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Not Like Other Girls
Chapter 27. A Dark Hour
Rosa Nouchette Carey
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       _ CHAPTER XXVII. A DARK HOUR
       "I should go one evening, if I were you: it is easy to see that Mrs. Cheyne has taken a fancy to you," said Nan, who was much interested by this recital; but to this Phillis replied, with a very decided shake of the head,--
       "I shall do nothing of the kind; I was not made to be a fine lady's protegee. If she patronized me, I should grow savage and show my teeth; and, as I have no desire to break the peace, we had better remain strangers. Dear Magdalene certainly has a temper!" finished Phillis, with a wicked little sneer.
       Nan tried to combat this resolution, and used a great many arguments: she was anxious that Phillis should avail herself of this sudden fancy on the part of Mrs. Cheyne to lift herself and perhaps all of them into society with their equals. Nan's good sense told her that though at present the novelty and excitement of their position prevented them from realizing the full extent of their isolation, in time it must weigh on them very heavily, and especially on Phillis, who was bright and clever and liked society; but all her words were powerless against Phillis's stubbornness: to the White House she could not and would not go.
       But one evening she changed her mind very suddenly, when a note from Miss Mewlstone reached her. A gardener's boy brought it: "it was very particular, and was to be delivered immediate to the young lady," he observed, holding the missive between a very grimy finger and thumb.
       
"MY DEAR YOUNG LADY,--
       "Pride is all very well, but charity is often best in the long run, and a little kindness to a suffering human being is never out of place in a young creature like you.
       "Poor Magdalene has been very sadly for days, and I have got it into my stupid old head--that is always fancying things--that she has been watching for folks who have been too proud to come, though she would die sooner than tell me so; but that is her way, poor dear!
       "It is ill to wake at nights with nothing but sad thoughts for company, and it is ill wearing out the long days with only a silly old body to cheer one up; and when there is nothing fresh to say, and nothing to expect, and not a footstep or a voice to break the silence, then it seems to me that a young voice--that is, a kind voice--would be welcome. Take this hint, my dear, and keep my counsel, for I am only a silly old woman, as she often says.
       "Yours,
       Bathsheba Mewlstone."

       "Oh, I must go now!" observed Phillis, in an embarrassed voice, as she laid this singular note before Nan.
       "Yes, dear; and you had better put on your hat at once, and Dulce and I will walk with you as far as the gate. It is sad for you to miss the scramble on the shore; but, when other people really want us, I feel as though it were a direct call," finished Nan, solemnly.
       "I am afraid there is a storm coming up," replied Phillis, who had been oppressed all day by the heavy thundery atmosphere: she had looked so heated and weary that Nan had proposed a walk by the shore. Work was pouring upon them from all sides: the townspeople, envious of Mrs. Trimmings's stylish new dress, were besieging the Friary with orders, and the young dressmakers would have been literally overwhelmed with their labors, only that Nan, with admirable foresight, insisted on taking in no more work than they felt themselves able to complete.
       "No," she would say to some disappointed customer, "our hands are full just now, and we cannot undertake any more orders at present: we will not promise more than we can perform. Come to me again in a fortnight's time, and we will willingly make your dress, but now it is impossible." And in most cases the dress was brought punctually at the time appointed.
       Phillis used to grumble a little at this.
       "You ought not to refuse orders, Nan," she said, rather fretfully, once. "Any other dressmaker would sit up half the night rather than disappoint a customer."
       "My dear," Nan returned, in her elder-sisterly voice, which had always a great effect on Phillis, "I wonder what use Dulce and you would be if you sat up sewing half the night, and drinking strong tea to keep yourselves awake? No, there shall be no burning the candles at both ends in this fashion; please God we will keep our health, and our customers; and no one in their senses could call us idle. Why, we are quite the fashion! Mrs. Squails told me yesterday that every one in Hadleigh was wild to have a gown made by the 'lady dressmakers.'"
       "Oh, I daresay!" replied Phillis, crossly, for the poor thing was so hot and tired that she could have cried from pure weariness and vexation of spirit: "but we shall not be the fashion long when the novelty wears off; people will call us independent, and get tired of us; and no wonder, if they are to wait for their dresses in this way."
