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VIII. NOMINALIST AND REALIST
Ralph Waldo Emerson
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       _ NOMINALIST AND REALIST.
       In countless upward-striving waves
       The moon-drawn tide-wave strives:
       In thousand far-transplanted grafts
       The parent fruit survives;
       So, in the new-born millions,
       The perfect Adam lives.
       Not less are summer-mornings dear
       To every child they wake,
       And each with novel life his sphere
       Fills for his proper sake.
       VIII. NONIMALIST AND REALIST.
       I CANNOT often enough say that a man is only a
       relative and representative nature. Each is a hint
       of the truth, but far enough from being that truth
       which yet he quite newly and inevitably suggests
       to us. If I seek it in him I shall not find it.
       Could any man conduct into me the pure stream of
       that which he pretends to be! Long afterwards I
       find that quality elsewhere which he promised me.
       The genius of the Platonists is intoxicating to the
       student, yet how few particulars of it can I detach
       from all their books. The man momentarily stands
       for the thought, but will not bear examination; and
       a society of men will cursorily represent well enough
       a certain quality and culture, for example, chivalry
       or beauty of manners; but separate them and there is
       no gentleman and no lady in the group. The least hint
       sets us on the pursuit of a character which no man
       realizes. We have such exorbitant eyes that on seeing
       the smallest arc we complete the curve, and when the
       curtain is lifted from the diagram which it seemed to
       veil, we are vexed to find that no more was drawn than
       just that fragment of an arc which we first beheld. We
       are greatly too liberal in our construction of each
       other's faculty and promise. Exactly what the parties
       have already done they shall do again; but that which
       we inferred from their nature and inception, they will
       not do. That is in nature, but not in them. That happens
       in the world, which we often witness in a public debate.
       Each of the speakers expresses himself imperfectly; no
       one of them hears much that another says, such is the
       preoccupation of mind of each; and the audience, who
       have only to hear and not to speak, judge very wisely
       and superiorly how wrongheaded and unskilful is each of
       the debaters to his own affair. Great men or men of great
       gifts you shall easily find, but symmetrical men never.
       When I meet a pure intellectual force or a generosity of
       affection, I believe here then is man; and am presently
       mortified by the discovery that this individual is no
       more available to his own or to the general ends than
       his companions; because the power which drew my respect
       is not supported by the total symphony of his talents.
       All persons exist to society by some shining trait of
       beauty or utility which they have. We borrow the
       proportions of the man from that one fine feature, and
       finish the portrait symmetrically; which is false, for
       the rest of his body is small or deformed. I observe a
       person who makes a good public appearance, and conclude
       thence the perfection of his private character, on which
       this is based; but he has no private character. He is a
       graceful cloak or lay-figure for holidays. All our poets,
       heroes, and saints, fail utterly in some one or in many
       parts to satisfy our idea, fail to draw our spontaneous
       interest, and so leave us without any hope of realization
       but in our own future. Our exaggeration of all fine
       characters arises from the fact that we identify each in
       turn with the soul. But there are no such men as we fable;
       no Jesus, nor Pericles, nor Caesar, nor Angelo, nor
       Washington, such as we have made. We consecrate a great
       deal of nonsense because it was allowed by great men.
       There is none without his foible. I verily believe if an
       angel should come to chant the chorus of the moral law,
       he would eat too much gingerbread, or take liberties with
       private letters, or do some precious atrocity. It is bad
       enough that our geniuses cannot do anything useful, but
       it is worse that no man is fit for society who has fine
       traits. He is admired at a distance, but he cannot come
       near without appearing a cripple. The men of fine parts
       protect themselves by solitude, or by courtesy, or by
       satire, or by an acid worldly manner, each concealing as
       he best can his incapacity for useful association, but
       they want either love or self-reliance.
       Our native love of reality joins with this experience
       to teach us a little reserve, and to dissuade a too
       sudden surrender to the brilliant qualities of persons.
       Young people admire talents or particular excellences;
       as we grow older we value total powers and effects, as
       the impression, the quality, the spirit of men and
       things. The genius is all. The man,--it is his system:
       we do not try a solitary word or act, but his habit.
       The acts which you praise, I praise not, since they are
       departures from his faith, and are mere compliances.
