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Prisoner in Fairyland, A
CHAPTER V
Algernon Blackwood
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       _ Oh! thou art fairer than the evening air
       Clad in the beauty of a thousand stars.
       Doctor Famtus, CHRISTOPHER MARLOWE.
       The plop of a water-rat in the pond that occupied the rock-garden in
       the middle of the lawn brought him back to earth, and the Vicar's
       invitation to tea flashed across his mind.
       'Stock Exchange and typewriters!' he exclaimed, 'how rude he'll think
       me!' And he rubbed something out of his eyes. He gave one long,
       yearning glance at the spangled sky where an inquisitive bat darted
       zigzag several times between himself and the Pleiades, that bunch of
       star-babies as yet unborn, as the blue-eyed guard used to call them.
       'And I shall miss my supper and bed into the bargain!'
       He turned reluctantly from his place beside the lime trees, and
       crossed the lawn now wet with dew. The whole house seemed to turn its
       hooded head and watch him go, staring with amusement in its many
       lidless eyes. On the front lawn there was more light, for it faced the
       dying sunset. The Big and Little Cedar rose from their pools of
       shadow, beautifully poised. Like stately dowagers in voluminous skirts
       of velvet they seemed to curtsey to him as he passed. Stars like
       clusters of sprinkled blossoms hung upon their dignified old heads.
       The whole place seemed aware of him. Glancing a moment at the upper
       nursery windows, he could just distinguish the bars through which his
       little hands once netted stars, and as he did so a meteor shot across
       the sky its flashing light of wonder. Behind the Little Cedar it dived
       into the sunset afterglow. And, hardly had it dipped away, when
       another, coming crosswise from the south, drove its length of molten,
       shining wire straight against the shoulder of the Big Cedar.
       The whole performance seemed arranged expressly for his benefit. The
       Net was loosed--this Net of Stars and Thoughts--perhaps to go
       elsewhere. For this was taking out the golden nails, surely. It would
       hardly have surprised him next to see the Starlight Express he had
       been dreaming about dart across the heavens overhead. That cool air
       stealing towards him from the kitchen-garden might well have been the
       wind of its going. He could almost hear the distant rush and murmur of
       its flying mass.
       'How extraordinarily vivid it all was!' he thought to himself, as he
       hurried down the drive. 'What detail! What a sense of reality! How
       carefully I must have _thought_ these creatures as a boy! How
       thoroughly! And what a good idea to go out and see Jack's children at
       Bourcelles. They've never known these English sprites. I'll introduce
       'em!'
       He thought it out in detail, very vividly indeed. His imagination
       lingered over it and gave it singular reality.
       Up the road he fairly ran. For Henry Rogers was a punctual man; these
       last twenty years he had never once been late for anything. It had
       been part of the exact training he had schooled himself with, and the
       Vicar's invitation was not one he desired to trifle with. He made his
       peace, indeed, easily enough, although the excuses sounded a little
       thin. It was something of a shock, too, to find that the married
       daughter after all was not the blue-eyed girl of his boyhood's
       passion. For it was Joan, not May, who came down the gravel path
       between the roses to greet him.
       On the way up he had felt puzzled. Yet 'bemused,' perhaps, is the word
       that Herbert Minks would have chosen for one of his poems, to describe
       a state of mind he, however, had never experienced himself. And he
       would have chosen it instinctively--for onomatopoeic reasons--because
       it hums and drones and murmurs dreamily. 'Puzzled' was too sharp a
       word.
       Yet Henry Rogers, who felt it, said 'puzzled' without more ado,
       although mind, imagination, memory all hummed and buzzed pleasantly
       about his ears even while he did so.
       'A dream is a dream,' he reflected as he raced along the familiar
       dusty road in the twilight, 'and a reverie is a reverie; but that, I'd
       swear, went a bit further than either one or t'other. It puzzles me.
       Does vivid thinking, I wonder, make pictures everywhere?... And--can
       they last?'
