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Absalom’s Hair; and A Painful Memory
Chapter 1
Bjornstjerne Bjornson
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       Chapter 1
       Harald Kaas was sixty.
       He had given up his free, uncriticised bachelor life; his yacht
       was no longer seen off the coast in summer; his tours to England
       and the south had ceased; nay, he was rarely to be found even at
       his club in Christiania. His gigantic figure was never seen in the
       doorways; he was failing.
       Bandy-legged he had always been, but this defect had increased;
       his herculean back was rounded, and he stooped a little. His
       forehead, always of the broadest--no one else's hat would fit him-
       -was now one of the highest, that is to say, he had lost all his
       hair, except a ragged lock over each ear and a thin fringe behind.
       He was beginning also to lose his teeth, which were strong though
       small, and blackened by tobacco; and now, instead of "deuce take
       it" he said "deush take it."
       He had always held his hands half closed as though grasping
       something; now they had stiffened so that he could never open them
       fully. The little finger of his left hand had been bitten off "in
       gratitude" by an adversary whom he had knocked down: according to
       Harald's version of the story, he had compelled the fellow to
       swallow the piece on the spot.
       He was fond of caressing the stump, and it often served as an
       introduction to the history of his exploits, which became greater
       and greater as he grew older and quieter.
       His small sharp eyes were deep set and looked at one with great
       intensity. There was power in his individuality, and, besides
       shrewd sense, he possessed a considerable gift for mechanics. His
       boundless self-esteem was not devoid of greatness, and the
       emphasis with which both body and soul proclaimed themselves made
       him one of the originals of the country.
       Why was he nothing more?
       He lived on his estate, Hellebergene, whose large woods skirted
       the coast, while numerous leasehold farms lay along the course of
       the river. At one time this estate had belonged to the Kurt
       family, and had now come back to them, in so far as that Harald's
       father, as every one knew, was not a Kaas at all, but a Kurt; it
       was he who had got the estate together again; a book might be
       written about the ways and means that he had employed.
       The house looked out over a bay studded with islands; farther out
       were more islands and the open sea. An immensely long building,
       raised on an old and massive foundation, its eastern wing barely
       half furnished, the western inhabited by Harald Kaas, who lived
       his curious life here.
       These wings were connected by two covered galleries, one above the
       other, with stairs at each end.
       Curiously enough, these galleries did not face the sea, that is,
       the south, but the fields and woods to the north. The portion of
       the house between the two wings was a neutral territory--namely, a
       large dining-room with a ballroom above it, neither of which was
       used in later years.
       Harald Kaas's suite of rooms was distinguished from without by a
       mighty elk's head with its enormous antlers, which was set up over
       the gallery.
       In the gallery itself were heads of bear, wolf, fox and lynx, with
       stuffed birds from land and sea. Skins and guns hung on the walls
       of the anteroom, the inner rooms were also full of skins and
       impregnated with the smell of wild animals and tobacco-smoke.
       Harald himself called it "Man-smell;" no one who had once put his
       nose inside could ever forget it.
       Valuable and beautiful skins hung on the walls and covered the
       floors; his very bed was nothing else; Harald Kaas lay, and sat,
       and walked on skins, and each one of them was a welcome subject of
       conversation, for he had shot and flayed every single animal
       himself. To be sure, there were those who hinted that most of the
       skins had been bought from Brand and Company, of Bergen, and that
       only the stories were shot and flayed at home.
       I for my part think that this was an exaggeration; but be that as
       it may, the effect was equally thrilling when Harald Kaas, seated
       in his log chair by the fireside, his feet on the bearskin, opened
       his shirt to show us the scars on his hairy chest (and what scars
       they were!) which had been made by the bear's teeth, when he had
       driven his knife, right up to the haft, into the monster's heart.
       All the queer tankards, and cupboards, and carved chairs listened
       with their wonted impassiveness.
       Harald Kaas was sixty, when, in the month of July, he sailed into
       the bay accompanied by four ladies whom he had brought from the
       steamer--an elderly lady and three young ones, all related to him.
       They were to stay with him until August.
