tended to draw him back into his old habits
       of mind. If her simplicity had been the simplicity of
       pettiness he would have chafed and rebelled; but since
       the lines of her character, though so few, were on the
       same fine mould as her face, she became the tutelary
       divinity of all his old traditions and reverences.
       Such qualities were scarcely of the kind to enliven
       foreign travel, though they made her so easy and pleasant
       a companion; but he saw at once how they would
       fall into place in their proper setting. He had no fear of
       being oppressed by them, for his artistic and intellectual
       life would go on, as it always had, outside the
       domestic circle; and within it there would be nothing
       small and stifling--coming back to his wife would never
       be like entering a stuffy room after a tramp in the
       open. And when they had children the vacant corners
       in both their lives would be filled.
       All these things went through his mind during their
       long slow drive from Mayfair to South Kensington,
       where Mrs. Carfry and her sister lived. Archer too
       would have preferred to escape their friends' hospitality:
       in conformity with the family tradition he had
       always travelled as a sight-seer and looker-on, affecting
       a haughty unconsciousness of the presence of his fellow-
       beings. Once only, just after Harvard, he had spent a
       few gay weeks at Florence with a band of queer
       Europeanised Americans, dancing all night with titled
       ladies in palaces, and gambling half the day with the
       rakes and dandies of the fashionable club; but it had all
       seemed to him, though the greatest fun in the world, as
       unreal as a carnival. These queer cosmopolitan women,
       deep in complicated love-affairs which they appeared to
       feel the need of retailing to every one they met, and the
       magnificent young officers and elderly dyed wits who
       were the subjects or the recipients of their confidences,
       were too different from the people Archer had grown
       up among, too much like expensive and rather malodorous
       hot-house exotics, to detain his imagination
       long. To introduce his wife into such a society was out
       of the question; and in the course of his travels no
       other had shown any marked eagerness for his company.
       Not long after their arrival in London he had run
       across the Duke of St. Austrey, and the Duke, instantly
       and cordially recognising him, had said: "Look me up,
       won't you?"--but no proper-spirited American would
       have considered that a suggestion to be acted on, and
       the meeting was without a sequel. They had even managed
       to avoid May's English aunt, the banker's wife,
       who was still in Yorkshire; in fact, they had purposely
       postponed going to London till the autumn in order
       that their arrival during the season might not appear
       pushing and snobbish to these unknown relatives.
       "Probably there'll be nobody at Mrs. Carfry's--London's
       a desert at this season, and you've made yourself
       much too beautiful," Archer said to May, who sat at
       his side in the hansom so spotlessly splendid in her
       sky-blue cloak edged with swansdown that it seemed
       wicked to expose her to the London grime.
       "I don't want them to think that we dress like
       savages," she replied, with a scorn that Pocahontas might
       have resented; and he was struck again by the religious
       reverence of even the most unworldly American women
       for the social advantages of dress.
       "It's their armour," he thought, "their defence against
       the unknown, and their defiance of it." And he understood
       for the first time the earnestness with which
       May, who was incapable of tying a ribbon in her hair
       to charm him, had gone through the solemn rite of
       selecting and ordering her extensive wardrobe.
       He had been right in expecting the party at Mrs.
       Carfry's to be a small one. Besides their hostess and her
       sister, they found, in the long chilly drawing-room,
       only another shawled lady, a genial Vicar who was her
       husband, a silent lad whom Mrs. Carfry named as her
       nephew, and a small dark gentleman with lively eyes
       whom she introduced as his tutor, pronouncing a French
       name as she did so.
       Into this dimly-lit and dim-featured group May Archer
       floated like a swan with the sunset on her: she seemed
       larger, fairer, more voluminously rustling than her
       husband had ever seen her; and he perceived that the
       rosiness and rustlingness were the tokens of an extreme
       and infantile shyness.
       "What on earth will they expect me to talk about?"
       her helpless eyes implored him, at the very moment
       that her dazzling apparition was calling forth the same
       anxiety in their own bosoms. But beauty, even when
       distrustful of itself, awakens confidence in the manly
       heart; and the Vicar and the French-named tutor were
       soon manifesting to May their desire to put her at her
       ease.