       The magnetism which arranges tribes and races in one
       polarity is alone to be respected; the men are steel-
       filings. Yet we unjustly select a particle, and say,
       'O steel-filing number one! what heart-drawings I feel
       to thee! what prodigious virtues are these of thine! how
       constitutional to thee, and incommunicable.' Whilst we
       speak the loadstone is withdrawn; down falls our filing
       in a heap with the rest, and we continue our mummery to
       the wretched shaving. Let us go for universals; for the
       magnetism, not for the needles. Human life and its
       persons are poor empirical pretensions. A personal
       influence is an ignis fatuus. If they say it is great,
       it is great; if they say it is small, it is small; you
       see it, and you see it not, by turns; it borrows all its
       size from the momentary estimation of the speakers: the
       Will-of-the-wisp vanishes if you go too near, vanishes
       if you go too far, and only blazes at one angle. Who
       can tell if Washington be a great man or no? Who can
       tell if Franklin be? Yes, or any but the twelve, or six,
       or three great gods of fame? And they too loom and fade
       before the eternal.
       We are amphibious creatures, weaponed for two
       elements, having two sets of faculties, the particular
       and the catholic. We adjust our instrument for general
       observation, and sweep the heavens as easily as we
       pick out a single figure in the terrestrial landscape.
       We are practically skilful in detecting elements for
       which we have no place in our theory, and no name. Thus
       we are very sensible of an atmospheric influence in men
       and in bodies of men, not accounted for in an arithmetical
       addition of all their measurable properties. There is a
       genius of a nation, which is not to be found in the
       numerical citizens, but which characterizes the society.
       England, strong, punctual, practical, well-spoken England
       I should not find if I should go to the island to seek it.
       In the parliament, in the play-house, at dinner-tables, I
       might see a great number of rich, ignorant, book-read,
       conventional, proud men,--many old women,--and not anywhere
       the Englishman who made the good speeches, combined the
       accurate engines, and did the bold and nervous deeds. It
       is even worse in America, where, from the intellectual
       quickness of the race, the genius of the country is more
       splendid in its promise and more slight in its performance.
       Webster cannot do the work of Webster. We conceive distinctly
       enough the French, the Spanish, the German genius, and it
       is not the less real that perhaps we should not meet in
       either of those nations a single individual who corresponded
       with the type. We infer the spirit of the nation in great
       measure from the language, which is a sort of monument to
       which each forcible individual in a course of many hundred
       years has contributed a stone. And, universally, a good
       example of this social force is the veracity of language,
       which cannot be debauched. In any controversy concerning
       morals, an appeal may be made with safety to the sentiments
       which the language of the people expresses. Proverbs, words,
       and grammar-inflections convey the public sense with more
       purity and precision than the wisest individual.
       In the famous dispute with the Nominalists, the
       Realists had a good deal of reason. General ideas
       are essences. They are our gods: they round and
       ennoble the most partial and sordid way of living.
       Our proclivity to details cannot quite degrade our
       life and divest it of poetry. The day-laborer is
       reckoned as standing at the foot of the social scale,
       yet he is saturated with the laws of the world. His
       measures are the hours; morning and night, solstice
       and equinox, geometry, astronomy and all the lovely
       accidents of nature play through his mind. Money,
       which represents the prose of life, and which is
       hardly spoken of in parlors without an apology, is,
       in its effects and laws, as beautiful as roses.
       Property keeps the accounts of the world, and is
       always moral. The property will be found where the
       labor, the wisdom, and the virtue have been in nations,
       in classes, and (the whole life-time considered, with
       the compensations) in the individual also. How wise
       the world appears, when the laws and usages of nations
       are largely detailed, and the completeness of the
       municipal system is considered! Nothing is left out.
       If you go into the markets and the custom-houses, the
       insurers' and notaries' offices, the offices of sealers
       of weights and measures, of inspection of provisions,--
       it will appear as if one man had made it all. Wherever
       you go, a wit like your own has been before you, and
       has realized its thought. The Eleusinian mysteries, the
       Egyptian architecture, the Indian astronomy, the Greek
       sculpture, show that there always were seeing and knowing
       men in the planet. The world is full of masonic ties, of
       guilds, of secret and public legions of honor; that of
       scholars, for example; and that of gentlemen, fraternizing
       with the upper class of every country and every culture.