       They occupied the upper storey. From it they could hear him
       walking about and grunting below them. They began to feel a little
       nervous. Indeed, three of them had had serious misgivings about
       accepting the invitation; and these misgivings were not diminished
       when, next morning, they saw Kaas composedly strolling up from the
       sea stark naked!
       They screamed, and, gathering together, still in their nightgowns,
       held a council of war as to the advisability of leaving at once;
       but when one of them cried "You should not have called us, Aunt,
       and then we should not have seen him," they could not help
       laughing, and therewith the whole affair ended. Certainly they
       were a little stiff at breakfast; but when Harold Kaas began a
       story about an old black mare of his which was in love with a
       young brown horse over at the Dean's, and which plunged madly if
       any other horse came near her, but, on the other hand, put her
       head coaxingly on one side and whinnied "like a dainty girl"
       whenever the parson's horse came that way--well, at that they had
       to give in, as well first as last.
       If they had strayed here out of curiosity they must just put up
       with the "NIGHT side of nature," as Harald Kaas expressed it, with
       the stress on the first word.
       For all that they were nearly frightened out of their wits the
       very next night, when he discharged his gun right under their
       windows. The aunt even asserted that he had shot through her open
       casement. She screamed loudly, and the others, starting from their
       sleep, were out on the floor before they knew where they were.
       Then they crouched in the windows and peeped out, although their
       aunt declared that they would certainly be shot--they really must
       see what it was.
       Yes! there they saw him among the cherry and apple trees, gun in
       hand, and they could hear him swearing. In the greatest
       trepidation they crept back into bed again. Next morning they
       learned that he had shot at some night prowlers, one of whom had
       got "half the charge in his leg, that he had, Deush take him! It
       ain't the prowling I mind, but that he should prowl here. We
       bachelors will have no one poaching on our preserves."
       The four ladies sat as stiff as four church candles, till at
       length one of them sprang up with a scream, the others joining in
       chorus.
       The visitors were not bored; Harald Kaas dealt too much in the
       unexpected for that. There was a charm, too, in the great woods,
       where there had been no felling since he had come into the
       property, and there were merry walks by the riverside and plenty
       of fish in the river.
       They bathed, they took delightful sails in the cutter and drives
       about the neighbourhood, though certainly the turn-out was none of
       the smartest.
       The youngest of the girls, Kristen Ravn, presently became less
       eager to join in these expeditions. She had fallen in love with
       the disused east wing of the house, and there she spent many a
       long hour, alone by the open window, gazing out at the great lime-
       trees which stood straggling, gaunt, and mysterious.
       "You ought to build a balcony here, out towards the sea," she
       said. "Look how the water glitters between the limes."
       When once she had hit upon a plan, Kristen Ravn never relinquished
       it, and when she bad suggested it some four or five times, he
       promised that it should be done. But on the heels of this scheme
       came another.
       "Below the first balcony there must be another wider one," said
       she in her soft voice, "and it must have steps at each end down to
       the lawn--the lawn is so lovely just here."
       The unheard-of presumption of her demand inoculated him with the
       idea, and at length he consented to this as well.
       "The rooms must be refurnished," she gravely commanded. "The one
       next to the balcony which is to be built under here shall be in
       yellow pine, and the floor must be polished." She pointed with her
       long delicate hand. "ALL the floors must be polished. I will give
       you the design for the room above, I have thought it carefully
       out." And in imagination she papered the walls, arranged the
       furniture, and hung up curtains of wondrous patterns.
       "I know, too, how the other rooms are to be done," she added. And
       she went from one to the other, remaining a little while in each.
       He followed, like an old horse led by the bridle.
       Before their visit was half over he most coolly neglected three
       out of his four guests.
       His deep-set eyes twinkled with the liveliest admiration whenever
       she approached. He sought in the faces of the others the
       admiration which he himself felt: he would amble round her like an
       old photographic camera which had the power of setting itself up.
       But from the day when she took down from his bookshelf a French
       work on mechanics, a subject with which she was evidently
       acquainted and for which she declared that she had a natural
       aptitude, it was all over with him. From that day forward, if she
       were present, he effaced himself both in word and action.
