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Sea Wolf, The
CHAPTER XXXVII
Jack London
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       _ At once we moved aboard the Ghost, occupying our old state-rooms
       and cooking in the galley. The imprisonment of Wolf Larsen had
       happened most opportunely, for what must have been the Indian
       summer of this high latitude was gone and drizzling stormy weather
       had set in. We were very comfortable, and the inadequate shears,
       with the foremast suspended from them, gave a business-like air to
       the schooner and a promise of departure.
       And now that we had Wolf Larsen in irons, how little did we need
       it! Like his first attack, his second had been accompanied by
       serious disablement. Maud made the discovery in the afternoon
       while trying to give him nourishment. He had shown signs of
       consciousness, and she had spoken to him, eliciting no response.
       He was lying on his left side at the time, and in evident pain.
       With a restless movement he rolled his head around, clearing his
       left ear from the pillow against which it had been pressed. At
       once he heard and answered her, and at once she came to me.
       Pressing the pillow against his left ear, I asked him if he heard
       me, but he gave no sign. Removing the pillow and, repeating the
       question he answered promptly that he did.
       "Do you know you are deaf in the right ear?" I asked.
       "Yes," he answered in a low, strong voice, "and worse than that.
       My whole right side is affected. It seems asleep. I cannot move
       arm or leg."
       "Feigning again?" I demanded angrily.
       He shook his head, his stern mouth shaping the strangest, twisted
       smile. It was indeed a twisted smile, for it was on the left side
       only, the facial muscles of the right side moving not at all.
       "That was the last play of the Wolf," he said. "I am paralysed. I
       shall never walk again. Oh, only on the other side," he added, as
       though divining the suspicious glance I flung at his left leg, the
       knee of which had just then drawn up, and elevated the blankets.
       "It's unfortunate," he continued. "I'd liked to have done for you
       first, Hump. And I thought I had that much left in me."
       "But why?" I asked; partly in horror, partly out of curiosity.
       Again his stern mouth framed the twisted smile, as he said:
       "Oh, just to be alive, to be living and doing, to be the biggest
       bit of the ferment to the end, to eat you. But to die this way."
       He shrugged his shoulders, or attempted to shrug them, rather, for
       the left shoulder alone moved. Like the smile, the shrug was
       twisted.
       "But how can you account for it?" I asked. "Where is the seat of
       your trouble?"
       "The brain," he said at once. "It was those cursed headaches
       brought it on."
       "Symptoms," I said.
       He nodded his head. "There is no accounting for it. I was never
       sick in my life. Something's gone wrong with my brain. A cancer,
       a tumour, or something of that nature, - a thing that devours and
       destroys. It's attacking my nerve-centres, eating them up, bit by
       bit, cell by cell - from the pain."
       "The motor-centres, too," I suggested.
       "So it would seem; and the curse of it is that I must lie here,
       conscious, mentally unimpaired, knowing that the lines are going
       down, breaking bit by bit communication with the world. I cannot
       see, hearing and feeling are leaving me, at this rate I shall soon
       cease to speak; yet all the time I shall be here, alive, active,
       and powerless."
       "When you say YOU are here, I'd suggest the likelihood of the
       soul," I said.
       "Bosh!" was his retort. "It simply means that in the attack on my
       brain the higher psychical centres are untouched. I can remember,
       I can think and reason. When that goes, I go. I am not. The
       soul?"
       He broke out in mocking laughter, then turned his left ear to the
       pillow as a sign that he wished no further conversation.
       Maud and I went about our work oppressed by the fearful fate which
       had overtaken him, - how fearful we were yet fully to realize.
       There was the awfulness of retribution about it. Our thoughts were
       deep and solemn, and we spoke to each other scarcely above
       whispers.
       "You might remove the handcuffs," he said that night, as we stood
       in consultation over him. "It's dead safe. I'm a paralytic now.
       The next thing to watch out for is bed sores."
       He smiled his twisted smile, and Maud, her eyes wide with horror,
       was compelled to turn away her head.