       In spite of their best efforts, however, the dinner was
       a languishing affair. Archer noticed that his wife's way
       of showing herself at her ease with foreigners was to
       become more uncompromisingly local in her references,
       so that, though her loveliness was an encouragement to
       admiration, her conversation was a chill to repartee.
       The Vicar soon abandoned the struggle; but the tutor,
       who spoke the most fluent and accomplished English,
       gallantly continued to pour it out to her until the
       ladies, to the manifest relief of all concerned, went up
       to the drawing-room.
       The Vicar, after a glass of port, was obliged to hurry
       away to a meeting, and the shy nephew, who appeared
       to be an invalid, was packed off to bed. But Archer and
       the tutor continued to sit over their wine, and suddenly
       Archer found himself talking as he had not done since
       his last symposium with Ned Winsett. The Carfry
       nephew, it turned out, had been threatened with
       consumption, and had had to leave Harrow for Switzerland,
       where he had spent two years in the milder air of
       Lake Leman. Being a bookish youth, he had been
       entrusted to M. Riviere, who had brought him back to
       England, and was to remain with him till he went up to
       Oxford the following spring; and M. Riviere added
       with simplicity that he should then have to look out for
       another job.
       It seemed impossible, Archer thought, that he should
       be long without one, so varied were his interests and so
       many his gifts. He was a man of about thirty, with a
       thin ugly face (May would certainly have called him
       common-looking) to which the play of his ideas gave
       an intense expressiveness; but there was nothing frivolous
       or cheap in his animation.
       His father, who had died young, had filled a small
       diplomatic post, and it had been intended that the son
       should follow the same career; but an insatiable taste
       for letters had thrown the young man into journalism,
       then into authorship (apparently unsuccessful), and at
       length--after other experiments and vicissitudes which
       he spared his listener--into tutoring English youths in
       Switzerland. Before that, however, he had lived much
       in Paris, frequented the Goncourt grenier, been advised
       by Maupassant not to attempt to write (even that seemed
       to Archer a dazzling honour!), and had often talked
       with Merimee in his mother's house. He had obviously
       always been desperately poor and anxious (having a
       mother and an unmarried sister to provide for), and it
       was apparent that his literary ambitions had failed. His
       situation, in fact, seemed, materially speaking, no more
       brilliant than Ned Winsett's; but he had lived in a
       world in which, as he said, no one who loved ideas
       need hunger mentally. As it was precisely of that love
       that poor Winsett was starving to death, Archer looked
       with a sort of vicarious envy at this eager impecunious
       young man who had fared so richly in his poverty.
       "You see, Monsieur, it's worth everything, isn't it, to
       keep one's intellectual liberty, not to enslave one's powers
       of appreciation, one's critical independence? It was
       because of that that I abandoned journalism, and took
       to so much duller work: tutoring and private secretaryship.
       There is a good deal of drudgery, of course; but
       one preserves one's moral freedom, what we call in
       French one's quant a soi. And when one hears good
       talk one can join in it without compromising any opinions
       but one's own; or one can listen, and answer it
       inwardly. Ah, good conversation--there's nothing like
       it, is there? The air of ideas is the only air worth
       breathing. And so I have never regretted giving up
       either diplomacy or journalism--two different forms of
       the same self-abdication." He fixed his vivid eyes on
       Archer as he lit another cigarette. "Voyez-vous,
       Monsieur, to be able to look life in the face: that's worth
       living in a garret for, isn't it? But, after all, one must
       earn enough to pay for the garret; and I confess that to
       grow old as a private tutor--or a `private' anything--is
       almost as chilling to the imagination as a second
       secretaryship at Bucharest. Sometimes I feel I must make a
       plunge: an immense plunge. Do you suppose, for instance,
       there would be any opening for me in America--
       in New York?"
       Archer looked at him with startled eyes. New York,
       for a young man who had frequented the Goncourts
       and Flaubert, and who thought the life of ideas the
       only one worth living! He continued to stare at M.