       For the detailed reality of the experience had been remarkable, and
       the actuality of those childhood's creations scarcely belonged to
       dream or reverie. They were certainly quite as real as the sleek
       Directors who sat round the long Board Room table, fidgeting with fat
       quill pens and pewter ink-pots; more alive even than the Leading
       Shareholder who rose so pompously at Annual Meetings to second the
       resolution that the 'Report and Balance Sheet be adopted without
       criticism.'
       And he was conscious that in himself rose, too, a deep, passionate
       willingness to accept the whole experience, also 'without criticism.'
       Those picturesque passengers in the Starlight Express he knew so
       intimately, so affectionately, that he actually missed them. He felt
       that he had said good-bye to genuine people. He regretted their
       departure, and was keenly sorry he had not gone off with them--such a
       merry, wild, adventurous crew! He must find them again, whatever
       happened. There was a yearning in him to travel with that blue-eyed
       guard among the star-fields. He would go out to Bourcelles and tell
       the story to the children. He thought very hard indeed about it all.
       And now, in the Vicarage drawing-room after dinner, his bemusement
       increased rather than grew less. His mind had already confused a face
       and name. The blue-eyed May was not, after all, the girl of his
       boyhood's dream. His memory had been accurate enough with the
       passengers in the train. There was no confusion there. But this gentle
       married woman, who sang to her own accompaniment at her father's
       request, was not the mischievous, wilful creature who had teased and
       tortured his heart in years gone by, and had helped him construct the
       sprites and train and star-trips. It was, surely, the other daughter
       who had played that delicious role. Yet, either his memory was at
       fault, or the Vicar had mixed the names up. The years had played this
       little unimportant trick upon him anyhow. And that was clear.
       But if with so-called real people such an error was possible, how
       could he be sure of anything? Which after all, he asked himself, was
       real? It was the Vicar's mistake, he learned later, for May was now a
       teacher in London; but the trivial incident served to point this
       confusion in his mind between an outer and an inner world--to the
       disadvantage, if anything, of the former.
       And over the glass of port together, while they talked pleasantly of
       vanished days, Rogers was conscious that a queer, secret amusement
       sheltered in his heart, due to some faint, superior knowledge that
       this Past they spoke of had not moved away at all, but listened with
       fun and laughter just behind his shoulder, watching them. The old
       gentleman seemed never tired of remembering his escapades. He told
       them one after another, like some affectionate nurse or mother, Rogers
       thought, whose children were--to her--unique and wonderful. For he had
       really loved this good-for-nothing pupil, loved him the more, as
       mothers and nurses do, because of the trouble he had given, and
       because of his busy and fertile imagination. It made Rogers feel
       ridiculously young again as he listened. He could almost have played a
       trick upon him then and there, merely to justify the tales. And once
       or twice he actually called him 'Sir.' So that even the conversation
       helped to deepen this bemusement that gathered somewhat tenderly about
       his mind. He cracked his walnuts and watched the genial, peace-lit
       eyes across the table. He chuckled. Both chuckled. They spoke of his
       worldly success too--it seemed unimportant somehow now, although he
       was conscious that something in him expected, nay demanded tribute--
       but the former tutor kept reverting to the earlier days before
       achievement.
       'You were indeed a boy of mischief, wonder, and mystery,' he said, his
       eyes twinkling and his tone almost affectionate; 'you made the whole
       place alive with those creatures of your imagination. How Joan helped
       you too--or was it May? I used to wonder sometimes--' he glanced up
       rather searchingly at his companion a moment--' whether the people who
       took the Manor House after your family left did not encounter them
       sometimes upon the lawn or among the shrubberies in the dusk--those
       sprites of yours. Eh?' He passed a neatly pared walnut across the
       table to his guest. 'These ghosts that people nowadays explain
       scientifically--what are they but thoughts visualised by vivid
       thinking such as yours was--creative thinking? They may be just
       pictures created in moments of strong passionate feeling that persist
       for centuries and reach other minds direct They're not seen with the
       outer eye; that's certain, for no two people ever see them together.
