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Outpost, or Dora Darling and Little Sunshine
CHAPTER XII - TEDDY'S TEMPTATION
Jane Goodwin Austin
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       _ TEDDY GINNISS sat alone in his master's office, feeling very sad and
       forlorn: for Dr. Wentworth had that morning said that the chance of
       life for his little patient was very, very small; and it seemed to
       Teddy heavier news than human heart had ever borne before. His
       morning duties over, he had seated himself at his little table, and
       tried to study the lesson given him by Mr. Burroughs upon the
       previous day; but a heavy heart makes dim eyes, and the page where
       Teddy's were fixed seemed to him no better than a crowd of
       disjointed letters swimming in a blinding mist.
       A hasty step was heard upon the stair; and, passing the sleeve of
       his jacket across his eyes, the boy bent closer over the book as his
       master entered the room.
       "Any one been in this morning, Teddy?" asked Mr. Burroughs, passing
       into the inner office.
       "No, sir."
       "I am going out of town for a day or two, Teddy,--going to New York;
       and Mr. Barlow will be here to attend to the business. You will do
       whatever he wishes as you would for me. You understand?"
       "Yes, sir."
       The good-natured young man, struck by the mournful tone of Teddy's
       usually hearty voice, turned and looked sharply at him.
       "Aren't you well, Teddy?"
       "Yes sir, thank your honor."
       "Not 'your honor' until I'm a judge, Teddy. But what's amiss with
       you, my boy?"
       "I wouldn't be troubling your--you with it, sir. It's nothing as can
       be helped."
       "No, no; but what is it, Teddy?" insisted the lawyer, who saw that
       Teddy could hardly restrain his tears.
       "Nothing, sir; but the little sister is mortal sick, and the doctor
       says he's afeard she won't stand it."
       "Your little sister, Teddy?"
       "Yes, sir."
       "I didn't know you had one. You never spoke of her before, did you?"
       "Maybe not, sir."
       "What is the matter with her?"
       "The faver, sir."
       Mr. Burroughs knew that this phrase in an Irish mouth means but one
       disease, and replied, in a sympathizing voice,--
       "Typhus! I'm sorry for you, Teddy, and sorry, too, for your mother,
       who is an excellent woman; but the little girl may yet recover:
       while there is life, there is hope, you know. Even if she dies, it
       is not so bad as--I am going to New York, Teddy, to look for a little
       cousin of mine whose parents do not know if she is living or dead,
       suffering or safe: that is worse than to have her ill, but under
       their care and protection, isn't it?"
       "Yes, sir, perhaps. Is the little girl in New York, sir, do you
       think?"
       "We hear of a child found astray there, who answers to the
       description; and I am going to see her before we mention the report
       to her mother. Have you never seen Mr. Legrange here, Teddy? It is
       his little girl. I wonder you haven't heard us talking of the
       matter."
       "I don't mind the name, sir; and I haven't heard of the little girl
       before. Is she long lost?"
       "Ten days yesterday. I have been busy all the week in the search for
       her. The clothes she had on when lost were found in a pawn-broker's
       shop; but we have no trace of her yet."
       "What looking child was she, if you please, sir?" asked Teddy after
       a short pause, in which he seemed to study intently; while Mr.
       Burroughs went on glancing at the newspapers in his hand.
       "'Toinette? Here is a description of her in 'The Journal,' and I
       have a photograph in my pocket-book. Here it is. It is well for you
       to study them both; for possibly you may discover her. I didn't
       think of it before; but you are just the boy to put upon the search.
       If you should find her, Teddy, Mr. Legrange will make your fortune.
       He is rich and generous, and this is his only child. Eleven o'clock.
       Shall be in at one."
       As he spoke, Mr. Burroughs threw the paper and photograph upon
       Teddy's table, and hastily left the office. The boy took up "The
       Journal," and read the following advertisement:--
       "Lost, upon the evening of Oct. 31, a little girl, six years of age,
       named Antoinette Legrange; of slight figure, round face, delicate
       color, large blue eyes, long curled hair of a bright-yellow color,
       small mouth, and regular teeth. She was dressed, at the time of her
       disappearance, in a blue frock and brown boots, with a lady's
       breakfast-shawl; and wore upon the sleeve of her dress a bracelet of
       coral cameos engraved under the clasp with her name in full. A
       liberal reward will be paid for information concerning her. Apply at
       the police-station."
       When he had studied this, Teddy took up the photograph, and examined
       it earnestly. The dress, the long curled hair, the joyous
       expression, were very different from the pale face, wild eyes, and
       cropped head of the little sister at home; but Teddy's heart sank
       within him as he traced the delicate features, the curved lips, and
       trim little figure. He dropped the picture, and, leaning his face
       upon his arm, sobbed aloud.
       "I'll lose her anyway, if she dies or if she lives; and it's all the
       little sister ever I got."
       But presently another thought made Teddy lift his head, and look
       anxiously about him to make sure that his emotion had not been seen
       by any one. He was still alone; and, with a sigh of relief, he
       dashed away the tears from his eyes, muttering,--
       "It's the big fool I am, entirely! Sure and mightn't she have picked
       up the bracelet in the street, where maybe the little lady they've
       lost dropped it? And, if she looks like the picture, so does many a
       one beside; and it's no call I have to be troubling the master with
       telling him about her anyway. She's my own little sister, and I'll
       keep her to myself."
       A sudden sharp recollection darted through the boy's mind, and he
       grew a little pale as he added,--
       "Leastways, I'll keep her if God will let me; and sure isn't he
       stronger nor me? If it isn't for me to have her, can't he take her,
       if it's by death, or if it's by leading them that's searching for
       her to where she is? And more by token, that's the way I'll try it.