       In the mornings when he met her in one of her characteristic
       costumes he laughed softly, or gazed and gazed at her, and then
       glanced towards the others. She did not talk much, but every word
       that she uttered aroused his admiration. But he was most of all
       captivated when she sat quietly apart, heedless of every one: at
       such times he resembled an old parrot expectant of sugar.
       His linen had always been snowy white, but beyond this he had
       taken no special pains with his toilet; but now he strutted about
       in a Tussore silk coat, which he had bought in Algiers, but had at
       once put aside because it was too tight--he looked like a clipt
       box hedge in it.
       Now, who was this lion-tamer of twenty-one, who, without in the
       least wishing to do so, unconsciously even (she was the quietest
       of the party), had made the monarch of the forest crouch at her
       feet and gaze at her in abject humility?
       Look at her, as she sits there, with her loose shining hair of the
       prettiest shade of dark red; look at her broad forehead and
       prominent nose, but more than all at those large wondering eyes;
       look at her throat and neck, her tall slight figure; notice
       especially the Renaissance dress which she wears, its style and
       colour, and your curiosity will still remain unsatisfied, for she
       has an individuality all her own.
       Kristen Ravn had lost her mother at her birth and her father when
       she was five years old. The latter left her a handsome fortune,
       with the express condition that the investments should not be
       changed, and that the income should be for her own use whether she
       married or not. He hoped by this means to form her character. She
       was brought up by three different members of her wide-branching
       family, a family which might more properly be termed a clan,
       although they had no common characteristics beyond a desire to go
       their own way.
       When two Ravns meet they, as a rule, differ on every subject; but
       as a race they hold religiously together--indeed, in their eyes
       there is no other family which is "amusing," the favourite
       adjective of the Ravns.
       Kristen had a receptive nature; she read everything, and
       remembered what she read; that is say, she had a logical mind, for
       a retentive memory implies an orderly brain. She was consequently
       NUMBER ONE in everything which she took up. This, coupled with the
       fact that she lived among those who regarded her somewhat as a
       speculation, and consequently flattered her, had early made an
       impression on her nature, quite as great, indeed, as the
       possession of money.
       She was by no means proud, it was not in the Ravn nature to be so;
       but at ten years old she had left off playing; she preferred to
       wander in the woods and compose ballads. At twelve she insisted on
       wearing silk dresses, and, in the teeth of an aunt all curls and
       lace and with a terrible flow of words, she carried her point. She
       held herself erect and prim in her silks, and still remained
       NUMBER ONE. She composed verses about Sir Adge and Maid Else,
       about birds and flowers and sad things.
       On reaching the age at which other girls, who have the means,
       begin to wear silk dresses, she left them off. She was tired, she
       said, of the "smooth and glossy."
       She now grew enthusiastic for fine wool and expensive velvet of
       every shade. Dresses in the Renaissance style became her
       favourites, and the subject of her studies. She puffed out her
       bodices like those in Leonardo's and Rafael's portraits of women,
       and tried in other ways as well to resemble them.
       She left off writing verses, and wrote stories instead; the style
       was good, though they were anything rather than spontaneous.
       They were short, with a more or less clear pointe. Stories by a
       girl of eighteen do not as a general rule make a sensation, but
       these were particularly audacious. It was evident that their only
       object was to scandalise. Instead of her own name she used the
       nom-de-plume of "Puss." This, however, was only to postpone the
       announcement that the author who scandalised her readers most, and
       that at a time when every author strove to do so, was a girl of
       eighteen belonging to one of the first families in the country.
       Soon every one knew that "Puss" was she of the tumbled red locks,
       "the tall Renaissance figure with the Titian hair."