       But I'm sure these pictures flame up through the mind sometimes just
       as clearly as some folk see Grey Ladies and the rest flit down the
       stairs at midnight.'
       They munched their walnuts a moment in silence. Rogers listened very
       keenly. How curious, he reflected, that the talk should lie this way.
       But he said nothing, hoping that the other would go on.
       'And if you really believed in your things,' the older man continued
       presently, 'as I am sure you did believe, then your old Dustman and
       Sweep and Lamplighter, your Woman of the Haystack and your Net of
       Stars and Star Train--all these, for instance, must still be living,
       where you left them, waiting perhaps for your return to lead their
       fresh adventures.'
       Rogers stared at him, choking a little over a nut he had swallowed too
       hurriedly.
       'Yet,' mused on the other, 'it's hardly likely the family that
       succeeded you met them. There were no children!'
       'Ah,' exclaimed the pupil impulsively, 'that's significant, yes--no
       children.' He looked up quickly, questioningly.
       'Very, I admit.'
       'Besides, the chief Magician had gone away into the City. They
       wouldn't answer to anybody's call, you know.'
       'True again. But the Magician never forgot them quite, I'll be bound,'
       he added. 'They're only in hiding till his return, perhaps!' And his
       bright eyes twinkled knowingly.
       'But, Vicar, really, you know, that is an extraordinary idea you have
       there-a wonderful idea. Do you really think--?'
       'I only mean,' the other replied more gravely, 'that what a man
       thinks, and makes with thinking, is the real thing. It's in the heart
       that sin is first real. The act is the least important end of it--
       grave only because it is the inevitable result of the thinking. Action
       is merely delayed thinking, after all. Don't think ghosts and bogeys,
       I always say to children, or you'll surely see them.'
       'Ah, in _that_ sense--!'
       'In any sense your mind and intuition can grasp. The thought that
       leaves your brain, provided it be a real thought strongly fashioned,
       goes all over the world, and may reach any other brain tuned to its
       acceptance. _You_ should understand that!' he laughed significantly.
       'I do,' said Rogers hastily, as though he felt ashamed of himself or
       were acknowledging a fault in his construing of Homer. 'I understand
       it perfectly. Only I put all those things--imaginative things--aside
       when I went into business. I had to concentrate my energies upon
       making money.'
       'You did, yes. Ah!' was the rejoinder, as though he would fain have
       added, 'And was that wise?'
       'And I made it, Vicar; you see, I've made it.' He was not exactly
       nettled, but he wanted a word of recognition for his success. 'But you
       know why, don't you?' he added, ashamed the same moment. There was a
       pause, during which both looked closely at their broken nuts. From one
       of the men came a sigh.
       'Yes,' resumed the older man presently, 'I remember your great dream
       perfectly well, and a noble one it was too. Its fulfilment now, I
       suppose, lies well within your reach? You have the means to carry it
       out, eh? You have indeed been truly blessed.' He eyed him again with
       uncommon keenness, though a smile ran from the eyes and mouth even up
       to the forehead and silvery hair. 'The world, I see, has not yet
       poisoned you. To carry it out as you once explained it to me would be
       indeed success. If I remember rightly,' he added, 'it was a--er--a
       Scheme for Disabled--'
       Rogers interrupted him quickly. 'And I am full of the same big dream
       still,' he repeated almost shyly. 'The money I have made I regard as
       lent to me for investment. I wish to use it, to give it away as one
       gives flowers. I feel sure--'
       He stopped abruptly, caught by the glow of enthusiasm that had leaped
       into the other's face with a strangely beautiful expression.
       'You never did anything by halves, I remember,' the Vicar said,
       looking at him proudly. 'You were always in earnest, even in your
       play, and I don't mind telling you that I've often prayed for
       something of that zeal of yours--that zeal for others. It's a
       remarkable gift. You will never bury it, will you?' He spoke eagerly,
       passionately, leaning forward a little across the table. 'Few have it
       nowadays; it grows rarer with the luxury and self-seeking of the age.
