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Little Lady of the Big House, The
CHAPTER 20
Jack London
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       _ Once again the tide of guests ebbed from the Big House, and more than
       one lunch and dinner found only the two men and Paula at the table. On
       such evenings, while Graham and Dick yarned for their hour before bed,
       Paula no longer played soft things to herself at the piano, but sat
       with them doing fine embroidery and listening to the talk.
       Both men had much in common, had lived life in somewhat similar ways,
       and regarded life from the same angles. Their philosophy was harsh
       rather than sentimental, and both were realists. Paula made a practice
       of calling them the pair of "Brass Tacks."
       "Oh, yes," she laughed to them, "I understand your attitude. You are
       successes, the pair of you--physical successes, I mean. You have
       health. You are resistant. You can stand things. You have survived
       where men less resistant have gone down. You pull through African
       fevers and bury the other fellows. This poor chap gets pneumonia in
       Cripple Creek and cashes in before you can get him to sea level. Now
       why didn't you get pneumonia? Because you were more deserving? Because
       you had lived more virtuously? Because you were more careful of risks
       and took more precautions?"
       She shook her head.
       "No. Because you were luckier--I mean by birth, by possession of
       constitution and stamina. Why, Dick buried his three mates and two
       engineers at Guayaquil. Yellow fever. Why didn't the yellow fever
       germ, or whatever it is, kill Dick? And the same with you, Mr. Broad-
       shouldered Deep-chested Graham. In this last trip of yours, why didn't
       you die in the swamps instead of your photographer? Come. Confess. How
       heavy was he? How broad were his shoulders? How deep his chest?--wide
       his nostrils?--tough his resistance?"
       "He weighed a hundred and thirty-five," Graham admitted ruefully. "But
       he looked all right and fit at the start. I think I was more surprised
       than he when he turned up his toes." Graham shook his head. "It wasn't
       because he was a light weight and small. The small men are usually the
       toughest, other things being equal. But you've put your finger on the
       reason just the same. He didn't have the physical stamina, the
       resistance,--You know what I mean, Dick?"
       "In a way it's like the quality of muscle and heart that enables some
       prizefighters to go the distance--twenty, thirty, forty rounds, say,"
       Dick concurred. "Right now, in San Francisco, there are several
       hundred youngsters dreaming of success in the ring. I've watched them
       trying out. All look good, fine-bodied, healthy, fit as fiddles, and
       young. And their spirits are most willing. And not one in ten of them
       can last ten rounds. I don't mean they get knocked out. I mean they
       blow up. Their muscles and their hearts are not made out of first-
       grade fiber. They simply are not made to move at high speed and
       tension for ten rounds. And some of them blow up in four or five
       rounds. And not one in forty can go the twenty-round route, give and
       take, hammer and tongs, one minute of rest to three of fight, for a
       full hour of fighting. And the lad who can last forty rounds is one
       in ten thousand--lads like Nelson, Gans, and Wolgast.
       "You understand the point I am making," Paula took up. "Here are the
       pair of you. Neither will see forty again. You're a pair of hard-
       bitten sinners. You've gone through hardship and exposure that dropped
       others all along the way. You've had your fun and folly. You've
       roughed and rowdied over the world--"
       "Played the wild ass," Graham laughed in.
       "And drunk deep," Paula added. "Why, even alcohol hasn't burned you.
       You were too tough. You put the other fellows under the table, or into
       the hospital or the grave, and went your gorgeous way, a song on your
       lips, with tissues uncorroded, and without even the morning-after
       headache. And the point is that you are successes. Your muscles are
       blond-beast muscles, your vital organs are blond-beast organs. And
       from all this emanates your blond-beast philosophy. That's why you are
       brass tacks, and preach realism, and practice realism, shouldering and
       shoving and walking over lesser and unluckier creatures, who don't
       dare talk back, who, like Dick's prizefighting boys, would blow up in
       the first round if they resorted to the arbitrament of force."