       Her hair was abundant, glossy, and slightly curling; she still
       wore it hanging loose over her neck and shoulders, as she had done
       as a child. Her great eyes seemed to look out upon a new world;
       but one felt that the lower part of her face was scarcely in
       harmony with the upper. The cheeks fell in a little; the prominent
       nose made the mouth look smaller than it actually was; her neck
       seemed only to lead the eye downward to her bosom, which almost
       appeared to caress her throat, especially when her head was bent
       forward, as was generally the case. And very beautiful the throat
       was, delicate in colour, superb in contour, and admirably set upon
       the bust. For this reason she could never find in her heart to
       hide this full white neck, but always kept it uncovered. Her
       finely moulded bust surmounting a slender waist and small hips,
       her rounded arms, her long hands, her graceful carriage, in her
       tightly-fitting dress, formed such a striking picture that one did
       more than look--one was obliged to study her, When the elegance
       and beauty of her dress were taken into account, one realised how
       much intelligence and artistic taste had here been exercised.
       She was friendly in society, natural and composed, always occupied
       with something, always with that wondering expression. She spoke
       very little, but her words were always well chosen.
       All this, and her general disposition, made people chary of
       opposing her, more especially those who knew how intelligent she
       was and how much knowledge she possessed.
       She had no friends of her own, but her innumerable relations
       supplied her with society, gossip, and flattery, and were at once
       her friends and body-guard. She would have had to go abroad to be
       alone.
       Among these relations she was a princess: they not only paid her
       homage, but had sworn by "Life and Death" that she must marry
       without more ado, which was absolutely against her wish.
       From her childhood she had been laying by money, but the amount of
       her savings was far less than her relations supposed. This rather
       mythical fortune contributed not a little to the fact that "every
       one" was in love with her. Not only the bachelors of the family,
       that was a matter of course, but artists and amateurs, even the
       most blase, swarmed round her, la jeunesse doree (which is homely
       enough in Norway), without an exception. A living work of art,
       worth more or less money, piquante and admired, how each longed to
       carry her home, to gloat over her, to call her his own!
       There was surely more intensity of feeling near her than near
       others, a losing of oneself in one only; that unattainable dream
       of the world-weary.
       With her one could lead a thoroughly stylish life, full of art and
       taste and comfort. She was highly cultivated, and absolutely
       emancipated--our little country did not, in those days, possess a
       more alluring expression.
       When face to face with her they were uncertain how to act, whether
       to approach her diffidently or boldly, smile or look serious, talk
       or be silent.
       What these idle wooers gleaned from her stories, her
       characteristic dress, her wondering eyes, and her quiet
       dreaminess, was not the highest, but they expended their energy
       thereon; so that their unbounded discomfiture may be imagined
       when, in the autumn, the news spread that Fruken Kristen Ravn was
       married to Harald Kaas.
       They burst into peals of derisive laughter they scoffed, they
       exclaimed; the only explanation they could offer was that they had
       too long hesitated to try their fortune.
       There were others, who both knew and admired her, who were no less
       dismayed. They were more than disappointed--the word is too weak;
       to many of them it seemed simply deplorable. How on earth could it
       have happened? Every one, herself excepted, knew that it would
       ruin her life.
       On Kristen Ravn's independent position, her strong character, her
       rare courage, on her knowledge, gifts, and energy, many,
       especially women, had built up a future for the cause of Woman.
       Had she not already written fearlessly for it? Her tendency
       towards eccentricity and paradox would soon have worn off, they
       thought, as the struggle carried her forward, and at last she
       might have become one of the first champions of the cause. All
       that was noblest and best in Kristen must predominate in the end.
       And now the few who seek to explain life's perplexities rather
       than to condemn them discovered--Some of them, that the defiant
       tone of her writings and her love of opposition bespoke a degree
       of vanity sufficient to have led her into fallacy. Others
       maintained that hers was essentially a romantic nature which might
       cause her to form a false estimate both of her own powers and of
       the circumstances of life. Others, again, had heard something of
       how this husband and wife lived, one in each wing of the house,
       with different staffs of servants, and with separate incomes; that
       she had furnished her side in her own way, at her own expense, and
       had apparently conceived the idea of a new kind of married life.
       Some people declared that the great lime-trees near the mansion at
       Hellebergene were alone responsible for the marriage. They soughed
       so wondrously in the summer evenings, and the sea beneath their
       branches told such enthralling stories. Those grand old woods, the
       like of which were hardly to be found in impoverished Norway, were
       far dearer to her than was her husband. Her imagination had been
       taken captive by the trees, and thus Harald Kaas had taken HER.
