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       _ He let her have her own way, following her into the dining-room, and
       was grateful when she brought him a tiny glass filled from one of the
       decanters on the sideboard. Roscoe gloomily poured for himself a much
       heavier libation in a larger glass; and the two men sat, while Sibyl
       leaned against the sideboard, reviewing the episodes of the day and
       recalling the names of the donors of flowers and wreaths. She pressed
       Bibbs to remain longer when he rose to go, and then, as he persisted,
       she went with him to the front door. He opened it, and she said:
       "Bibbs, you were coming out of the Vertreeses' house when we met you.
       How did you happen to be there?"
       "I had only been to the door," he said. "Good night, Sibyl."
       "Wait," she insisted. "We saw you coming out."
       "I wasn't," he explained, moving to depart. "I'd just brought Miss
       Vertrees home."
       "What?" she cried.
       "Yes," he said, and stepped out upon the porch, "that was it. Good
       night, Sibyl."
       "Wait!" she said, following him across the threshold. "How did that
       happen? I thought you were going to wait while those men filled the--
       the--" She paused, but moved nearer him insistently.
       "I did wait. Miss Vertrees was there," he said, reluctantly. "She
       had walked away for a while and didn't notice that the carriages were
       leaving. When she came back the coupe waiting for me was the only one
       left."
       She regarded him with dilating eyes. She spoke with a slow
       breathlessness. "And she drove home from Jim's funeral--with you!"
       Without warning she burst into laughter, clapped her hand
       ineffectually over her mouth, and ran back uproariously into the
       house, hurling the door shut behind her.
       Bibbs went home pondering. He did not understand why Sibyl had
       laughed. The laughter itself had been spontaneous and beyond
       suspicion, but it seemed to him that she had only affected the effort
       to suppress it and that she wished it to be significant. Significant
       of what? And why had she wished to impress upon him the fact of her
       overwhelming amusement? He found no answer, but she had succeeded in
       disturbing him, and he wished that he had not encountered her.
       At home, uncles, aunts, and cousins from out of town were wandering
       about the house, several mournfully admiring the "Bay of Naples,"
       and others occupied with the Moor and the plumbing, while they waited
       for trains. Edith and her mother had retired to some upper fastness,
       but Bibbs interviewed Jackson and had the various groups of relatives
       summoned to the dining-room for food. One great-uncle, old Gideon
       Sheridan from Boonville, could not be found, and Bibbs went in search
       of him. He ransacked the house, discovering the missing antique at
       last by accident. Passing his father's closed door on tiptoe, Bibbs
       heard a murmurous sound, and paused to listen. The sound proved to be
       a quavering and rickety voice, monotonously bleating:
       "The Lo-ord givuth and the Lo-ord takuth away! We got to remember
       that; we got to remember that! I'm a-gittin' along, James; I'm a-
       gittin' along, and I've seen a-many of 'em go--two daughters and a son
       the Lord give me, and He has taken all away. For the Lo-ord givuth
       and the Lo-ord takuth away! Remember the words of Bildad the Shuhite,
       James. Bildad the Shuhite says, 'He shall have neither son nor nephew
       among his people, nor any remaining in his dwellings.' Bildad the
       Shuhite--"
       Bibbs opened the door softly. His father was lying upon the bed,
       in his underclothes, face downward, and Uncle Gideon sat near by,
       swinging backward and forward in a rocking-chair, stroking his long
       white beard and gazing at the ceiling as he talked. Bibbs beckoned
       him urgently, but Uncle Gideon paid no attention.
       "Bibdad the Shuhite spake and his says, 'If thy children have sinned
       against Him and He have cast them away--'"
       There was a muffled explosion beneath the floor, and the windows
       rattled. The figure lying face downward on the bed did not move,
       but Uncle Gideon leaped from his chair. "My God!" he cried.
       "What's that?"
       There came a second explosion, and Uncle Gideon ran out into the hall.
       Bibbs went to the head of the great staircase, and, looking down,
       discovered the source of the distubance. Gideon's grandson, a boy
       of fourteen, had brought his camera to the funeral and was taking
       "flash-lights" of the Moor. Uncle Gideon, reassured by Bibbs's
       explanation, would have returned to finish his quotation from Bildad
       the Shuhite, but Bibbs detained him, and after a little argument
       persuaded him to descend to the dining-room whither Bibbs followed,
       after closing the door of his father's room.
       He kept his eye on Gideon after dinner, diplomatically preventing
       several attempts on the part of that comforter to reascend the stairs;
       and it was a relief to Bibbs when George announced that an automobile
       was waiting to convey the ancient man and his grandson to their train.
       They were the last to leave, and when they had gone Bibbs went sighing
       to his own room.