       It struck me so in you as a boy, that even your sprites worked not for
       themselves but for others--your Dustman, your Sweep, your absurd
       Lamplighter, all were busy doing wonderful things to help their
       neighbours, all, too, without reward.'
       Rogers flushed like a boy. But he felt the thrill of his dream course
       through him like great fires. Wherein was any single thing in the
       world worth doing, any object of life worth following, unless as means
       to an end, and that end helping some one else. One's own little
       personal dreams became exhausted in a few years, endeavours for self
       smothered beneath the rain of disappointments; but others, and work
       for others, this was endless and inexhaustible.
       'I've sometimes thought,' he heard the older man going on, 'that in
       the dusk I saw'--his voice lowered and he glanced towards the windows
       where the rose trees stood like little figures, cloaked and bonneted
       with beauty beneath the stars--'that I saw your Dustman scattering his
       golden powder as he came softly up the path, and that some of it
       reached my own eyes, too; or that your swift Lamplighter lent me a
       moment his gold-tipped rod of office so that I might light fires of
       hope in suffering hearts here in this tiny world of my own parish.
       Your dreadful Head Gardener, too! And your Song of the Blue-Eyes
       Fairy,' he added slyly, almost mischievously, 'you remember that, I
       wonder?'
       'H'm--a little, yes--something,' replied Rogers confusedly. 'It was a
       dreadful doggerel. But I've got a secretary now,' he continued
       hurriedly and in rather a louder voice,' a fellow named Minks, a jewel
       really of a secretary he is--and he, I believe, can write real--'
       'It was charming enough for us all to have remembered it, anyhow,' the
       Vicar stopped him, smiling at his blushes,' and for May--or was it
       Joan? dear me, how I do forget names!--to have set it to music. She
       had a little gift that way, you may remember; and, before she took up
       teaching she wrote one or two little things like that.'
       'Ah, did she really?' murmured the other. He scarcely knew what he was
       saying, for a mist of blue had risen before his eyes, and in it he was
       seeing pictures. 'The Spell of Blue, wasn't it, or something like
       that?' he said a moment later, 'blue, the colour of beauty in flowers,
       sea, sky, distance--the childhood colour par excellence?'
       'But chiefly in the eyes of children, yes,' the Vicar helped him,
       rising at the same time from the table. 'It was the spell, the
       passport, the open sesame to most of your adventures. Come now, if you
       won't have another glass of port, and we'll go into the drawing-room,
       and Joan, May I mean--no, Joan, of course, shall sing it to you. For
       this is a very special occasion for us, you know,' he added as they
       passed across the threshold side by side. 'To see you is to go back
       with you to Fairyland.'
       The piano was being idly strummed as they went in, and the player was
       easily persuaded to sing the little song. It floated through the open
       windows and across the lawn as the two men in their corners listened.
       She knew it by heart, as though she often played it. The candles were
       not lit. Dusk caught the sound and muted it enchantingly. And somehow
       the simple melody helped to conceal the meagreness of the childish
       words. Everywhere, from sky and lawn and solemn trees, the Past came
       softly in and listened too.
       There's a Fairy that hides in the beautiful eyes
       Of children who treat her well;
       In the little round hole where the eyeball lies
       She weaves her magical spell.
       Oh, tell it to me,
       Oh, how can it be,
       This Spell of the Blue-Eyes Fairy.
       Well,--the eyes must be blue,
       And the heart must be true,
       And the child must be _better_ than gold;
       And then, if you'll let her,
       The quicker the better,
       She'll make you forget that you're old,
       That you're heavy and stupid, and--old!
       So, if such a child you should chance to see,
       Or with such a child to play,
       No matter how weary and dull you be,
       Nor how many tons you weigh;
       You will suddenly find that you're young again,
       And your movements are light and airy,
       And you'll try to be solemn and stiff in vain--
       It's the Spell of the Blue-Eyes Fairy!