       If God means she shall stay and be my little sister, she'll live,
       and I'll take her, and say nothing to nobody about it: but, if it's
       displasin' to him, she'll die; and then I'll tell the master all
       about it, and he may do what he's a mind to with me. That's the way
       I'll fix it."
       And Teddy, well satisfied with his own bad argument, took comfort,
       and went back to his books.
       When Mr. Burroughs returned to the office, he was accompanied by Mr.
       Barlow, the gentleman who was to occupy it during his absence; and
       he did not speak to Teddy, except to give him a few directions, and
       bid him a kind good-by. The paper and picture he found lying upon
       his desk, and hastily put in his pocket without remark or question.
       For the first time in his life, Teddy avoided meeting his master's
       eye, but watched him furtively over the top of his book, raising it
       so as to screen his face whenever Mr. Burroughs looked his way, and
       trembling whenever he spoke to him; and, for the first time in his
       life, he secretly rejoiced at seeing him leave the office, knowing
       that he was to be gone for some time.
       The long day was over at last; and, so soon as the hour for closing
       the office had begun to strike, Teddy locked the door, sprang down
       stairs, and ran like a deer towards home, feeling as if in some
       manner the little sister was about to be taken away from him, and he
       must hasten to prevent it.
       At the foot of the stairs, however, he checked himself, creeping up
       as silently and cautiously as possible, and stopping at the head to
       listen for the clear voice, frightfully clear and shrill, of the
       delirious child, which usually met him there. No sound was to be
       heard except the deep voice of the Italian organ-grinder in the room
       below, talking to himself or his monkey as he prepared supper; and
       Teddy, creeping along the entry to his mother's door, softly opened
       it, and went in.
       At one side of the bed stood Mrs. Ginniss; at the other, Dr.
       Wentworth: but Teddy saw only the little waxen face upon the pillow
       between them,--the little face so strange and lovely now; for all the
       fever flush had passed away, the babbling lips were folded white and
       still, the glittering eyes were closed, and the long dark lashes lay
       motionless upon the cheek,--the little face so strange and terrible
       in its sudden, peaceful beauty.
       As Teddy softly entered, Dr. Wentworth turned and held a warning
       finger up; then bent again above the little child, his hand upon her
       heart.
       The boy crept close to his mother, down whose honest face the tears
       ran like rain; although she heeded the earnest warning of the
       physician, and was almost as still as she little form she watched.
       "Is she dead, mother?" whispered Teddy.
       "Whisht, darlint! wait till we know," whispered she in return; and
       the young doctor glanced impatiently at both out of his strained and
       eager eyes. Had it been his own and only child, he could not have
       hung more earnestly about her: and here was the strange, sweet charm
       of this little life,--that all who came within its influence felt
       themselves drawn toward it, and opened wide their hearts to allow
       its entrance; feeling not alone that they loved the lovely child,
       but that she was or should be their very own, to cherish and fondle
       and bind to them forever.
       So the coarse, hard-working woman, who two weeks before had never
       seen her face, now wept as true and bitter tears as she had done
       beside the death-bed of the child she had lost when Teddy was a
       baby; and the young doctor, who had watched the passage of a hundred
       souls from time to eternity, hung over this little dying form as if
       all life for him were held within it, and to lose it were to lose
       all. And Teddy-ah! poor Teddy; for upon his young heart lay not only
       the bitterness of the death busy with his "little sister's" life,
       but the heavy burden of wrong and deception, and the proof, as he
       thought, of God's displeasure in taking from him at last what he had
       tried so hard to keep.
       He sank upon his knees beside the bed, and hid his face,
       whispering,--
       "O God! let her live, and I will give her back to them as I kept her
       from."
       Over and over and over again, he whispered just these words,
       clinching tight his boy-hands to keep down the agony of the
       sacrifice; while in the very centre of his heart throbbed a hard,
       dull pain, that seemed as if it would rend it asunder.
       His face was still hidden, when, like an answer to his petition,
       came the softest of whispers from the doctor's lips,--
       "She will live, with God's help, and the best of care from you."
       "An' it's the bist uv care she'll git, I'll pass me word for that,"
       whispered back Teddy's mother, so earnestly, that the doctor
       answered,--
       "Hush! She is falling asleep. Do not wake her, for her life!"
       He sank into a chair as he spoke. Mrs. Ginniss crept round to the
       stove, and, crouching beside it, covered her head with her apron,
       and remained motionless. As for Teddy, he never stirred or looked
       up, but with his face hidden upon the bed, repeated again and again
       those words, to him so solemn and so full of meaning, until in the
       silence and the waiting he fell asleep, and gradually sank upon the
       floor.
       And so the night went on: and the careful eyes of the young
       physician marked how a faint tinge of color crept into the
       death-white cheek upon the pillow; and how the still lips lost their
       hard, cold line, and grew human once more, though so pale; and how
       the eyelids stirred, moving the heavy lashes; and a faint pulse
       fluttered in the slender throat.
       At last, with a long, soft sigh, the lips lightly parted; the
       eyelids opened slowly, showing for a moment the blue eyes, dim and
       languid, but no longer wild with delirium; and then they slowly
       closed, and the breath came softly and regularly from the parted
       lips.
       Dr. Wentworth heaved an answering sigh of mingled weariness and
       relief, and, rising, went to Mrs. Ginniss's side, touching her upon
       the shoulder, and whispering,--
       "She is doing well. Keep her as quiet as possible. I will be in at
       nine."
       Hushing the murmured blessings she would have poured upon his head,
       the young man stole softly from the room and down the stairs into
       the street, where already the first gray of dawn struggled with the
       flaring gas-lights. _