       "Do you know that your smile is crooked?" I asked him; for I knew
       that she must attend him, and I wished to save her as much as
       possible.
       "Then I shall smile no more," he said calmly. "I thought something
       was wrong. My right cheek has been numb all day. Yes, and I've
       had warnings of this for the last three days; by spells, my right
       side seemed going to sleep, sometimes arm or hand, sometimes leg or
       foot."
       "So my smile is crooked?" he queried a short while after. "Well,
       consider henceforth that I smile internally, with my soul, if you
       please, my soul. Consider that I am smiling now."
       And for the space of several minutes he lay there, quiet, indulging
       his grotesque fancy.
       The man of him was not changed. It was the old, indomitable,
       terrible Wolf Larsen, imprisoned somewhere within that flesh which
       had once been so invincible and splendid. Now it bound him with
       insentient fetters, walling his soul in darkness and silence,
       blocking it from the world which to him had been a riot of action.
       No more would he conjugate the verb "to do in every mood and
       tense." "To be" was all that remained to him - to be, as he had
       defined death, without movement; to will, but not to execute; to
       think and reason and in the spirit of him to be as alive as ever,
       but in the flesh to be dead, quite dead.
       And yet, though I even removed the handcuffs, we could not adjust
       ourselves to his condition. Our minds revolted. To us he was full
       of potentiality. We knew not what to expect of him next, what
       fearful thing, rising above the flesh, he might break out and do.
       Our experience warranted this state of mind, and we went about our
       work with anxiety always upon us.
       I had solved the problem which had arisen through the shortness of
       the shears. By means of the watch-tackle (I had made a new one), I
       heaved the butt of the foremast across the rail and then lowered it
       to the deck. Next, by means of the shears, I hoisted the main boom
       on board. Its forty feet of length would supply the height
       necessary properly to swing the mast. By means of a secondary
       tackle I had attached to the shears, I swung the boom to a nearly
       perpendicular position, then lowered the butt to the deck, where,
       to prevent slipping, I spiked great cleats around it. The single
       block of my original shears-tackle I had attached to the end of the
       boom. Thus, by carrying this tackle to the windlass, I could raise
       and lower the end of the boom at will, the butt always remaining
       stationary, and, by means of guys, I could swing the boom from side
       to side. To the end of the boom I had likewise rigged a hoisting
       tackle; and when the whole arrangement was completed I could not
       but be startled by the power and latitude it gave me.
       Of course, two days' work was required for the accomplishment of
       this part of my task, and it was not till the morning of the third
       day that I swung the foremast from the deck and proceeded to square
       its butt to fit the step. Here I was especially awkward. I sawed
       and chopped and chiselled the weathered wood till it had the
       appearance of having been gnawed by some gigantic mouse. But it
       fitted.
       "It will work, I know it will work," I cried.
       "Do you know Dr. Jordan's final test of truth?" Maud asked.
       I shook my head and paused in the act of dislodging the shavings
       which had drifted down my neck.
       "Can we make it work? Can we trust our lives to it? is the test."
       "He is a favourite of yours," I said.
       "When I dismantled my old Pantheon and cast out Napoleon and Caesar
       and their fellows, I straightway erected a new Pantheon," she
       answered gravely, "and the first I installed as Dr. Jordan."
       "A modern hero."
       "And a greater because modern," she added. "How can the Old World
       heroes compare with ours?"
       I shook my head. We were too much alike in many things for
       argument. Our points of view and outlook on life at least were
       very alike.
       "For a pair of critics we agree famously," I laughed.
       "And as shipwright and able assistant," she laughed back.
       But there was little time for laughter in those days, what of our
       heavy work and of the awfulness of Wolf Larsen's living death.
       He had received another stroke. He had lost his voice, or he was
       losing it. He had only intermittent use of it. As he phrased it,
       the wires were like the stock market, now up, now down.