       The estate, the climate, the exclusive possession of her part of
       the house: this was the bait which she had chosen. Harald Kaas was
       only a kind of Puck who had to be taken along with it. But it is
       doubtful whether this conjecture was any nearer the truth. No one
       ever really knew. She was not one of those whom it is easy to
       catechise.
       Every one wearies at last of trying to solve even the most
       interesting of enigmas. No one could tolerate the sound of her
       name when, four months after her marriage, she was seen in a stall
       at the Christiania Theatre just as in old days, though looking
       perhaps a little paler. Every opera-glass was levelled at her. She
       wore a light, almost white, dress, cut square as usual. She did
       not hide her face behind her fan. She looked about her with her
       wondering eyes, as though she was quite unconscious that there
       were other people in the theatre or that any one could be looking
       at her. Even the most pertinacious were forced to concede that she
       was both physically and mentally unique, with a charm all her own.
       But just as she had become once more the subject of general
       conversation, she disappeared. It afterwards transpired that her
       husband had fetched her away, though hardly any one had seen him.
       It was concluded that they must have had their first quarrel over
       it.
       Accurate information about their joint life was never obtained.
       The attempts of her relations to force themselves upon them were
       quite without result, except that they found out that she was
       enceinte, notwithstanding her utmost efforts to conceal the fact.
       She sent neither letter nor announcement; but in the summer, when
       she was next seen in Christiania, she was wheeling a perambulator
       along Karl Johan Street, her eyes as wondering as though some one
       had just put it between her hands. She looked handsomer and more
       blooming than ever.
       In the perambulator lay a boy with his mother's broad forehead,
       his mother's red hair. The child was charmingly dressed, and he,
       as well as the perambulator, was so daintily equipped, so
       completely in harmony with herself, that every one understood the
       reply that she gave, when, after the usual congratulations, her
       acquaintances inquired, "Shall we soon have a new story from
       you?"--she answered, "A new story? Here it is!"
       But, notwithstanding the unalloyed happiness which she displayed
       here, it could no longer be concealed that more often than not she
       was absent from home, and that she never mentioned her husband's
       name. If any one spoke of him to her, she changed the subject. By
       the time that the boy was a year old, it had become evident that
       she contemplated leaving Hellebergene entirely. She had been in
       Christiania for some time and had gone home to make arrangements,
       saying that she should come back in a few days.
       But she never did so.
       The day after her return home, while the numerous servants at
       Hellebergene, as well as the labourers with their wives and
       children, were all assembled at the potato digging, Harald Kaas
       appeared, carrying his wife under his left arm like a sack. He
       held her round the waist, feet first, her face downwards and
       hidden by her hair, her hands convulsively clutching his left
       thigh, her legs sometimes hanging down, sometimes straight out. He
       walked composedly out with her, holding in his right hand a bunch
       of long fresh birch twigs. A little way from the gallery he
       paused, and laying her across his left knee, he tore off some of
       her clothes, and beat her until the blood flowed. She never
       uttered a sound. When he put her from him, she tremblingly
       rearranged--first her hair, thus displaying her face just as the
       blood flowed back from it, leaving it deadly white. Tears of pain
       and shame rolled down her cheeks; but still not a sound. She tried
       to rearrange her dress, but her tattered garments trailed behind
       her as she went back to the house. She shut the door after her,
       but had to open it again; her torn clothes had caught fast in it.
       The women stood aghast; some of the children screamed with fright:
       this infected the rest, and there was a chorus of sobs. The men,
       most of whom had been sitting smoking their pipes, but who had
       sprung to their feet again, stood filled with shame and
       indignation.
       It had not been without a pang that Harald Kaas had done this, his
       face and manner had shown it for a long time and still did so; but
       he had expected that a roar of laughter would greet his
       extraordinary vagary. This was evident from the composure with
       which he had carried his wife out; and still more from the glance
       of gratified revenge with which he looked round him afterwards.
       But there was only dead stillness, succeeded by weeping, sobbing,
       and indignation. He stood there for a moment, quite overcome, then
       went indoors again, a defeated, utterly broken man.
