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What Diantha Did
CHAPTER XII - LIKE A BANYAN TREE
Charlotte Perkins Gilman
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       _ The Earth-Plants spring up from beneath,
       The Air-Plants swing down from above,
       But the Banyan trees grow
       Both above and below,
       And one makes a prosperous grove.
       In the fleeting opportunities offered by the Caffeteria, and in longer
       moments, rather neatly planned for, with some remnants of an earlier
       ingenuity, Mr. Thaddler contrived to become acquainted with Mrs. Bell.
       Diantha never quite liked him, but he won her mother's heart by frank
       praise of the girl and her ventures.
       "I never saw a smarter woman in my life," he said; "and no airs. I tell
       you, ma'am, if there was more like her this world would be an easier
       place to live in, and I can see she owes it all to you, ma'am."
       This the mother would never admit for a moment, but expatiated loyally
       on the scientific mind of Mr. Henderson Bell, still of Jopalez.
       "I don't see how he can bear to let her out of his sight," said Mr.
       Thaddler.
       "Of course he hated to let her go," replied the lady. "We both did.
       But he is very proud of her now."
       "I guess there's somebody else who's proud of her, too," he suggested.
       "Excuse me, ma'am, I don't mean to intrude, but we know there must be a
       good reason for your daughter keeping all Orchardina at a distance.
       Why, she could have married six times over in her first year here!"
       "She does not wish to give up her work," Mrs. Bell explained.
       "Of course not; and why should she? Nice, womanly business, I am sure.
       I hope nobody'd expect a girl who can keep house for a whole township to
       settle down to bossing one man and a hired girl."
       In course of time he got a pretty clear notion of how matters stood, and
       meditated upon it, seriously rolling his big cigar about between pursed
       lips. Mr. Thaddler was a good deal of a gossip, but this he kept to
       himself, and did what he could to enlarge the patronage of Union House.
       The business grew. It held its own in spite of fluctuations, and after
       a certain point began to spread steadily. Mrs. Bell's coming and Mr.
       Eltwood's ardent championship, together with Mr. Thaddler's, quieted the
       dangerous slanders which had imperilled the place at one time. They
       lingered, subterraneously, of course. People never forget slanders. A
       score of years after there were to be found in Orchardina folk who still
       whispered about dark allegations concerning Union House; and the papers
       had done some pretty serious damage; but the fame of good food, good
       service, cheapness and efficiency made steady headway.
       In view of the increase and of the plans still working in her mind,
       Diantha made certain propositions to Mr. Porne, and also to Mrs. Porne,
       in regard to a new, specially built club-house for the girls.
       "I have proved what they can do, with me to manage them, and want now to
       prove that they can do it themselves, with any matron competent to
       follow my directions. The house need not be so expensive; one big
       dining-room, with turn-up tables like those ironing-board seat-tables,
       you know--then they can dance there. Small reception room and office,
       hall, kitchen and laundry, and thirty bedrooms, forty by thirty, with an
       "ell" for the laundry, ought to do it, oughtn't it?"
       Mrs. Porne agreed to make plans, and did so most successfully, and Mr.
       Porne found small difficulty in persuading an investor to put up such a
       house, which visibly could be used as a boarding-house or small hotel,
       if it failed in its first purpose.
       It was built of concrete, a plain simple structure, but fine in
       proportions and pleasantly colored.
       Diantha kept her plans to herself, as usual, but they grew so fast that
       she felt a species of terror sometimes, lest the ice break somewhere.
       "Steady, now!" she would say. "This is real business, just plain
       business. There's no reason why I shouldn't succeed as well as Fred
       Harvey. I will succeed. I am succeeding."
       She kept well, she worked hard, she was more than glad to have her
       mother with her; but she wanted something else, which seemed farther off
       than ever. Her lover's picture hung on the wall of her bedroom, stood
       on her bureau, and (but this was a secret) a small one was carried in
       her bosom.