       I am very much struck in literature by the appearance
       that one person wrote all the books; as if the editor
       of a journal planted his body of reporters in different
       parts of the field of action, and relieved some by
       others from time to time; but there is such equality
       and identity both of judgment and point of view in
       the narrative that it is plainly the work of one all-
       seeing, all-hearing gentleman. I looked into Pope's
       Odyssey yesterday: it is as correct and elegant after
       our canon of to-day as if it were newly written. The
       modernness of all good books seems to give me an
       existence as wide as man. What is well done I feel as
       if I did; what is ill done I reck not of. Shakspeare's
       passages of passion (for example, in Lear and Hamlet)
       are in the very dialect of the present year. I am
       faithful again to the whole over the members in my
       use of books. I find the most pleasure in reading a
       book in a manner least flattering to the author. I
       read Proclus, and sometimes Plato, as I might read a
       dictionary, for a mechanical help to the fancy and
       the imagination. I read for the lustres, as if one
       should use a fine picture in a chromatic experiment,
       for its rich colors. 'Tis not Proclus, but a piece
       of nature and fate that I explore. It is a greater
       joy to see the author's author, than himself. A higher
       pleasure of the same kind I found lately at a concert,
       where I went to hear Handel's Messiah. As the master
       overpowered the littleness and incapableness of the
       performers and made them conductors of his electricity,
       so it was easy to observe what efforts nature was
       making, through so many hoarse, wooden, and imperfect
       persons, to produce beautiful voices, fluid and soul-
       guided men and women. The genius of nature was paramount
       at the oratorio.
       This preference of the genius to the parts is the
       secret of that deification of art, which is found
       in all superior minds. Art, in the artist, is
       proportion, or a habitual respect to the whole by
       an eye loving beauty in details. And the wonder and
       charm of it is the sanity in insanity which it denotes.
       Proportion is almost impossible to human beings. There
       is no one who does not exaggerate. In conversation,
       men are encumbered with personality, and talk too much.
       In modern sculpture, picture, and poetry, the beauty is
       miscellaneous; the artist works here and there and at
       all points, adding and adding, instead of unfolding
       the unit of his thought. Beautiful details we must have,
       or no artist; but they must be means and never other.
       The eye must not lose sight for a moment of the purpose.
       Lively boys write to their ear and eye, and the cool
       reader finds nothing but sweet jingles in it. When they
       grow older, they respect the argument.
       We obey the same intellectual integrity when we
       study in exceptions the law of the world. Anomalous
       facts, as the never quite obsolete rumors of magic
       and demonology, and the new allegations of phrenologists
       and neurologists, are of ideal use. They are good
       indications. Homoeopathy is insignificant as an art
       of healing, but of great value as criticism on the
       hygeia or medical practice of the time. So with
       Mesmerism, Swedenborgism, Fourierism, and the Millennial
       Church; they are poor pretensions enough, but good
       criticism on the science, philosophy, and preaching
       of the day. For these abnormal insights of the adepts
       ought to be normal, and things of course.
       All things show us that on every side we are very
       near to the best. It seems not worth while to execute
       with too much pains some one intellectual, or
       aesthetical, or civil feat, when presently the dream
       will scatter, and we shall burst into universal power.
       The reason of idleness and of crime is the deferring
       of our hopes. Whilst we are waiting we beguile the
       time with jokes, with sleep, with eating, and with
       crimes.
       Thus we settle it in our cool libraries, that all
       the agents with which we deal are subalterns, which
       we can well afford to let pass, and life will be
       simpler when we live at the centre and flout the
       surfaces. I wish to speak with all respect of
       persons, but sometimes I must pinch myself to keep
       awake and preserve the due decorum. They melt so
       fast into each other that they are like grass and
       trees, and it needs an effort to treat them as
       individuals. Though the uninspired man certainly
       finds persons a conveniency in household matters,
       the divine man does not respect them; he sees them
       as a rack of clouds, or a fleet of ripples which
       the wind drives over the surface of the water. But
       this is flat rebellion. Nature will not be Buddhist:
       she resents generalizing, and insults the philosopher
       in every moment with a million of fresh particulars.
       It is all idle talking: as much as a man is a whole,
       so is he also a part; and it were partial not to
       see it. What you say in your pompous distribution
       only distributes you into your class and section. You
       have not got rid of parts by denying them, but are the
       more partial. You are one thing, but Nature is one
       thing and the other thing, in the same moment. She will
       not remain orbed in a thought, but rushes into persons;
       and when each person, inflamed to a fury of personality,
       would conquer all things to his poor crotchet, she
       raises up against him another person, and by many persons
       incarnates again a sort of whole. She will have all. Nick
       Bottom cannot play all the parts, work it how he may;
       there will be somebody else, and the world will be round.