       Riviere perplexedly, wondering how to tell him that
       his very superiorities and advantages would be the
       surest hindrance to success.
       "New York--New York--but must it be especially
       New York?" he stammered, utterly unable to imagine
       what lucrative opening his native city could offer to a
       young man to whom good conversation appeared to be
       the only necessity.
       A sudden flush rose under M. Riviere's sallow skin.
       "I--I thought it your metropolis: is not the intellectual
       life more active there?" he rejoined; then, as if fearing
       to give his hearer the impression of having asked a
       favour, he went on hastily: "One throws out random
       suggestions--more to one's self than to others. In reality,
       I see no immediate prospect--" and rising from his
       seat he added, without a trace of constraint: "But
       Mrs. Carfry will think that I ought to be taking you
       upstairs."
       During the homeward drive Archer pondered deeply
       on this episode. His hour with M. Riviere had put
       new air into his lungs, and his first impulse had been to
       invite him to dine the next day; but he was beginning
       to understand why married men did not always immediately
       yield to their first impulses.
       "That young tutor is an interesting fellow: we had
       some awfully good talk after dinner about books and
       things," he threw out tentatively in the hansom.
       May roused herself from one of the dreamy silences
       into which he had read so many meanings before six
       months of marriage had given him the key to them.
       "The little Frenchman? Wasn't he dreadfully
       common?" she questioned coldly; and he guessed that she
       nursed a secret disappointment at having been invited
       out in London to meet a clergyman and a French tutor.
       The disappointment was not occasioned by the sentiment
       ordinarily defined as snobbishness, but by old
       New York's sense of what was due to it when it risked
       its dignity in foreign lands. If May's parents had
       entertained the Carfrys in Fifth Avenue they would have
       offered them something more substantial than a parson
       and a schoolmaster.
       But Archer was on edge, and took her up.
       "Common--common WHERE?" he queried; and she
       returned with unusual readiness: "Why, I should say
       anywhere but in his school-room. Those people are
       always awkward in society. But then," she added
       disarmingly, "I suppose I shouldn't have known if he was
       clever."
       Archer disliked her use of the word "clever" almost
       as much as her use of the word "common"; but he was
       beginning to fear his tendency to dwell on the things he
       disliked in her. After all, her point of view had always
       been the same. It was that of all the people he had
       grown up among, and he had always regarded it as
       necessary but negligible. Until a few months ago he had
       never known a "nice" woman who looked at life
       differently; and if a man married it must necessarily be
       among the nice.
       "Ah--then I won't ask him to dine!" he concluded
       with a laugh; and May echoed, bewildered: "Goodness--
       ask the Carfrys' tutor?"
       "Well, not on the same day with the Carfrys, if you
       prefer I shouldn't. But I did rather want another talk
       with him. He's looking for a job in New York."
       Her surprise increased with her indifference: he
       almost fancied that she suspected him of being tainted
       with "foreignness."
       "A job in New York? What sort of a job? People
       don't have French tutors: what does he want to do?"
       "Chiefly to enjoy good conversation, I understand,"
       her husband retorted perversely; and she broke into an
       appreciative laugh. "Oh, Newland, how funny! Isn't
       that FRENCH?"
       On the whole, he was glad to have the matter settled
       for him by her refusing to take seriously his wish to
       invite M. Riviere. Another after-dinner talk would have
       made it difficult to avoid the question of New York;
       and the more Archer considered it the less he was able
       to fit M. Riviere into any conceivable picture of New
       York as he knew it.
       He perceived with a flash of chilling insight that in
       future many problems would be thus negatively solved
       for him; but as he paid the hansom and followed his
       wife's long train into the house he took refuge in the
       comforting platitude that the first six months were
       always the most difficult in marriage. "After that I
       suppose we shall have pretty nearly finished rubbing
       off each other's angles," he reflected; but the worst of
       it was that May's pressure was already bearing on the
       very angles whose sharpness he most wanted to keep. _