       Now I've told it to you,
       And you _know_ it is true--
       It's the Spell of the Blue-Eyes Fairy!
       'And it's the same spell,' said the old man in his corner as the last
       notes died away, and they sat on some minutes longer in the fragrant
       darkness, 'that you cast about us as a boy, Henry Rogers, when you
       made that wonderful Net of Stars and fastened it with your comets'
       nails to the big and little cedars. The one catches your heart, you
       see, while the other gets your feet and head and arms till you're a
       hopeless prisoner--a prisoner in Fairyland.'
       'Only the world to-day no longer believes in Fairyland,' was the
       reply, 'and even the children have become scientific. Perhaps it's
       only buried though. The two ought to run in harness really--opposite
       interpretations of the universe. One might revive it--here and there
       perhaps. Without it, all the tenderness seems leaking out of life--'
       Joan presently said good-night, but the other two waited on a little
       longer; and before going to bed they took a turn outside among the
       flower-beds and fruit-trees that formed the tangled Vicarage garden at
       the back. It was uncommonly warm for a night in early spring. The
       lilacs were in bud, and the air most exquisitely scented.
       Rogers felt himself swept back wonderfully among his early years. It
       seemed almost naughty to be out at such an hour instead of asleep in
       bed. It was quite ridiculous--but he loved the feeling and let himself
       go with happy willingness. The story of 'Vice Versa,' where a man
       really became a boy again, passed through his mind and made him laugh.
       And the old Vicar kept on feeding the semi-serious mood with what
       seemed almost intentional sly digs. Yet the digs were not intentional,
       really; it was merely that his listener, already prepared by his
       experience with the Starlight Express, read into them these searching
       meanings of his own. Something in him was deeply moved.
       'You might make a great teacher, you know,' suggested his companion,
       stooping to sniff a lilac branch as they paused a moment. 'I thought
       so years ago; I think so still. You've kept yourself so simple.'
       'How not to do most things,' laughed the other, glad of the darkness.
       'How to do the big and simple things,' was the rejoinder; 'and do them
       well, without applause. You have Belief.'
       'Too much, perhaps. I simply can't get rid of it.'
       'Don't try to. It's belief that moves the world; people want teachers
       --that's my experience in the pulpit and the parish; a world in
       miniature, after all--but they won't listen to a teacher who hasn't
       got it. There are no great poets to-day, only great discoverers. The
       poets, the interpreters of discovery, are gone--starved out of life by
       ridicule, and by questions to which exact answers are impossible. With
       your imagination and belief you might help a world far larger than
       this parish of mine at any rate. I envy you.'
       Goodness! how the kind eyes searched his own in this darkness. Though
       little susceptible to flattery, he was aware of something huge the
       words stirred in the depths of him, something far bigger than he yet
       had dreamed of even in his boyhood, something that made his cherished
       Scheme seem a little pale and faded.
       'Take the whole world with you into fairyland,' he heard the low voice
       come murmuring in his ear across the lilacs. And there was starlight
       in it--that gentle, steady brilliance that steals into people while
       they sleep and dream, tracing patterns of glory they may recognise
       when they wake, yet marvelling whence it came. 'The world wants its
       fairyland back again, and won't be happy till it gets it.'
       A bird listening to them in the stillness sang a little burst of song,
       then paused again to listen.
       'Once give them of your magic, and each may shape his fairyland as he
       chooses...' the musical voice ran on.
       The flowers seemed alive and walking. This was a voice of beauty. Some
       lilac bud was singing in its sleep. Sirius had dropped a ray across
       its lips of blue and coaxed it out to dance. There was a murmur and a
       stir among the fruit-trees too. The apple blossoms painted the
       darkness with their tiny fluttering dresses, while old Aldebaran
       trimmed them silently with gold, and partners from the Milky Way swept
       rustling down to lead the violets out. Oh, there was revelry to-night,
       and the fairy spell of the blue-eyed Spring was irresistible....
       'But the world will never dance,' he whispered sadly, half to himself
       perhaps; 'it's far too weary.'