       Occasionally the wires were up and he spoke as well as ever, though
       slowly and heavily. Then speech would suddenly desert him, in the
       middle of a sentence perhaps, and for hours, sometimes, we would
       wait for the connection to be re-established. He complained of
       great pain in his head, and it was during this period that he
       arranged a system of communication against the time when speech
       should leave him altogether - one pressure of the hand for "yes,"
       two for "no." It was well that it was arranged, for by evening his
       voice had gone from him. By hand pressures, after that, he
       answered our questions, and when he wished to speak he scrawled his
       thoughts with his left hand, quite legibly, on a sheet of paper.
       The fierce winter had now descended upon us. Gale followed gale,
       with snow and sleet and rain. The seals had started on their great
       southern migration, and the rookery was practically deserted. I
       worked feverishly. In spite of the bad weather, and of the wind
       which especially hindered me, I was on deck from daylight till dark
       and making substantial progress.
       I profited by my lesson learned through raising the shears and then
       climbing them to attach the guys. To the top of the foremast,
       which was just lifted conveniently from the deck, I attached the
       rigging, stays and throat and peak halyards. As usual, I had
       underrated the amount of work involved in this portion of the task,
       and two long days were necessary to complete it. And there was so
       much yet to be done - the sails, for instance, which practically
       had to be made over.
       While I toiled at rigging the foremast, Maud sewed on canvas, ready
       always to drop everything and come to my assistance when more hands
       than two were required. The canvas was heavy and hard, and she
       sewed with the regular sailor's palm and three-cornered sail-
       needle. Her hands were soon sadly blistered, but she struggled
       bravely on, and in addition doing the cooking and taking care of
       the sick man.
       "A fig for superstition," I said on Friday morning. "That mast
       goes in to-day.'
       Everything was ready for the attempt. Carrying the boom-tackle to
       the windlass, I hoisted the mast nearly clear of the deck. Making
       this tackle fast, I took to the windlass the shears-tackle (which
       was connected with the end of the boom), and with a few turns had
       the mast perpendicular and clear.
       Maud clapped her hands the instant she was relieved from holding
       the turn, crying:
       "It works! It works! We'll trust our lives to it!"
       Then she assumed a rueful expression.
       "It's not over the hole," she add. "Will you have to begin all
       over?"
       I smiled in superior fashion, and, slacking off on one of the boom-
       guys and taking in on the other, swung the mast perfectly in the
       centre of the deck. Still it was not over the hole. Again the
       rueful expression came on her face, and again I smiled in a
       superior way. Slacking away on the boom-tackle and hoisting an
       equivalent amount on the shears-tackle, I brought the butt of the
       mast into position directly over the hole in the deck. Then I gave
       Maud careful instructions for lowering away and went into the hold
       to the step on the schooner's bottom.
       I called to her, and the mast moved easily and accurately.
       Straight toward the square hole of the step the square butt
       descended; but as it descended it slowly twisted so that square
       would not fit into square. But I had not even a moment's
       indecision. Calling to Maud to cease lowering, I went on deck and
       made the watch-tackle fast to the mast with a rolling hitch. I
       left Maud to pull on it while I went below. By the light of the
       lantern I saw the butt twist slowly around till its sides coincided
       with the sides of the step. Maud made fast and returned to the
       windlass. Slowly the butt descended the several intervening
       inches, at the same time slightly twisting again. Again Maud
       rectified the twist with the watch-tackle, and again she lowered
       away from the windlass. Square fitted into square. The mast was
       stepped.
       I raised a shout, and she ran down to see. In the yellow lantern
       light we peered at what we had accomplished. We looked at each
       other, and our hands felt their way and clasped. The eyes of both
       of us, I think, were moist with the joy of success.
       "It was done so easily after all," I remarked. "All the work was
       in the preparation."
       "And all the wonder in the completion," Maud added. "I can
       scarcely bring myself to realize that that great mast is really up
       and in; that you have lifted it from the water, swung it through
       the air, and deposited it here where it belongs. It is a Titan's
       task."