       Rather a grim looking young woman, Diantha, with the cares of the world
       of house-keepers upon her proud young shoulders; with all the stirring
       hopes to be kept within bounds, all the skulking fears to be resisted,
       and the growing burden of a large affair to be carried steadily.
       But when she woke, in the brilliant California mornings, she would lie
       still a few moments looking at the face on the wall and the face on the
       bureau; would draw the little picture out from under her pillow and kiss
       it, would say to herself for the thousandth time, "It is for him, too."
       She missed him, always.
       The very vigor of her general attitude, the continued strength with
       which she met the days and carried them, made it all the more needful
       for her to have some one with whom she could forget every care, every
       purpose, every effort; some one who would put strong arms around her and
       call her "Little Girl." His letters were both a comfort and a pain. He
       was loyal, kind, loving, but always that wall of disapproval. He loved
       her, he did not love her work.
       She read them over and over, hunting anew for the tender phrases, the
       things which seemed most to feed and comfort her. She suffered not only
       from her loneliness, but from his; and most keenly from his sternly
       suppressed longing for freedom and the work that belonged to him.
       "Why can't he see," she would say to herself, "that if this succeeds, he
       can do his work; that I can make it possible for him? And he won't let
       me. He won't take it from me. Why are men so proud? Is there anything
       so ignominious about a woman that it is disgraceful to let one help you?
       And why can't he think at all about the others? It's not just us, it's
       all people. If this works, men will have easier times, as well as
       women. Everybody can do their real work better with this old primitive
       business once set right."
       And then it was always time to get up, or time to go to bed, or time to
       attend to some of the numberless details of her affairs.
       She and her mother had an early lunch before the caffeteria opened, and
       were glad of the afternoon tea, often held in a retired corner of the
       broad piazza. She sat there one hot, dusty afternoon, alone and
       unusually tired. The asphalted street was glaring and noisy, the cross
       street deep in soft dust, for months unwet.
       Failure had not discouraged her, but increasing success with all its
       stimulus and satisfaction called for more and more power. Her mind was
       busy foreseeing, arranging, providing for emergencies; and then the
       whole thing slipped away from her, she dropped her head upon her arm for
       a moment, on the edge of the tea table, and wished for Ross.
       From down the street and up the street at this moment, two men were
       coming; both young, both tall, both good looking, both apparently
       approaching Union House. One of them was the nearer, and his foot soon
       sounded on the wooden step. The other stopped and looked in a shop
       window.
       Diantha started up, came forward,--it was Mr. Eltwood. She had a vague
       sense of disappointment, but received him cordially. He stood there,
       his hat off, holding her hand for a long moment, and gazing at her with
       evident admiration. They turned and sat down in the shadow of the
       reed-curtained corner.
       The man at the shop window turned, too, and went away.
       Mr. Eltwood had been a warm friend and cordial supporter from the epoch
       of the Club-splitting speech. He had helped materially in the slow,
       up-hill days of the girl's effort, with faith and kind words. He had
       met the mother's coming with most friendly advances, and Mrs. Bell found
       herself much at home in his liberal little church.
       Diantha had grown to like and trust him much.
       "What's this about the new house, Miss Bell? Your mother says I may
       know."
       "Why not?" she said. "You have followed this thing from the first.
       Sugar or lemon? You see I want to disentangle the undertakings, set
       them upon their own separate feet, and establish the practical working
       of each one."
       "I see," he said, "and 'day service' is not 'cooked food delivery.'"
       "Nor yet 'rooms for entertainment,' she agreed. "We've got them all
       labelled, mother and I. There's the 'd. s.' and 'c. f. d.' and 'r. f.
       e.' and the 'p. p.' That's picnics and parties. And more coming."
       "What, more yet? You'll kill yourself, Miss Bell. Don't go too fast.
       You are doing a great work for humanity. Why not take a little more
       time?"
       "I want to do it as quickly as I can, for reasons," answered Diantha.
       Mr. Eltwood looked at her with tender understanding. "I don't want to
       intrude any further than you are willing to want me," he said, "but
       sometimes I think that even you--strong as you are--would be better for
       some help."