       'It will follow a leader,' came the soft reply, 'who dances well and
       pipes the true old music so that it can hear. Belief inspires it
       always. And that Belief you have.' There was a curious vibration in
       his voice; he spoke from his heart, and his heart was evidently moved.
       'I wonder when it came to me, then, and how?'
       The Vicar turned and faced him where they stood beneath the lime
       trees. Their scent was pouring out as from phials uncorked by the
       stars.
       'It came,' he caught the answer that thrilled with earnestness, 'when
       you saw the lame boy on the village hill and cried. As long ago as
       that it came.'
       His mind, as he listened, became a plot of fresh-turned earth the Head
       Gardener filled with flowers. A mass of covering stuff the years had
       laid ever thicker and thicker was being shovelled away. The flowers he
       saw being planted there were very tiny ones. But they would grow. A
       leaf from some far-off rocky mount of olive trees dropped fluttering
       through the air and marvellously took root and grew. He felt for a
       moment the breath of night air that has been tamed by an eastern sun.
       He saw a group of men, bare-headed, standing on the slopes, and in
       front of them a figure of glory teaching little, simple things they
       found it hard to understand....
       'You have the big and simple things alive in you,' the voice carried
       on his pictured thought among the flowers. 'In your heart they lie all
       waiting to be used. Nothing can smother them. Only-you must give them
       out.'
       'If only I knew how--!'
       'Keep close to the children,' sifted the strange answer through the
       fruit-trees; 'the world is a big child. And catch it when it lies
       asleep--not thinking of itself,' he whispered.
       'The time is so short--'
       'At forty you stand upon the threshold of life, with values learned
       and rubbish cleared away. So many by that time are already dead--in
       heart. I envy your opportunities ahead. You have learned already one
       foundation truth--the grandeur of toil and the insignificance of
       acquisition. The other foundation thing is even simpler--you have a
       neighbour. Now, with your money to give as flowers, and your Belief to
       steer you straight, you have the world before you. And--keep close to
       the children.'
       'Before there are none left,' added Rogers under his breath. But the
       other heard the words and instantly corrected him--
       'Children of any age, and wherever you may find them.'
       And they turned slowly and made their way in silence across the
       soaking lawn, entering the house by the drawing-room window.
       'Good-night,' the old man said, as he lit his candle and led him to
       his room; 'and pleasant, happy, inspiring dreams.'
       He seemed to say it with some curious, heartfelt meaning in the common
       words. He disappeared slowly down the passage, shading the candle with
       one hand to pick his way, and Rogers watched him out of sight, then
       turned and entered his own room, closing the door as softly as
       possible behind him.
       It had been an astonishing conversation. All his old enthusiasm was
       stirred. Embers leaped to flame. No woman ever had done as much. This
       old fellow, once merely respected tutor, had given him back his first
       original fire and zeal, yet somehow cleansed and purified. And it
       humbled him at the same time. Dead leaves, dropped year by year in his
       City life, were cleared away as though a mighty wind had swept him.
       The Gardener was burning up dead leaves; the Sweep was cleaning out
       the flues; the Lamplighter waving his golden signal in the sky--far
       ahead, it is true, but gleaming like a torch and beacon. The Starlight
       Express was travelling at top speed among the constellations. He stood
       at the beginning of the important part of life....
       And now, as he lay in bed and heard the owls hooting in the woods, and
       smelt the flowers through the open window, his thoughts followed
       strongly after that old Star Train that he used to drive about the
       sky. He was both engine-driver and passenger. He fell asleep to dream
       of it.
       And all the vital and enchanting thoughts of his boyhood flowed back
       upon him with a rush, as though they had never been laid aside. He
       remembered particularly one singular thing about them--that they had
       never seemed quite his own, but that he had either read or heard them
       somewhere else. As a child the feeling was always strong that these
       'jolly thoughts,' as he called them, were put into him by some one
       else--some one who whispered to him--some one who lived close behind
       his ears. He had to listen very hard to catch them. It was _not_
       dreams, yet all night long, especially when he slept tightly, as he
       phrased it, this fairy whispering continued, and in the daytime he
       remembered what he could and made up his stories accordingly. He stole
       these ideas about a Star Net and a Starlight Express. One day he would
       be caught and punished for it. It was trespassing upon the preserves
       of some one else.