       Everything must have its flower or effort at the beautiful,
       coarser or finer according to its stuff. They relieve and
       recommend each other, and the sanity of society is a
       balance of a thousand insanities. She punishes
       abstractionists, and will only forgive an induction which
       is rare and casual. We like to come to a height of land
       and see the landscape, just as we value a general remark
       in conversation. But it is not the intention of Nature
       that we should live by general views. We fetch fire and
       water, run about all day among the shops and markets, and
       get our clothes and shoes made and mended, and are the
       victims of these details; and once in a fortnight we arrive
       perhaps at a rational moment. If we were not thus infatuated,
       if we saw the real from hour to hour, we should not be here
       to write and to read, but should have been burned or frozen
       long ago. She would never get anything done, if she suffered
       admirable Crichtons and universal geniuses. She loves better
       a wheelwright who dreams all night of wheels, and a groom
       who is part of his horse; for she is full of work, and these
       are her hands. As the frugal farmer takes care that his
       cattle shall eat down the rowen, and swine shall eat the
       waste of his house, and poultry shall pick the crumbs,--so
       our economical mother dispatches a new genius and habit of
       mind into every district and condition of existence, plants
       an eye wherever a new ray of light can fall, and gathering
       up into some man every property in the universe, establishes
       thousandfold occult mutual attractions among her offspring,
       that all this wash and waste of power may be imparted and
       exchanged.
       Great dangers undoubtedly accrue from this incarnation
       and distribution of the godhead, and hence Nature has
       her maligners, as if she were Circe; and Alphonso of
       Castille fancied he could have given useful advice.
       But she does not go unprovided; she has hellebore at
       the bottom of the cup. Solitude would ripen a plentiful
       crop of despots. The recluse thinks of men as having
       his manner, or as not having his manner; and as having
       degrees of it, more and less. But when he comes into a
       public assembly he sees that men have very different
       manners from his own, and in their way admirable. In
       his childhood and youth he has had many checks and
       censures, and thinks modestly enough of his own endowment.
       When afterwards he comes to unfold it in propitious
       circumstance, it seems the only talent; he is delighted
       with his success, and accounts himself already the fellow
       of the great. But he goes into a mob, into a banking
       house, into a mechanic's shop, into a mill, into a
       laboratory, into a ship, into a camp, and in each new
       place he is no better than an idiot; other talents take
       place, and rule the hour. The rotation which whirls every
       leaf and pebble to the meridian, reaches to every gift of
       man, and we all take turns at the top.
       For Nature, who abhors mannerism, has set her heart
       on breaking up all styles and tricks, and it is so
       much easier to do what one has done before than to
       do a new thing, that there is a perpetual tendency
       to a set mode. In every conversation, even the highest,
       there is a certain trick, which may be soon learned
       by an acute person and then that particular style
       continued indefinitely. Each man too is a tyrant in
       tendency, because he would impose his idea on others;
       and their trick is their natural defence. Jesus would
       absorb the race; but Tom Paine or the coarsest
       blasphemer helps humanity by resisting this exuberance
       of power. Hence the immense benefit of party in politics,
       as it reveals faults of character in a chief, which the
       intellectual force of the persons, with ordinary
       opportunity and not hurled into aphelion by hatred,
       could not have seen. Since we are all so stupid, what
       benefit that there should be two stupidities! It is
       like that brute advantage so essential to astronomy,
       of having the diameter of the earth's orbit for a base
       of its triangles. Democracy is morose, and runs to
       anarchy, but in the State and in the schools it is
       indispensable to resist the consolidation of all men
       into a few men. If John was perfect, why are you and
       I alive? As long as any man exists, there is some need
       of him; let him fight for his own. A new poet has
       appeared; a new character approached us; why should we
       refuse to eat bread until we have found his regiment
       and section in our old army-files? Why not a new man?