       She did not contradict him. Her hands were in her lap, her eyes on the
       worn boards of the piazza floor. She did not see a man pass on the
       other side of the street, cast a searching glance across and walk
       quickly on again.
       "If you were quite free to go on with your beautiful work," said Mr.
       Eltwood slowly, "if you were offered heartiest appreciation, profound
       respect, as well as love, of course; would you object to marrying, Miss
       Bell?" asked in an even voice, as if it were a matter of metaphysical
       inquiry. Mrs. Porne had told him of her theory as to a lover in the
       home town, wishing to save him a long heart ache, but he was not sure of
       it, and he wanted to be.
       Diantha glanced quickly at him, and felt the emotion under his quiet
       words. She withdrew her eyes, looking quite the other way.
       "You are enough of a friend to know, Mr. Eltwood," she said, "I rather
       thought you did know. I am engaged."
       "Thank you for telling me; some one is greatly to be congratulated," he
       spoke sincerely, and talked quietly on about less personal matters,
       holding his tea untasted till it was cold.
       "Do let me give you some that is hot," she said at last, "and let me
       thank you from my heart for the help and strength and comfort you have
       been to me, Mr. Eltwood."
       "I'm very glad," he said; and again, "I am very glad." "You may count
       upon anything I can do for you, always," he continued. "I am proud to
       be your friend."
       He held her hand once more for a moment, and went away with his head up
       and a firm step. To one who watched him go, he had almost a triumphant
       air, but it was not triumph, only the brave beginning of a hard fight
       and a long one.
       Then came Mrs. Bell, returned from a shopping trip, and sank down in a
       wicker rocker, glad of the shade and a cup of tea. No, she didn't want
       it iced. "Hot tea makes you cooler," was her theory.
       "You don't look very tired," said the girl. "Seems to me you get
       stronger all the time."
       "I do," said her mother. "You don't realize, you can't realize,
       Diantha, what this means to me. Of course to you I am an old woman, a
       back number--one has to feel so about one's mother. I did when I
       married, and my mother then was five years younger than I am now."
       "I don't think you old, mother, not a bit of it. You ought to have
       twenty or thirty years of life before you, real life."
       "That's just what I'm feeling," said Mrs. Bell, "as if I'd just begun to
       live! This is so _different!_ There is a big, moving thing to work
       for. There is--why Diantha, you wouldn't believe what a comfort it is
       to me to feel that my work here is--really--adding to the profits!"
       Diantha laughed aloud.
       "You dear old darling," she said, "I should think it was! It is
       _making_ the profits."
       "And it grows so," her mother went on. "Here's this part so well
       assured that you're setting up the new Union House! Are you _sure_
       about Mrs. Jessup, dear?"
       "As sure as I can be of any one till I've tried a long time. She has
       done all I've asked her to here, and done it well. Besides, I mean to
       keep a hand on it for a year or two yet--I can't afford to have that
       fail."
       Mrs. Jessup was an imported aunt, belonging to one of the cleverest
       girls, and Diantha had had her in training for some weeks.
       "Well, I guess she's as good as any you'd be likely to get," Mrs. Bell
       admitted, "and we mustn't expect paragons. If this can't be done by an
       average bunch of working women the world over, it can't be done--that's
       all!"
       "It can be done," said the girl, calmly. "It will be done. You see."
       "Mr. Thaddler says you could run any kind of a business you set your
       hand to," her mother went on. "He has a profound respect for your
       abilities, Dina."
       "Seems to me you and Mr. Thaddler have a good deal to say to each other,
       motherkins. I believe you enjoy that caffeteria desk, and all the
       compliments you get."
       "I do," said Mrs. Bell stoutly. "I do indeed! Why, I haven't seen so
       many men, to speak to, since--why, never in my life! And they are very
       amusing--some of them. They like to come here--like it immensely. And
       I don't wonder. I believe you'll do well to enlarge."
       Then they plunged into a discussion of the winter's plans. The day
       service department and its employment agency was to go on at the New
       Union House, with Mrs. Jessup as manager; the present establishment was
       to be run as a hotel and restaurant, and the depot for the cooked food
       delivery.