       Yet he could never discover who this some one else was, except that it
       was a 'she' and lived among the stars, only coming out at night. He
       imagined she hid behind that little dusty constellation called the
       Pleiades, and that was why the Pleiades wore a veil and were so dim--
       lest he should find her out. And once, behind the blue gaze of the
       guard-girl, who was out of his heart by this time, he had known a
       moment of thrilling wonder that was close to awe. He saw another pair
       of eyes gazing out at him They were ambery eyes, as he called them--
       just what was to be expected from a star. And, so great was the shock,
       that at first he stood dead still and gasped, then dashed up suddenly
       close to her and stared into her face, frightening her so much that
       she fell backwards, and the amber eyes vanished instantly. It was the
       'some one else' who whispered fairy stories to him and lived behind
       his ear. For a second she had been marvellously close. And he had lost
       her!
       From that moment, however, his belief in her increased enormously, and
       he never saw a pair of brown-ambery eyes without feeling sure that she
       was somewhere close about him. The lame boy, for instance, had the
       same delicate tint in his sad, long, questioning gaze. His own collie
       had it too! For years it was an obsession with him, haunting and
       wonderful--the knowledge that some one who watched close beside him,
       filling his mind with fairy thoughts, might any moment gaze into his
       face through a pair of ordinary familiar eyes. And he was certain that
       all his star-imagination about the Net, the Starlight Express, and the
       Cave of Lost Starlight came first into him from this hidden 'some one
       else' who brought the Milky Way down into his boy's world of fantasy.
       'If ever I meet her in real life,' he used to say, 'I'm done for. She
       is my Star Princess!'
       And now, as he fell asleep, the old atmosphere of that Kentish garden
       drew thickly over him, shaking out clusters of stars about his bed.
       Dreams usually are determined by something more remote than the talk
       that has just preceded going to bed, but to-night it was otherwise.
       And two things the old Vicar had let fall--two things sufficiently
       singular, it seemed, when he came to think about them--influenced his
       night adventures. 'Catch the world when it's asleep,' and 'Keep close
       to the children'--these somehow indicated the route his dream should
       follow. For he headed the great engine straight for the village in the
       Jura pine woods where his cousin's children lived. He did not know
       these children, and had seen his cousin but rarely in recent years;
       yet, it seemed, they came to meet the train up among the mountain
       forests somewhere. For in this village, where he had gone to study
       French, the moods of his own childhood had somehow known continuation
       and development. The place had once been very dear to him, and he had
       known delightful adventures there, many of them with this cousin. Now
       he took all his own childhood's sprites out in this Starlight Express
       and introduced them to these transplanted children who had never made
       acquaintance with the English breed. They had surprising, wild
       adventures all together, yet in the morning he could remember very
       little of it all. The interfering sun melted them all down in dew. The
       adventures had some object, however; that was clear; though what the
       object was, except that it did good somewhere to. some one, was gone,
       lost in the deeps of sleep behind him. They scurried about the world.
       The sprites were very active indeed--quite fussily energetic. And his
       Scheme for Disabled Something-or other was not anywhere discoverable
       in these escapades. That seemed forgotten rather, as though they found
       bigger, more important things to do, and nearer home too. Perhaps the
       Vicar's hint about the 'Neighbour' was responsible for that. Anyhow,
       the dream was very vivid, even though the morning sun melted it away
       so quickly and completely. It seemed continuous too. It filled the
       entire night.
       Yet the thing that Rogers took off with him to town next morning was,
       more than any other detail, the memory of what the old tutor had said
       about the living reality and persistence of figures that passionate
       thinking has created--that, and the value of Belief. _