       Nan's only answer was to look at Phillis's pale face in a pitying way; and then she took her hand, and led her to the corner, where her mother's Bible always lay, and then with ready fingers turned to the well known-passage, "Man goeth forth unto his work and to his labor unto the evening."
       "Well, Nan, what then?"
       "Evening is for rest,--for refreshment of mind and body: I will not have it turned into a time of toil. I know you, Phillis; you would work till your poor fingers got thin, and your spirits were all flattened out, and every nerve was jarring and set on edge; and you would call that duty! No, darling,--never! Dulce shall keep her roses, and we will have battledore and shuttlecock every evening; but, if I have to keep the key of the work-room in my pocket, you and Dulce shall never enter it after tea." And Nan's good sense, as usual, carried the day.
       Phillis would much rather have joined her sisters in their walk than have turned in at the gloomy lodge-gates.
       
"'All ye who enter here, leave hope behind,'"

       she quoted, softly, as she waved her hand to Nan.
       The servant who admitted her looked a little dubious over his errand.
       "His mistress was in her room," he believed, "and was far too unwell to see visitors. He would tell Miss Mewlstone, if the young lady liked to wait; but he was sure it was no use,"--all very civilly said. And as Phillis persisted in her intention of seeing Mrs. Cheyne, if possible, he ushered her into the library, a gloomy-looking room, with closed blinds, one of which he drew up, and then went in search of Miss Mewlstone.
       Phillis did not find her surroundings particularly cheerful. The air was darkened by the approaching storm. A sullen cloud hung over the sky. The library windows opened upon the shrubberies. Here the trees were planted so thickly that their shade obscured much of the light. The room was so dark that she could only dimly discern the handsome bindings of the books in the carved oak book-cases. The whole of the furniture seemed sombre and massive. The chair that the footman had placed for her was covered with violet velvet, and was in harmony with the rest of the furniture.
       Dreary as the room looked, it was nothing to the shrubbery walk. A narrow winding path seemed to vanish into utter darkness. In some places the trees met overhead, so closely had they grown.
       "If I were the mistress of the White House," Phillis said to herself, "I would cut every one of those trees down. They must make this part of the house quite unhealthy. It really looks like a 'ghost walk' that one reads about." But scarcely had these thoughts passed through her mind when she uttered a faint cry of alarm. The dark room, the impending storm, and her own overwrought feelings were making her nervous; but actually, through the gloom, she could see a figure in white approaching.
       In another moment she would have sought refuge in the hall, but contempt at her own cowardice kept her rooted to the spot.
       "She was an utter goose to be so startled! It was--yes, of course it was Mrs. Cheyne. She could see her more plainly now. She would step through the window and meet her."
       Phillis's feelings of uneasiness had not quite vanished. The obscurity was confusing, and invested everything with an unnatural effect. Even Mrs. Cheyne's figure, coming out from the dark background, seemed strange and unfamiliar. Phillis had always before seen her in black; but now she wore a white gown, fashioned loosely, like a wrapper, and her hair, which at other times had been most carefully arranged, was now strained tightly and unbecomingly from her face, which looked pallid and drawn. She started violently when she saw Phillis coming towards her, and seemed inclined to draw back and retrace her steps. It evidently cost her a strong effort to recover herself. She seemed to conquer her reluctance with difficulty.
       "So you have come at last, Miss Challoner," she said, fixing her eyes, which looked unnaturally bright, on Phillis. Her voice was cold, almost harsh, and her countenance expressed no pleasure. The hand she held out was so limp and cold that Phillis relinquished it hastily.
       "You said that I should be welcome," she faltered, and trying not to appear alarmed. She was too young and healthy to understand the meaning of the word hysteria, or to guess at the existence of nervous maladies that make some people's lives a long torment to them. Nevertheless, Mrs. Cheyne's singular aspect filled her with vague fear. It did not enter into her mind to connect the coming storm with Mrs. Cheyne's condition, until she hinted at it herself.