       "And they made themselves many inventions," I began merrily, then
       paused to sniff the air.
       I looked hastily at the lantern. It was not smoking. Again I
       sniffed.
       "Something is burning," Maud said, with sudden conviction.
       We sprang together for the ladder, but I raced past her to the
       deck. A dense volume of smoke was pouring out of the steerage
       companion-way.
       "The Wolf is not yet dead," I muttered to myself as I sprang down
       through the smoke.
       It was so thick in the confined space that I was compelled to feel
       my way; and so potent was the spell of Wolf Larsen on my
       imagination, I was quite prepared for the helpless giant to grip my
       neck in a strangle hold. I hesitated, the desire to race back and
       up the steps to the deck almost overpowering me. Then I
       recollected Maud. The vision of her, as I had last seen her, in
       the lantern light of the schooner's hold, her brown eyes warm and
       moist with joy, flashed before me, and I knew that I could not go
       back.
       I was choking and suffocating by the time I reached Wolf Larsen's
       bunk. I reached my hand and felt for his. He was lying
       motionless, but moved slightly at the touch of my hand. I felt
       over and under his blankets. There was no warmth, no sign of fire.
       Yet that smoke which blinded me and made me cough and gasp must
       have a source. I lost my head temporarily and dashed frantically
       about the steerage. A collision with the table partially knocked
       the wind from my body and brought me to myself. I reasoned that a
       helpless man could start a fire only near to where he lay.
       I returned to Wolf Larsen's bunk. There I encountered Maud. How
       long she had been there in that suffocating atmosphere I could not
       guess.
       "Go up on deck!" I commanded peremptorily.
       "But, Humphrey - " she began to protest in a queer, husky voice.
       "Please! please!" I shouted at her harshly.
       She drew away obediently, and then I thought, What if she cannot
       find the steps? I started after her, to stop at the foot of the
       companion-way. Perhaps she had gone up. As I stood there,
       hesitant, I heard her cry softly:
       "Oh, Humphrey, I am lost."
       I found her fumbling at the wall of the after bulkhead, and, half
       leading her, half carrying her, I took her up the companion-way.
       The pure air was like nectar. Maud was only faint and dizzy, and I
       left her lying on the deck when I took my second plunge below.
       The source of the smoke must be very close to Wolf Larsen - my mind
       was made up to this, and I went straight to his bunk. As I felt
       about among his blankets, something hot fell on the back of my
       hand. It burned me, and I jerked my hand away. Then I understood.
       Through the cracks in the bottom of the upper bunk he had set fire
       to the mattress. He still retained sufficient use of his left arm
       to do this. The damp straw of the mattress, fired from beneath and
       denied air, had been smouldering all the while.
       As I dragged the mattress out of the bunk it seemed to disintegrate
       in mid-air, at the same time bursting into flames. I beat out the
       burning remnants of straw in the bunk, then made a dash for the
       deck for fresh air.
       Several buckets of water sufficed to put out the burning mattress
       in the middle of the steerage floor; and ten minutes later, when
       the smoke had fairly cleared, I allowed Maud to come below. Wolf
       Larsen was unconscious, but it was a matter of minutes for the
       fresh air to restore him. We were working over him, however, when
       he signed for paper and pencil.
       "Pray do not interrupt me," he wrote. "I am smiling."
       "I am still a bit of the ferment, you see," he wrote a little
       later.
       "I am glad you are as small a bit as you are," I said.
       "Thank you," he wrote. "But just think of how much smaller I shall
       be before I die."
       "And yet I am all here, Hump," he wrote with a final flourish. "I
       can think more clearly than ever in my life before. Nothing to
       disturb me. Concentration is perfect. I am all here and more than
       here."
       It was like a message from the night of the grave; for this man's
       body had become his mausoleum. And there, in so strange sepulchre,
       his spirit fluttered and lived. It would flutter and live till the
       last line of communication was broken, and after that who was to
       say how much longer it might continue to flutter and live? _