       Here is a new enterprise of Brook Farm, of Skeneateles,
       of Northampton: why so impatient to baptize them Essenes,
       or Port-Royalists, or Shakers, or by any known and effete
       name? Let it be a new way of living. Why have only two
       or three ways of life, and not thousands? Every man is
       wanted, and no man is wanted much. We came this time
       for condiments, not for corn. We want the great genius
       only for joy; for one star more in our constellation,
       for one tree more in our grove. But he thinks we wish
       to belong to him, as he wishes to occupy us. He greatly
       mistakes us. I think I have done well if I have acquired
       a new word from a good author; and my business with him
       is to find my own, though it were only to melt him down
       into an epithet or an image for daily use:--
       "Into paint will I grind thee, my bride!"
       To embroil the confusion, and make it impossible
       to arrive at any general statement,--when we have
       insisted on the imperfection of individuals, our
       affections and our experience urge that every
       individual is entitled to honor, and a very generous
       treatment is sure to be repaid. A recluse sees only
       two or three persons, and allows them all their room;
       they spread themselves at large. The statesman looks
       at many, and compares the few habitually with others,
       and these look less. Yet are they not entitled to this
       generosity of reception? and is not munificence the
       means of insight? For though gamesters say that the
       cards beat all the players, though they were never so
       skilful, yet in the contest we are now considering,
       the players are also the game, and share the power of
       the cards. If you criticise a fine genius, the odds
       are that you are out of your reckoning, and instead
       of the poet, are censuring your own caricature of
       him. For there is somewhat spheral and infinite in
       every man, especially in every genius, which, if you
       can come very near him, sports with all your
       limitations. For rightly every man is a channel through
       which heaven floweth, and whilst I fancied I was
       criticising him, I was censuring or rather terminating
       my own soul. After taxing Goethe as a courtier,
       artificial, unbelieving, worldly,--I took up this book
       of Helena, and found him an Indian of the wilderness,
       a piece of pure nature like an apple or an oak, large
       as morning or night, and virtuous as a brier-rose.
       But care is taken that the whole tune shall be
       played. If we were not kept among surfaces, every
       thing would be large and universal; now the excluded
       attributes burst in on us with the more brightness
       that they have been excluded. "Your turn now, my
       turn next," is the rule of the game. The universality
       being hindered in its primary form, comes in the
       secondary form of all sides; the points come in
       succession to the meridian, and by the speed of
       rotation a new whole is formed. Nature keeps herself
       whole and her representation complete in the experience
       of each mind. She suffers no seat to be vacant in her
       college. It is the secret of the world that all things
       subsist and do not die but only retire a little from
       sight and afterwards return again. Whatever does not
       concern us is concealed from us. As soon as a person
       is no longer related to our present well-being, he is
       concealed, or dies, as we say. Really, all things and
       persons are related to us, but according to our nature
       they act on us not at once but in succession, and we
       are made aware of their presence one at a time. All
       persons, all things which we have known, are here
       present, and many more than we see; the world is full.
       As the ancient said, the world is a plenum or solid;
       and if we saw all things that really surround us we
       should be imprisoned and unable to move. For though
       nothing is impassable to the soul, but all things are
       pervious to it and like highways, yet this is only
       whilst the soul does not see them. As soon as the soul
       sees any object, it stops before that object. Therefore,
       the divine Providence which keeps the universe open in
       every direction to the soul, conceals all the furniture
       and all the persons that do not concern a particular
       soul, from the senses of that individual. Through
       solidest eternal things the man finds his road as if
       they did not subsist, and does not once suspect their
       being. As soon as he needs a new object, suddenly he
       beholds it, and no longer attempts to pass through it,
       but takes another way. When he has exhausted for the
       time the nourishment to be drawn from any one person
       or thing, that object is withdrawn from his observation,
       and though still in his immediate neighborhood, he does
       not suspect its presence. Nothing is dead: men feign
       themselves dead, and endure mock funerals and mournful
       obituaries, and there they stand looking out of the
       window, sound and well, in some new and strange disguise.
       Jesus is not dead; he is very well alive: nor John, nor
       Paul, nor Mahomet, nor Aristotle; at times we believe
       we have seen them all, and could easily tell the names
       under which they go.
       If we cannot make voluntary and conscious steps
       in the admirable science of universals, let us see
       the parts wisely, and infer the genius of nature
       from the best particulars with a becoming charity.
       What is best in each kind is an index of what
       should be the average of that thing. Love shows me
       the opulence of nature, by disclosing to me in my
       friend a hidden wealth, and I infer an equal depth
       of good in every other direction. It is commonly
       said by farmers that a good pear or apple costs no
       more time or pains to rear than a poor one; so I
       would have no work of art, no speech, or action, or
       thought, or friend, but the best.