       "Oh, yes, you are welcome," she responded, wearily. "I have looked for you evening after evening, but you chose to come with the storm. It is a pity, perhaps; but then you did not know!"
       "What would you have me know?" asked Phillis, timidly.
       Mrs. Cheyne shrugged her shoulders a little flightily.
       "Oh, you are young!" she returned; "you do not understand what nerves mean; you sleep sweetly of a night, and have no bad dreams: it does not matter to you happy people if the air is full of sunshine or surcharged with electricity. For me, when the sun ceases to shine I am in despair. Fogs find me brooding. An impending storm suffocates me, and yet tears me to pieces with restlessness: it drives me hither and thither like a fallen leaf. I tire myself that I may sleep, and yet I stare open-eyed for hours together into the darkness. I wonder sometimes I do not go mad. But there! let us walk--let us walk." And she made a movement to retrace her steps; but Phillis, with a courage for which she commended herself afterwards, pulled her back by her hanging sleeves.
       "Oh, not there! it is not good for any one who is sad to walk in that dark place. No wonder your thoughts are sombre. Look! the heavy rain-drops are pattering among the leaves. I do not care to get wet: let us go back to the house."
       "Pshaw! what does it matter getting wet?" she returned, with a little scorn; but nevertheless she suffered Phillis to take her arm and draw her gently towards the house. Only as they came near the library window, she pointed to it indignantly. "Who has dared to enter that room, or open the window! Have I not forbidden over and over again that that room should be used? Do you think," she continued, in the same excited way, "that I would enter that room to-night of all nights! Why, I should hear his angry voice pealing in every corner! It was a good room for echoes; and he could speak loudly if he chose. Come away! there is a door I always use that leads to my private apartments. I am no recluse; but in these moods I do not care to show myself to people. If you are not afraid, you may come with me, unless you prefer Miss Mewlstone's company."
       "I would rather go with you," returned Phillis, gently. She could not in truth say she was not afraid; but all the same she must try and soothe the poor creature who was evidently enduring such torments of mind: so she followed in silence up the broad oak staircase.
       A green-baize door admitted them into a long and somewhat narrow corridor, lighted up by a row of high narrow windows set prettily with flower-boxes. Here there were several doors. Mrs. Cheyne paused before one a moment.
       "Look here! you shall see the mysteries of the west wing. This is my world; downstairs I am a different creature--taciturn, harsh, and prone to sarcasm. Ask Mr. Drummond what he thinks of me; but I never could endure a good young man--especially that delicious compound of the worldling and the saint--like the Reverend Archibald. See here, my dear: here I am never captious or say naughty things!"
       She threw open the door, and softly beckoned to Phillis to enter. It was a large empty room,--evidently a nursery. Some canaries were twittering faintly in a gilded cage. There were flowers in the two windows, and in the vases on the table: evidently some loving hands had arranged them that very morning. A large rocking-horse occupied the centre of the floor: a doll lay with its face downwards on the crimson carpet; a pile of wooden soldiers strutted on their zigzag platform,--one or two had fallen off; a torn picture-book had been flung beside them.
       "That was my Janie's picture-book," said Mrs. Cheyne, mournfully: "she was teaching her doll out of it just before she was taken ill. Nothing was touched; by a sort of inspiration,--a foreboding,--I do not know what,--I bade nurse leave the toys as they were. 'It is only an interrupted game: let the darlings find their toys as they put them,' I said to her that morning. Look at the soldiers, Bertie was always for soldiers,--bless him!"
       Her manner had grown calmer; and she spoke with such touching tenderness that tears came to Phillis's eyes. But Mrs. Cheyne never once looked at the girl; she lingered by the table a moment, adjusting a leaf here and a bud there in the bouquets, and then she opened an inner door leading to the night-nursery. Here the associations were still more harrowing. The cots stood side by side under a muslin canopy, with an alabaster angel between them; the little night-dresses lay folded on the pillows; on each quilt were the scarlet dressing-gown and the pair of tiny slippers; the clothes were piled neatly on two chairs,--a boy's velvet tunic on one, a girl's white frock, a little limp and discolored, hung over the rails of the other.