       Mrs. Thorvald and her husband were installed by themselves in another
       new venture; a small laundry outside the town. This place employed
       several girls steadily, and the motor wagon found a new use between
       meals, in collecting and delivering laundry parcels.
       "It simplifies it a lot--to get the washing out of the place and the
       girls off my mind," said Diantha. "Now I mean to buckle down and learn
       the hotel business--thoroughly, and develop this cooked food delivery to
       perfection."
       "Modest young lady," smiled her mother. "Where do you mean to stop--if
       ever?"
       "I don't mean to stop till I'm dead," Diantha answered; "but I don't
       mean to undertake any more trades, if that is what you mean. You know
       what I'm after--to get 'housework' on a business basis, that's all; and
       prove, prove, PROVE what a good business it is. There's the cleaning
       branch--that's all started and going well in the day service. There's
       the washing--that's simple and easy. Laundry work's no mystery. But
       the food part is a big thing. It's an art, a science, a business, and a
       handicraft. I had the handicraft to start with; I'm learning the
       business; but I've got a lot to learn yet in the science and art of it."
       "Don't do too much at once," her mother urged. "You've got to cater to
       people as they are."
       "I know it," the girl agreed. "They must be led, step by step--the
       natural method. It's a big job, but not too big. Out of all the women
       who have done housework for so many ages, surely it's not too much to
       expect one to have a special genius for it!"
       Her mother gazed at her with loving admiration.
       "That's just what you have, Dina--a special genius for housework. I
       wish there were more of you!"
       "There are plenty of me, mother dear, only they haven't come out. As
       soon as I show 'em how to make the thing pay, you'll find that we have a
       big percentage of this kind of ability. It's all buried now in the
       occasional 'perfect housekeeper.'
       "But they won't leave their husbands, Dina."
       "They don't need to," the girl answered cheerfully. "Some of them
       aren't married yet; some of them have lost their husbands, and _some_ of
       them"--she said this a little bitterly--"have husbands who will be
       willing to let their wives grow."
       "Not many, I'm afraid," said Mrs. Bell, also with some gloom.
       Diantha lightened up again. "Anyhow, here you are, mother dear! And
       for this year I propose that you assume the financial management of the
       whole business at a salary of $1,000 'and found.' How does that suit
       you?"
       Mrs. Bell looked at her unbelievingly.
       "You can't afford it, Dina!"
       "Oh, yes, I can--you know I can, because you've got the accounts. I'm
       going to make big money this year."
       "But you'll need it. This hotel and restaurant business may not do
       well."
       "Now, mother, you _know_ we're doing well. Look here!" And Diantha
       produced her note-book.
       "Here's the little laundry place; its fittings come to so much, wages so
       much, collection and delivery so much, supplies so much--and already
       enough patronage engaged to cover. It will be bigger in winter, a lot,
       with transients, and this hotel to fall back on; ought to clear at least
       a thousand a year. The service club don't pay me anything, of course;
       that is for the girls' benefit; but the food delivery is doing better
       than I dared hope."
       Mrs. Bell knew the figures better than Diantha, even, and they went over
       them carefully again. If the winter's patronage held on to equal the
       summer's--and the many transient residents ought to increase it--they
       would have an average of twenty families a week to provide for--one
       hundred persons.
       The expenses were:
       Food for 100 at $250 a week. Per capita. $600
       ---
       per year $13,000
       Labor--delivery man. $600
       Head cook. $600
       Two assistant cooks. $1,040
       Three washers and packers. $1,560
       Office girl. $520
       ---
       Per year $4,320
       Rent, kitchen, office, etc. $500
       Rent of motor. $300
       Rent of cases. $250
       Gasolene and repairs. $630
       ---
       Per year $1,680
       Total. $19,000
       "How do you make the gasolene and repairs as much as that?" asked Mrs.
       Bell.
       "It's margin, mother--makes it even money. It won't be so much,
       probably."