       In every encounter with this delicate creature the giant had been
       worsted.
       After this, however, she never went beyond the grounds. For the
       first few years she was only seen by the people about the estate,
       and by them but seldom. Sometimes she would take her boy out in
       his little carriage, or, as time went on, would lead him by the
       hand, sometimes she was alone. She was generally wrapped in a big
       shawl, a different one for each dress she wore, and which she
       always held tightly round her. This was so characteristic of her
       that to this day I hear people from the neighbourhood talk about
       it as though she were never seen otherwise.
       What then did she do? She studied; she had given up writing: for
       more than one reason it had become distasteful to her. She had
       changed roles with her husband, giving herself up to mathematics,
       chemistry, and physics, she made calculations and analyses--
       sending for books and materials for these objects. The people on
       the estate saw nothing extraordinary in all this. From the first
       they had admired her delicacy and beauty. Every one admired her;
       it was only the manner and degree that varied.
       Little by little she came to be regarded as one whose life and
       thoughts were beyond their comprehension.
       She sought no one, but to those who came to her she never refused
       help--more or less. She made herself well acquainted with the
       facts of each case; no one could ever deceive her. Whether she
       gave much or little, she imposed no conditions, she never lectured
       them. Her opinion was expressed by the amount that she gave.
       Her husband's behaviour towards her was such that, had she not
       been very popular, she could not have remained at Hellebergene;
       that is to say, he opposed and thwarted her in every way he could;
       but every one took her part.
       The boy! Could not he have been a bond of union? On the contrary,
       there were those who declared that it was from the time of his
       birth that things had gone amiss between the parents. The first
       time that his father saw him the nurse reported that he "came in
       like a lord and went out like a beggar!" The mother lay down again
       and laughed; the nurse had never seen the like of it before. Had
       he expected that his child must of necessity resemble him, only to
       find it the image of its mother?
       When the boy was old enough he loved to wander across to his
       father's rooms where there were so many curious things to see; his
       father always received him kindly, talking in a way suited to his
       childish intelligence, but he would take occasion to cut away a
       quantity of his hair. His mother let it grow free and long like
       her own, and his father perpetually cut it. The boy would have
       been glad enough to be rid of it, but when he grew a little older,
       he comprehended his father's motive, and thenceforth he was on his
       guard.
       When the people on the estate had told him something of his
       father's highly-coloured histories of his feats of strength and
       his achievements by land and water, the boy began to feel a shy
       admiration for him, but at the same time he felt all the more
       strongly the intolerable yoke which he laid upon them--upon every
       living being on the estate. It became a secret religion with him
       to oppose his father and help his mother, for it was she who
       suffered. He would resemble her even to his hair, he would protect
       her, he would make it all up to her. It was a positive delight to
       him when his father made him suffer: he absolutely felt proud when
       he called him Rafaella, instead of Rafael, the name which his
       mother had chosen for him; it was the one that she loved best.
       No one was allowed to use the boats or the carriage, no one might
       walk through the woods, which had been fenced in, the horses were
       never taken out. No repairs were undertaken; if Fru Kaas attempted
       to have anything done at her own expense, the workmen were ordered
       off: there could no longer be any doubt about it, he wished
       everything to go to rack and ruin. The property went from bad to
       worse, and the woods--well! It was no secret, every one on the
       place talked about it--the timber was being utterly ruined. The
       best and largest trees were already rotten; by degrees the rest
       would become so.
       At twelve years of age Rafael began to receive religious teaching
       from the Dean: the only subject in which his mother did not
       instruct him. He shared these lessons with Helene, the Dean's only
       child, who was four years younger than Rafael and of whom he was
       devotedly fond.
       The Dean told them the story of David. The narrative was unfolded
       with additions and explanations; the boy made a picture of it to
       himself; his mother had taught him everything in this way.
       Assyrian warriors with pointed beards, oblique eyes, and oblong
       shields, had to represent the Israelites; they marched by in an
       endless procession. He saw the blue-green of the vineyards on the
       hillside, the shadow of the dusty palm-trees upon the dusty road.