       "Everything just the same," murmured the poor mother. "Look here, my dear,"--with a faint smile--"these are Bertie's slippers: there is the hole he kicked in them when he was in his tempers, for my boy had the Cheyne temper. He was Herbert's image,--his very image." She sighed, paused, and went on: "Every night I come and sit beside their beds, and then the darlings come to me. I can see their faces--oh, so plainly!--and hear their voices. 'Good-night, dear mamma!' they seem to say to me, only Bertie's voice is always the louder."
       Her manner was becoming a little excited again; only Phillis took her hand and pressed it gently, and the touch seemed to soothe her like magic.
       "I am so glad you come here every night," she said, in her sweet, serious voice, from which every trace of fear had gone. "I think that a beautiful idea, to come and say your prayers beside one of these little beds."
       "To say my prayers!--I pray beside my darlings' beds!" exclaimed Mrs. Cheyne, in a startled voice. "Oh no! I never do that. God would not hear such prayers as mine,--never--never!"
       "Dear Mrs. Cheyne, why not?" She moved restlessly away at the question, and tried to disengage herself from Phillis's firm grasp. "The Divine Father hears all prayers," whispered the girl.
       "All?--but not mine,--not mine, or I should not be sitting here alone. Do you know my husband left me in anger,--that his last words to me were the bitterest he ever spoke? 'Good-by, Magdalene: you have made my life so wretched that I do not care if I never live to set foot in this house again!' And that to me,--his wedded wife, and the mother of his children,--who loved him so. Oh, Herbert! Herbert!" and, covering her face, the unhappy woman suddenly burst into a passion of tears. _
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Chapter 1. Five-O'clock Tea
Chapter 2. Dick Objects To The Mountains
Chapter 3. Mr. Mayne Makes Himself Disagreeable
Chapter 4. Dick's Fete
Chapter 5. "I Am Quite Sure Of Him"
Chapter 6. Mr. Trinder's Visit
Chapter 7. Phillis's Catechism
Chapter 8. "We Should Have To Carry Parcels"
Chapter 9. A Long Day
Chapter 10. The Friary
Chapter 11. "Tell Us All About It, Nan"
Chapter 12. "Laddie" Puts In An Appearance
Chapter 13. "I Must Have Grace"
Chapter 14. "You Can Dare To Tell Me These Things"
Chapter 15. A Van In The Braidwood Road
Chapter 16. A Visit To The White House
Chapter 17. "A Friend In Need"
Chapter 18. Dorothy Brings In The Best China
Chapter 19. Archie Is In A Bad Humor
Chapter 20. "You Are Romantic"
Chapter 21. Breaking The Peace
Chapter 22. "Trimmings, Not Squails"
Chapter 23. "Bravo, Atalanta!"
Chapter 24. Mothers Are Mothers
Chapter 25. Mattie's New Dress
Chapter 26. "Oh, You Are Proud!"
Chapter 27. A Dark Hour
Chapter 28. The Mysterious Stranger
Chapter 29. Mrs. Williams's Lodger
Chapter 30. "Now We Understand Each Other"
Chapter 31. Dick Thinks Of The City
Chapter 32. "Dick Is To Be Our Real Brother"
Chapter 33. "This Is Life And Death To Me"
Chapter 34. Miss Mewlstone Has An Interruption
Chapter 35. "Barby, Don't You Recollect Me?"
Chapter 36. Motes In The Sunshine
Chapter 37. "A Man Has A Right To His Own Thoughts"
Chapter 38. About Nothing Particular
Chapter 39. "How Do You Do, Aunt Catherine?"
Chapter 40. Alcides
Chapter 41. Sir Harry Bides His Time
Chapter 42. "Come, Now, I Call That Hard"
Chapter 43. "I Will Write No Such Letter"
Chapter 44. Mr. Mayne Orders A Basin Of Gruel
Chapter 45. An Uninvited Guest
Chapter 46. A New Invasion Of The Goths
Chapter 47. "It Was So Good Of You To Ask Me Here"
Chapter 48. Mrs. Sparsit's Poodle
Chapter 49. Mattie In A New Character
Chapter 50. Phillis's Favorite Month