       He stretched himself wearily upon the bed, but presently rose, went
       to the window, and looked for a long time at the darkened house where
       Mary Vertrees lived. Then he open his trunk, took therefrom a small
       note-book half filled with fragmentary scribblings, and began to
       write:
       Laughter after a funeral. In this reaction people will laugh at
       anything and at nothing. The band plays a dirge on the way to the
       cemetery, but when it turns back, and the mourning carriages are
       out of hearing, it strikes up, "Darktown is Out To-night." That
       is natural--but there are women whose laughter is like the whirring
       of whips. Why is it that certain kinds of laughter seem to spoil
       something hidden away from the laughers? If they do not know of
       it, and have never seen it, how can their laughter hurt it? Yet it
       does. Beauty is not out of place among grave-stones. It is not
       out of place anywhere. But a woman who has been betrothed to a
       man would not look beautiful at his funeral. A woman might look
       beautiful, though, at the funeral of a man whom she had known and
       liked. And in that case, too, she would probably not want to talk
       if she drove home from the cemetery with his brother: nor would
       she want the brother to talk. Silence is usually either stupid or
       timid. But for a man who stammers if he tries to talk fast, and
       drawls so slowly, when he doesn't stammer, that nobody has time to
       listen to him, silence is advisable. Nevertheless, too much silence
       is open to suspicion. It may be reticence, or it may be a vacuum.
       It may be dignity, or it may be false teeth.
       Sometimes an imperceptible odor will become perceptible in a small
       inclosure, such as a closed carriage. The ghost of gasoline rising
       from a lady's glove might be sweeter to the man riding beside her
       than all the scents of Arcady in spring. It depends on the lady--
       but there ARE! Three miles may be three hundred miles, or it may
       be three feet. When it is three feet you have not time to say a
       great deal before you reach the end of it. Still, it may be that
       one should begin to speak.
       No one could help wishing to stay in a world that holds some of
       the people that are in this world. There are some so wonderful
       you do not understand how the dead COULD die. How could they let
       themselves? A falling building does not care who falls with it.
       It does not choose who shall be upon its roof and who shall not.
       Silence CAN be golden? Yes. But perhaps if a woman of the world
       should find herself by accident sitting beside a man for the length
       of time it must necessarily take two slow old horses to jog three
       miles, she might expect that man to say something of some sort!
       Even if she thought him a feeble hypochondriac, even if she had
       heard from others that he was a disappointment to his own people,
       even if she had seen for herself that he was a useless and
       irritating encumbrance everywhere, she might expect him at least
       to speak--she might expect him to open his mouth and try to make
       sounds, if he only barked. If he did not even try, but sat every
       step of the way as dumb as a frozen fish, she might THINK him a
       frozen fish. And she might be right. She might be right if she
       thought him about as pleasant a companion as--as Bildad the Shuhite!
       Bibbs closed his note-book, replacing it in his trunk. Then, after a
       period of melancholy contemplation, he undressed, put on a dressing-
       gown and slippers, and went softly out into the hall--to his father's
       door. Upon the floor was a tray which Bibbs had sent George, earlier
       in the evening, to place upon a table in Sheridan's room--but the food
       was untouched. Bibbs stood listening outside the door for several
       minutes. There came no sound from within, and he went back to his
       own room and to bed.
       In the morning he woke to a state of being hitherto unknown in his
       experience. Sometimes in the process of waking there is a little
       pause--sleep has gone, but coherent thought has not begun. It is
       a curious half-void, a glimpse of aphasia; and although the person
       experiencing it may not know for that instant his own name or age or
       sex, he may be acutely conscious of depression or elation. It is the
       moment, as we say, before we "remember"; and for the first time in
       Bibbs's life it came to him bringing a vague happiness. He woke to a
       sense of new riches; he had the feeling of a boy waking to a birthday.
       But when the next moment brought him his memory, he found nothing
       that could explain his exhilaration. On the contrary, under the
       circumstances it seemed grotesquely unwarranted. However, it was a
       brief visitation and was gone before he had finished dressing. It
       left a little trail, the pleased recollection of it and the puzzle
       of it, which remained unsolved. And, in fact, waking happily in the
       morning is not usually the result of a drive home from a funeral.
       No wonder the sequence evaded Bibbs Sheridan!
       His father had gone when he came down-stairs. "Went on down to 's
       office, jes' same," Jackson informed him. "Came sat breakfas'-table,
       all by 'mself; eat nothin'. George bring nice breakfas', but he di'n'
       eat a thing. Yessuh, went on down-town, jes' same he yoosta do.
       Yessuh, I reckon putty much ev'y-thing goin' go on same as it yoosta
       do."
       It struck Bibbs that Jackson was right. The day passed as other days
       had passed. Mrs. Sheridan and Edith were in black, and Mrs. Sheridan
       cried a little, now and then, but no other external difference was to
       be seen. Edith was quiet, but not noticeably depressed, and at lunch
       proved herself able to argue with her mother upon the propriety of
       receiving calls in the earliest stages of "mourning." Lunch was as
       usual--for Jim and his father had always lunched down-town--and the
       afternoon was as usual. Bibbs went for his drive, and his mother
       went with him, as she sometimes did when the weather was pleasant.
       Altogether, the usualness of things was rather startling to Bibbs.