       Dick whistled a long note of mock dismay.
       "And that's why you preach the gospel of the strong," Paula went on.
       "If you had been weaklings, you'd have preached the gospel of the weak
       and turned the other cheek. But you--you pair of big-muscled giants--
       when you are struck, being what you are, you don't turn the other
       cheek--"
       "No," Dick interrupted quietly. "We immediately roar, 'Knock his block
       off!' and then do it.--She's got us, Evan, hip and thigh. Philosophy,
       like religion, is what the man is, and is by him made in his own
       image."
       And while the talk led over the world, Paula sewed on, her eyes filled
       with the picture of the two big men, admiring, wondering, pondering,
       without the surety of self that was theirs, aware of a slipping and
       giving of convictions so long accepted that they had seemed part of
       her.
       Later in the evening she gave voice to her trouble.
       "The strangest part of it," she said, taking up a remark Dick had just
       made, "is that too much philosophizing about life gets one worse than
       nowhere. A philosophic atmosphere is confusing--at least to a woman.
       One hears so much about everything, and against everything, that
       nothing is sure. For instance, Mendenhall's wife is a Lutheran. She
       hasn't a doubt about anything. All is fixed, ordained, immovable.
       Star-drifts and ice-ages she knows nothing about, and if she did they
       would not alter in the least her rules of conduct for men and women in
       this world and in relation to the next.
       "But here, with us, you two pound your brass tacks, Terrence does a
       Greek dance of epicurean anarchism, Hancock waves the glittering veils
       of Bergsonian metaphysics, Leo makes solemn obeisance at the altar of
       Beauty, and Dar Hyal juggles his sophistic blastism to no end save all
       your applause for his cleverness. Don't you see? The effect is that
       there is nothing solid in any human judgment. Nothing is right.
       Nothing is wrong. One is left compassless, rudderless, chartless on a
       sea of ideas. Shall I do this? Must I refrain from that? Will it be
       wrong? Is there any virtue in it? Mrs. Mendenhall has her instant
       answer for every such question. But do the philosophers?"
       Paula shook her head.
       "No. All they have is ideas. They immediately proceed to talk about
       it, and talk and talk and talk, and with all their erudition reach no
       conclusion whatever. And I am just as bad. I listen and listen, and
       talk and talk, as I am talking now, and remain convictionless. There
       is no test--"
       "But there is," Dick said. "The old, eternal test of truth--_Will it
       work?_"
       "Ah, now you are pounding your favorite brass tack," Paula smiled.
       "And Dar Hyal, with a few arm-wavings and word-whirrings, will show
       that all brass tacks are illusions; and Terrence, that brass tacks are
       sordid, irrelevant and non-essential things at best; and Hancock, that
       the overhanging heaven of Bergson is paved with brass tacks, only that
       they are a much superior article to yours; and Leo, that there is only
       one brass tack in the universe, and that it is Beauty, and that it
       isn't brass at all but gold."
       * * * * *
       "Come on, Red Cloud, go riding this afternoon," Paula asked her
       husband. "Get the cobwebs out of your brain, and let lawyers and mines
       and livestock go hang."
       "I'd like to, Paul," he answered. "But I can't. I've got to rush in a
       machine all the way to the Buckeye. Word came in just before lunch.
       They're in trouble at the dam. There must have been a fault in the
       under-strata, and too-heavy dynamiting has opened it. In short, what's
       the good of a good dam when the bottom of the reservoir won't hold
       water?"
       Three hours later, returning from the Buckeye, Dick noted that for the
       first time Paula and Graham had gone riding together alone.
       * * * * *
       The Wainwrights and the Coghlans, in two machines, out for a week's
       trip to the Russian River, rested over for a day at the Big House, and
       were the cause of Paula's taking out the tally-ho for a picnic into
       the Los Baños Hills. Starting in the morning, it was impossible for
       Dick to accompany them, although he left Blake in the thick of
       dictation to go out and see them off. He assured himself that no
       detail was amiss in the harnessing and hitching, and reseated the
       party, insisting on Graham coming forward into the box-seat beside
       Paula.