       The income was simple and sufficient. They charged $5.00 a week per
       capita for three meals, table d'hote, delivered thrice daily. Frequent
       orders for extra meals really gave them more than they set down, but the
       hundred-person estimate amounted to $26,000 a year.
       "Now, see," said Diantha triumphantly; "subtract all that expense list
       (and it is a liberal one), and we have $7,000 left. I can buy the car
       and the cases this year and have $1,600 over! More; because if I do buy
       them I can leave off some of the interest, and the rent of kitchen and
       office comes to Union House! Then there's all of the extra orders.
       It's going to pay splendidly, mother! It clears $70 a year per person.
       Next year it will clear a lot more."
       It did not take long to make Mrs. Bell admit that if the business went
       on as it had been going Diantha would be able to pay her a salary of a
       thousand dollars, and have five hundred left--from the food business
       alone.
       There remained the hotel, with large possibilities. The present simple
       furnishings were to be moved over to New Union House, and paid for by
       the girls in due time. With new paint, paper, and furniture, the old
       house would make a very comfortable place.
       "Of course, it's the restaurant mainly--these big kitchens and the
       central location are the main thing. The guests will be mostly
       tourists, I suppose."
       Diantha dwelt upon the prospect at some length; and even her cautious
       mother had to admit that unless there was some setback the year had a
       prospect of large success.
       "How about all this new furnishing?" Mrs. Bell said suddenly. "How do
       you cover that? Take what you've got ahead now?"
       "Yes; there's plenty," said Diantha. "You see, there is all Union House
       has made, and this summer's profit on the cooked food--it's plenty."
       "Then you can't pay for the motor and cases as you planned," her mother
       insisted.
       "No, not unless the hotel and restaurant pays enough to make good. But
       I don't _have_ to buy them the first year. If I don't, there is $5,500
       leeway."
       "Yes, you are safe enough; there's over $4,000 in the bank now," Mrs.
       Bell admitted. "But, child," she said suddenly, "your father!"
       "Yes, I've thought of father," said the girl, "and I mean to ask him to
       come and live at the hotel. I think he'd like it. He could meet people
       and talk about his ideas, and I'm sure I'd like to have him."
       "They talked much and long about this, till the evening settled about
       them, till they had their quiet supper, and the girls came home to their
       noisy one; and late that evening, when all was still again, Diantha came
       to the dim piazza corner once more and sat there quite alone.
       Full of hope, full of courage, sure of her progress--and aching with
       loneliness.
       She sat with her head in her hands, and to her ears came suddenly the
       sound of a familiar step--a well-known voice--the hands and the lips of
       her lover.
       "Diantha!" He held her close.
       "Oh, Ross! Ross! Darling! Is it true? When did you come? Oh, I'm so
       glad! So _glad_ to see you!"
       She was so glad that she had to cry a little on his shoulder, which he
       seemed to thoroughly enjoy.
       "I've good news for you, little girl," he said. "Good news at last!
       Listen, dear; don't cry. There's an end in sight. A man has bought out
       my shop. The incubus is off--I can _live_ now!"
       He held his head up in a fine triumph, and she watched him adoringly.
       "Did you--was it profitable?" she asked.
       "It's all exchange, and some cash to boot. Just think! You know what
       I've wanted so long--a ranch. A big one that would keep us all, and let
       me go on with my work. And, dear--I've got it! It's a big fruit ranch,
       with its own water--think of that! And a vegetable garden, too, and
       small fruit, and everything. And, what's better, it's all in good
       running order, with a competent ranchman, and two Chinese who rent the
       vegetable part. And there are two houses on it--_two_. One for mother
       and the girls, and one for us!"
       Diantha's heart stirred suddenly.
       "Where is it, dear?" she whispered.
       He laughed joyfully. "It's _here!"_ he said. "About eight miles or so
       out, up by the mountains; has a little canyon of its own--its own little
       stream and reservoir. Oh, my darling! My darling!"
       They sat in happy silence in the perfumed night. The strong arms were
       around her, the big shoulder to lean on, the dear voice to call her
       "little girl."