       During the drive Mrs. Sheridan talked fragmentarily of Jim's
       childhood. "But you wouldn't remember about that," she said, after
       narrating an episode. "You were too little. He was always a good
       boy, just like that. And he'd save whatever papa gave him, and put
       it in the bank. I reckon it'll just about kill your father to put
       somebody in his place as president of the Realty Company, Bibbs. I
       know he can't move Roscoe over; he told me last week he'd already put
       as much on Roscoe as any one man could handle and not go crazy. Oh,
       it's a pity--" She stopped to wipe her eyes. "It's a pity you didn't
       run more with Jim, Bibbs, and kind o' pick up his ways. Think what
       it'd meant to papa now! You never did run with either Roscoe or Jim
       any, even before you got sick. Of course, you were younger; but it
       always DID seem queer--and you three bein' brothers like that. I
       don't believe I ever saw you and Jim sit down together for a good talk
       in my life."
       "Mother, I've been away so long," Bibbs returned, gently. "And since
       I came home I--"
       "Oh, I ain't reproachin' you, Bibbs," she said. "Jim ain't been home
       much of an evening since you got back--what with his work and callin'
       and goin' to the theater and places, and often not even at the house
       for dinner. Right the evening before he got hurt he had his dinner
       at some miser'ble rest'rant down by the Pump Works, he was so set on
       overseein' the night work and gettin' everything finished up right to
       the minute he told papa he would. I reckon you might 'a' put in more
       time with Jim if there'd been more opportunity, Bibbs. I expect you
       feel almost as if you scarcely really knew him right well."
       "I suppose I really didn't, mother. He was busy, you see, and I
       hadn't much to say about the things that interested him, because I
       don't know much about them."
       "It's a pity! Oh, it's a pity!" she moaned. "And you'll have to
       learn to know about 'em NOW, Bibbs! I haven't said much to you,
       because I felt it was all between your father and you, but I honestly
       do believe it will just kill him if he has to have any more trouble
       on top of all this! You mustn't LET him, Bibbs--you mustn't! You
       don't know how he's grieved over you, and now he can't stand any more
       --he just can't! Whatever he says for you to do, you DO it, Bibbs,
       you DO it! I want you to promise me you will."
       "I would if I could," he said, sorrowfully.
       "No, no! Why can't you?" she cried, clutching his arm. "He wants
       you to go back to the machine-shop and--"
       "And--'like it!" said Bibbs.
       "Yes, that's it--to go in a cheerful spirit. Dr. Gurney said it
       wouldn't hurt you if you went in a cheerful spirit--the doctor said
       that himself, Bibbs. So why can't you do it? Can't you do that much
       for your father? You ought to think what he's done for YOU. You got
       a beautiful house to live in; you got automobiles to ride in; you got
       fur coats and warm clothes; you been taken care of all your life. And
       you don't KNOW how he worked for the money to give all these things
       to you! You don't DREAM what he had to go through and what he risked
       when we were startin' out in life; and you never WILL know! And now
       this blow has fallen on him out of a clear sky, and you make it out to
       be a hardship to do like he wants you to! And all on earth he asks is
       for you to go back to the work in a cheerful spirit, so it won't hurt
       you! That's all he asks. Look, Bibbs, we're gettin' back near home,
       but before we get there I want you to promise me that you'll do what
       he asks you to. Promise me!"
       In her earnestness she cleared away her black veil that she might see
       him better, and it blew out on the smoky wind. He readjusted it for
       her before he spoke.
       "I'll go back in as cheerful a spirit as I can, mother," he said.
       "There!" she exclaimed, satisfied. "That's a good boy! That's all
       I wanted you to say."
       "Don't give me any credit," he said, ruefully. "There isn't anything
       else for me to do."
       "Now, don't begin talkin' THAT way!"
       "No, no," he soothed her. "We'll have to begin to make the spirit
       a cheerful one. We may--" They were turning into their own driveway
       as he spoke, and he glanced at the old house next door. Mary
       Vertrees was visible in the twilight, standing upon the front steps,
       bareheaded, the door open behind her. She bowed gravely.
       "'We may'--what?" asked Mrs. Sheridan, with a slight impatience.
       "What is it, mother?"
       "You said, 'We may,' and didn't finish what you were sayin'."
       "Did I?" said Bibbs, blankly. "Well, what WERE we saying?"
       "Of all the queer boys!" she cried. "You always were. Always!
       You haven't forgot what you just promised me, have you?"
       "No," he answered, as the car stopped. "No, the spirit will be as
       cheerful as the flesh will let it, mother. It won't do to behave
       like--"
       His voice was low, and in her movement to descend from the car she
       failed to here his final words.
       "Behave like who, Bibbs?"
       "Nothing."
       But she was fretful in her grief. "You said it wouldn't do to behave
       like SOMEBODY. Behave like WHO?"
       "It was just nonsense," he explained, turning to go in. "An obscure
       person I don't think much of lately."
       "Behave like WHO?" she repeated, and upon his yielding to her petulant
       insistence, she made up her mind that the only thing to do was to tell
       Dr. Gurney about it.
       "Like Bildad the Shuhite!" was what Bibbs said. _