       "Just must have a reserve of man's strength alongside of Paula in case
       of need," Dick explained. "I've known a brake-rod to carry away on a
       down grade somewhat to the inconvenience of the passengers. Some of
       them broke their necks. And now, to reassure you, with Paula at the
       helm, I'll sing you a song:
       "What can little Paula do?
       Why, drive a phaeton and two.
       Can little Paula do no more?
       Yes, drive a tally-ho and four."
       All were in laughter as Paula nodded to the grooms to release the
       horses' heads, took the feel of the four mouths on her hands, and
       shortened and slipped the reins to adjustment of four horses into the
       collars and taut on the traces.
       In the babel of parting gibes to Dick, none of the guests was aware of
       aught else than a bright morning, the promise of a happy day, and a
       genial host bidding them a merry going. But Paula, despite the keen
       exhilaration that should have arisen with the handling of four such
       horses, was oppressed by a vague sadness in which, somehow, Dick's
       being left behind figured. Through Graham's mind Dick's merry face had
       flashed a regret of conscience that, instead of being seated there
       beside this one woman, he should be on train and steamer fleeing to
       the other side of the world.
       But the merriness died on Dick's face the moment he turned on his heel
       to enter the house. It was a few minutes later than ten when he
       finished his dictation and Mr. Blake rose to go. He hesitated, then
       said a trifle apologetically:
       "You told me, Mr. Forrest, to remind you of the proofs of your
       Shorthorn book. They wired their second hurry-up yesterday."
       "I won't be able to tackle it myself," Dick replied. "Will you please
       correct the typographical, submit the proofs to Mr. Manson for
       correction of fact--tell him be sure to verify that pedigree of King
       of Devon--and ship them off."
       Until eleven Dick received his managers and foremen. But not for a
       quarter of an hour after that did he get rid of his show manager, Mr.
       Pitts, with the tentative make-up of the catalogue for the first
       annual stock-sale on the ranch. By that time Mr. Bonbright was on hand
       with his sheaf of telegrams, and the lunch-hour was at hand ere they
       were cleaned up.
       For the first time alone since he had seen the tally-ho off, Dick
       stepped out on his sleeping porch to the row of barometers and
       thermometers on the wall. But he had come to consult, not them, but
       the girl's face that laughed from the round wooden frame beneath them.
       "Paula, Paula," he said aloud, "are you surprising yourself and me
       after all these years? Are you turning madcap at sober middle age?"
       He put on leggings and spurs to be ready for riding after lunch, and
       what his thoughts had been while buckling on the gear he epitomized to
       the girl in the frame.
       "Play the game," he muttered. And then, after a pause, as he turned to
       go: "A free field and no favor ... and no favor."
       * * * * *
       "Really, if I don't go soon, I'll have to become a pensioner and join
       the philosophers of the madroño grove," Graham said laughingly to
       Dick.
       It was the time of cocktail assembling, and Paula, in addition to
       Graham, was the only one of the driving party as yet to put in an
       appearance.
       "If all the philosophers together would just make one book!" Dick
       demurred. "Good Lord, man, you've just got to complete your book here.
       I got you started and I've got to see you through with it."
       Paula's encouragement to Graham to stay on--mere stereotyped,
       uninterested phrases--was music to Dick. His heart leapt. After all,
       might he not be entirely mistaken? For two such mature, wise, middle-
       aged individuals as Paula and Graham any such foolishness was
       preposterous and unthinkable. They were not young things with their
       hearts on their sleeves.
       "To the book!" he toasted. He turned to Paula. "A good cocktail," he
       praised. "Paul, you excel yourself, and you fail to teach Oh Joy the
       art. His never quite touch yours.--Yes, another, please." _