       The year of separation vanished from their thoughts, and the long years
       of companionship opened bright and glorious before them.
       "I came this afternoon," he said at length, "but I saw another man
       coming. He got here first. I thought--"
       "Ross! You didn't! And you've left me to go without you all these
       hours!"
       "He looked so confident when he went away that I was jealous," Ross
       admitted, "furiously jealous. And then your mother was here, and then
       those cackling girls. I wanted you--alone."
       And then he had her, alone, for other quiet, happy moments. She was so
       glad of him. Her hold upon his hand, upon his coat, was tight.
       "I don't know how I've lived without you," she said softly.
       "Nor I," said he. "I haven't lived. It isn't life--without you. Well,
       dearest, it needn't be much longer. We closed the deal this afternoon.
       I came down here to see the place, and--incidentally--to see you!"
       More silence.
       "I shall turn over the store at once. It won't take long to move and
       settle; there's enough money over to do that. And the ranch pays,
       Diantha! It really _pays,_ and will carry us all. How long will it
       take you to get out of this?"
       "Get out of--what?" she faltered.
       "Why, the whole abominable business you're so deep in here. Thank God,
       there's no shadow of need for it any more!"
       The girl's face went white, but he could not see it. She would not
       believe him.
       "Why, dear," she said, "if your ranch is as near as that it would be
       perfectly easy for me to come in to the business--with a car. I can
       afford a car soon."
       "But I tell you there's no need any more," said he. "Don't you
       understand? This is a paying fruit ranch, with land rented to
       advantage, and a competent manager right there running it. It's simply
       changed owners. I'm the owner now! There's two or three thousand a
       year to be made on it--has been made on it! There is a home for my
       people--a home for us! Oh, my beloved girl! My darling! My own
       sweetheart! Surely you won't refuse me now!"
       Diantha's head swam dizzily.
       "Ross," she urged, "you don't understand! I've built up a good business
       here--a real successful business. Mother is in it; father's to come
       down; there is a big patronage; it grows. I can't give it up!"
       "Not for me? Not when I can offer you a home at last? Not when I show
       you that there is no longer any need of your earning money?" he said
       hotly.
       "But, dear--dear!" she protested. "It isn't for the money; it is the
       work I want to do--it is my work! You are so happy now that you can do
       your work--at last! This is mine!"
       When he spoke again his voice was low and stern.
       "Do you mean that you love--your work--better than you love me?"
       "No! It isn't that! That's not fair!" cried the girl. "Do you love
       your work better than you love me? Of course not! You love both. So
       do I. Can't you see? Why should I have to give up anything?"
       "You do not have to," he said patiently. "I cannot compel you to marry
       me. But now, when at last--after these awful years--I can really offer
       you a home--you refuse!"
       "I have not refused," she said slowly.
       His voice lightened again.
       "Ah, dearest! And you will not! You will marry me?"
       "I will marry you, Ross!"
       "And when? When, dearest?"
       "As soon as you are ready."
       "But--can you drop this at once?"
       "I shall not drop it."
       Her voice was low, very low, but clear and steady.
       He rose to his feet with a muffled exclamation, and walked the length of
       the piazza and back.
       "Do you realize that you are saying no to me, Diantha?"
       "You are mistaken, dear. I have said that I will marry you whenever you
       choose. But it is you who are saying, 'I will not marry a woman with a
       business.'"
       "This is foolishness!" he said sharply. "No man--that is a man--would
       marry a woman and let her run a business."
       "You are mistaken," she answered. "One of the finest men I ever knew
       has asked me to marry him--and keep on with my work!"
       "Why didn't you take him up?"
       "Because I didn't love him." She stopped, a sob in her voice, and he
       caught her in his arms again.
       It was late indeed when he went away, walking swiftly, with a black
       rebellion in his heart; and Diantha dragged herself to bed.
       She was stunned, deadened, exhausted; torn with a desire to run after
       him and give up--give up anything to hold his love. But something,
       partly reason and partly pride, kept saying within her: "I have not
       refused him; he has refused me!" _