       Then a wood of aromatic trees into which all the warriors fled.
       Then followed the story of Absalom.
       "Absalom rebelled against his father, what a dreadful thing to
       think of," said the Dean. "A grown-up man to rebel against his
       father." He chanced to look towards Rafael, who turned as red as
       fire.
       The thought which was constantly in his mind was that when he was
       grown up he should rebel against his father.
       "But Absalom was punished in a marvellous manner," continued the
       Dean. "He lost the battle, and as he fled through the woods, his
       long hair caught in a tree, the horse ran away from under him, and
       he was left hanging there until he was run through by a spear."
       Rafael could see Absalom hanging there, not in the long Assyrian
       garments, not with a pointed beard. No! Slender and young, in
       Rafael's tight-fitting breeches and stockings, and with his own
       red hair! Ah! how distinctly he saw it! The horse galloping far
       away--the grey one at home which he used to ride by stealth when
       his father was asleep after dinner. He could see the tall, slender
       lad, dangling and swaying, with a spear through his body.
       Distinctly! Distinctly!
       This vision, which he never mentioned to a soul, he could not get
       rid of. To be left hanging there by his hair--what a strange
       punishment for rebelling against his father!
       Certainly he already knew the history, but till now he had paid no
       special heed to it.
       It was on a Friday that this great impression had been made on
       him, and on the following Thursday morning he awoke to see his
       mother standing over him with her most wondering expression. Her
       hair still as she had plaited it for the night; one plait had
       touched him on the nose and awoke him before she spoke. She stood
       bending over him, in her long white nightgown with its dainty lace
       trimming, and with bare feet. She would never have come in like
       that if something terrible had not happened. Why did she not
       speak? only look and look--or was she really frightened?
       "Mother!" he cried, sitting up.
       Then she bent close down to him. "THE MAN IS DEAD," she whispered.
       It was his father whom she called "the man," she never spoke of
       him otherwise.
       Rafael did not comprehend what she said, or perhaps it paralysed
       him. She repeated it again louder and louder, "The man is dead,
       the man is dead."
       Then she stood upright, and putting out her bare feet from under
       her nightgown, she began to dance--only a few steps; and then she
       slipped away through the door which stood half open. He jumped up
       and ran after her; there she lay on the sofa, sobbing. She felt
       that he was behind her, she raised herself quickly, and, still
       sobbing, pressed him to her heart.
       Even when they stood together beside the body, the hand which he
       had in his shook so that he threw his arms round her, thinking
       that she would fall.
       Later in life, when he recalled this, he understood what she had
       silently endured, what an unbending will she had brought to the
       struggle, but also what it had cost her.
       At the time he did not in the least comprehend it. He imagined
       that she suffered from the horror of the moment as he himself did.
       There lay the giant, in wretchedness and squalor! He who had once
       boasted of his cleanliness, and expected the like in others, lay
       there, dirty and unshaven, under dirty bed clothes, in linen so
       ragged and filthy that no workman on the estate had worse. The
       clothes which he had worn the day before lay on a chair beside the
       bed, miserably threadbare, foul with dirt, sweat, and tobacco, and
       stinking like everything else. His mouth was distorted, his hands
       tightly clenched; he had died of a stroke.
       And how forlorn and desolate was all around him! Why had his son
       never noticed this before? Why had he never felt that his father
       was lonely and forsaken? To how great an extent no words could
       express.
       Rafael burst into tears; louder and louder grew his sobbing, until
       it sounded through all the rooms. The people from the estate came
       in one by one. They wished to satisfy their curiosity.
       The boy's crying, unconsciously to himself, influenced them all:
       they saw everything in a new light. How unfortunate, how desolate,
       how helpless had he been who now lay there. Lord, have mercy on us
       all!
       When the corpse of Harald Kaas had been laid out, the face shaved,
       and the eyes closed, the distortion was less apparent. They could
       trace signs of suffering, but the expression was still virile. It
       seemed a handsome face to them now
       Content of Chapter 1 [Bjornstjerne Bjornson's book: Absalom's Hair; and A Painful Memory]
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