       The end and the means, the gamester and the game,
       --life is made up of the intermixture and reaction
       of these two amicable powers, whose marriage appears
       beforehand monstrous, as each denies and tends to
       abolish the other. We must reconcile the contradictions
       as we can, but their discord and their concord
       introduce wild absurdities into our thinking and speech.
       No sentence will hold the whole truth, and the only way
       in which we can be just, is by giving ourselves the lie;
       Speech is better than silence; silence is better than
       speech;--All things are in contact; every atom has a
       sphere of repulsion;--Things are, and are not, at the
       same time;--and the like. All the universe over, there
       is but one thing, this old Two-Face, creator-creature,
       mind-matter, right-wrong, of which any proposition may
       be affirmed or denied. Very fitly therefore I assert
       that every man is a partialist, that nature secures him
       as an instrument by self-conceit, preventing the
       tendencies to religion and science; and now further
       assert, that, each man's genius being nearly and
       affectionately explored, he is justified in his
       individuality, as his nature is found to be immense;
       and now I add that every man is a universalist also,
       and, as our earth, whilst it spins on its own axis,
       spins all the time around the sun through the celestial
       spaces, so the least of its rational children, the most
       dedicated to his private affair, works out, though as it
       were under a disguise, the universal problem. We fancy
       men are individuals; so are pumpkins; but every pumpkin
       in the field goes through every point of pumpkin history.
       The rabid democrat, as soon as he is senator and rich man,
       has ripened beyond possibility of sincere radicalism, and
       unless he can resist the sun, he must be conservative the
       remainder of his days. Lord Eldon said in his old age that
       "if he were to begin life again, he would be damned but he
       would begin as agitator."
       We hide this universality if we can, but it appears
       at all points. We are as ungrateful as children.
       There is nothing we cherish and strive to draw to us
       but in some hour we turn and rend it. We keep a running
       fire of sarcasm at ignorance and the life of the senses;
       then goes by, perchance, a fair girl, a piece of life,
       gay and happy, and making the commonest offices beautiful
       by the energy and heart with which she does them; and
       seeing this we admire and love her and them, and say,
       'Lo! a genuine creature of the fair earth, not dissipated
       or too early ripened by books, philosophy, religion,
       society, or care!' insinuating a treachery and contempt
       for all we had so long loved and wrought in ourselves
       and others.
       If we could have any security against moods! If
       the profoundest prophet could be holden to his
       words, and the hearer who is ready to sell all
       and join the crusade could have any certificate
       that tomorrow his prophet shall not unsay his
       testimony! But the Truth sits veiled there on the
       Bench, and never interposes an adamantine syllable;
       and the most sincere and revolutionary doctrine,
       put as if the ark of God were carried forward some
       furlongs, and planted there for the succor of the
       world, shall in a few weeks be coldly set aside by
       the same speaker, as morbid; "I thought I was right,
       but I was not,"--and the same immeasurable credulity
       demanded for new audacities. If we were not of all
       opinions! if we did not in any moment shift the
       platform on which we stand, and look and speak from
       another! if there could be any regulation, any 'one-
       hour-rule,' that a man should never leave his point
       of view without sound of trumpet. I am always insincere,
       as always knowing there are other moods.
       How sincere and confidential we can be, saying
       all that lies in the mind, and yet go away feeling
       that all is yet unsaid, from the incapacity of the
       parties to know each other, although they use the
       same words! My companion assumes to know my mood
       and habit of thought, and we go on from explanation
       to explanation until all is said which words can,
       and we leave matters just as they were at first,
       because of that vicious assumption. Is it that every
       man believes every other to be an incurable partialist,
       and himself a universalist? I talked yesterday with a
       pair of philosophers; I endeavored to show my good
       men that I love everything by turns and nothing long;
       that I loved the centre, but doated on the superficies;
       that I loved man, if men seemed to me mice and rats;
       that I revered saints, but woke up glad that the old
       pagan world stood its ground and died hard; that I was
       glad of men of every gift and nobility, but would not
       live in their arms. Could they but once understand
       that I loved to know that they existed, and heartily
       wished them God-speed, yet, out of my poverty of life
       and thought, had no word or welcome for them when they
       came to see me, and could well consent to their living
       in Oregon, for any claim I felt on them,--it would be
       a great satisfaction. _